'Cursive' by Cloud Gate Dance Theatre Part I
Time is 3rd Feb, finished watching the perf 'Cursive' by Cloud Gate Dance Theatre at Esplanade. Learnt alot from this performance, shall not dwell on the dance piece, in fact shall blog down some interesting Comments by Mr Lin Huai-Min so as for my future references.
Comments:
1) I didn't come up with any idea for Cursive, everything is open to interpretation by audience"
2) Dance is open to any form of interpretation. There is no Ling Gan to start off with, It started with Adhoc techniques, after which we refine the movements into dance steps"
3) I choreograph simply becos I need a platform for my dancers to perform. The end result of the perf is not impt, the process of choreographing is where the joy lies."
4) Dunno what lies in the future for Cloud Gate, just proceed with every single day; the joy & passion is in uncovering something new & unknown everyday"
5) Evolution is a process tt a dance piece will go thru, thus the existence of the trilogy Cursive, CursiveII & Wild Cursive"
Many much more comments made by him, but these few are the ones i wish to record down. Link point 5) with 3), therefore, should understand tt there is no perfect dance piece in this world. Every single piece of dance goes thru evolution, thereby the process should be more enjoyable than the end product becos the end product will simply evolve into another product. The process is where the growing exists.
What is mentioned by Mr Lin is actually v similar to what was taught by Jeff Tan. Performing, is/should be open to interpretation. Process > End Product, Learn to respect & appreciate products put up by others, crucial point is whether the idea is solid & actualized, performers got perf with their heart & soul.
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Thursday, January 19, 2006
Interests/Passion Vs. Occupation
Haha, nothing to do now in sch. Wah piang wait for 6 hrs of break leh.. Can u imagine it? In the end i end up doing lots of quizs from quizfarm.com. Got this website from wei hong's blog. Ended up doing many of them but eventually chose 3 to publish in my blog.. =)
V happy with the quiz on Which is ur Perfect Major. As mentioned by wei hong in his blog, its easy to score dance as ur major as long as u answer Strongly agree to all those qtn regarding body movements. But what i m happy abt is not tt i scored dance for my Major. Nope, take a look at my other 'scorings'. The thing i m happy abt is tt i scored ties for 4 subjects, namely Dance, Theatre, Journalism, Psychology. Eventually when u score ties, the quiz will ask u one final qtn as a tie breaker. Of course, i chose the option which i know relates to dance. Hence, in a certain way, one may argue tt i mainipulated my own results. But tt is not e issue i m concerned with. The happy thing abt this quiz is tt I m now convinced tt I haf other career options in life. =)
FYI, Frenz reading this entry, I m going to be on Attachment to companies doing Accounting work soon. After a yr plus, I will be graduating and may be stuck with Acc work once & for all. Thus, it's really comforting to know tt actually there r other options in life. (Some readers by now may think tt i m childish juz basing my thots on an online quiz) Well, someday, u all may understand the tragedy when interests do not align with occupation.
At least aft i haf done this quiz, I am VERY SURE tt my interests lies in where I thot it would be. Which means I m not avoiding Acc juz becos my grades r poor, & tt I like those subjects mentioned above not becos I do well in them, but simply becos I haf a TRUE PASSION for them. Eg. I not doing any journalism at all in Uni, but I simply love writing essays & blogging entries. The happy thing I can say to myself is tt I m glad I HAF BEEN TRUE TO MYSELF all along; I didnt blame my poor grades on any external factors, I always know what i m doing, I go DI or NHDS not becos I didnt wanna study or act 'big boss' etc.
I did all i did simply becos I have interests & passion in what i chose to do.
Sometimes as we grow up, we might tend to lie to ourselves SUB-CONSCIOUSLY maybe to cover up for our failure, save our own ego etc. I m happy today becos I confirmed tt I didnt lie to myself or escape from reality sub-consciously... The feeling is juz so true & real. =)
Attachment coming soon, will last for 10 weeks from May to July, I still dunno whether I can get thru job interviews and in addition, deliver good results on-the-job or not... All attachment programs all seem so hard to me... =( I feel helpless in this kind of situations cos like in this quiz, I once again confirmed tt actually i dun belong to the Corporate Business Industry, I m not those 'everyday in Shenton Way CBD area trying to make more $$' kind of ppl.
Accountancy.........
Haha, nothing to do now in sch. Wah piang wait for 6 hrs of break leh.. Can u imagine it? In the end i end up doing lots of quizs from quizfarm.com. Got this website from wei hong's blog. Ended up doing many of them but eventually chose 3 to publish in my blog.. =)
V happy with the quiz on Which is ur Perfect Major. As mentioned by wei hong in his blog, its easy to score dance as ur major as long as u answer Strongly agree to all those qtn regarding body movements. But what i m happy abt is not tt i scored dance for my Major. Nope, take a look at my other 'scorings'. The thing i m happy abt is tt i scored ties for 4 subjects, namely Dance, Theatre, Journalism, Psychology. Eventually when u score ties, the quiz will ask u one final qtn as a tie breaker. Of course, i chose the option which i know relates to dance. Hence, in a certain way, one may argue tt i mainipulated my own results. But tt is not e issue i m concerned with. The happy thing abt this quiz is tt I m now convinced tt I haf other career options in life. =)
FYI, Frenz reading this entry, I m going to be on Attachment to companies doing Accounting work soon. After a yr plus, I will be graduating and may be stuck with Acc work once & for all. Thus, it's really comforting to know tt actually there r other options in life. (Some readers by now may think tt i m childish juz basing my thots on an online quiz) Well, someday, u all may understand the tragedy when interests do not align with occupation.
At least aft i haf done this quiz, I am VERY SURE tt my interests lies in where I thot it would be. Which means I m not avoiding Acc juz becos my grades r poor, & tt I like those subjects mentioned above not becos I do well in them, but simply becos I haf a TRUE PASSION for them. Eg. I not doing any journalism at all in Uni, but I simply love writing essays & blogging entries. The happy thing I can say to myself is tt I m glad I HAF BEEN TRUE TO MYSELF all along; I didnt blame my poor grades on any external factors, I always know what i m doing, I go DI or NHDS not becos I didnt wanna study or act 'big boss' etc.
I did all i did simply becos I have interests & passion in what i chose to do.
Sometimes as we grow up, we might tend to lie to ourselves SUB-CONSCIOUSLY maybe to cover up for our failure, save our own ego etc. I m happy today becos I confirmed tt I didnt lie to myself or escape from reality sub-consciously... The feeling is juz so true & real. =)
Attachment coming soon, will last for 10 weeks from May to July, I still dunno whether I can get thru job interviews and in addition, deliver good results on-the-job or not... All attachment programs all seem so hard to me... =( I feel helpless in this kind of situations cos like in this quiz, I once again confirmed tt actually i dun belong to the Corporate Business Industry, I m not those 'everyday in Shenton Way CBD area trying to make more $$' kind of ppl.
Accountancy.........
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Saturday, January 14, 2006
Reasons to keep me ongoing in teaching DANCE
Time is Jan 2006, a yr has past since 2005, (a yr i taught at Tanglin SS), as of today I can declare tt i think i haf done a great job last yr..
Becos of commitments this yr, I can only teach on Tues & Fri at Tanglin, & becos of school politics which now involve dance instructors from other dance companies, the situation has worsened & become more complicated...
Life is not a bed of roses, yup politics exist everywhere BUT sub-consciously i once wished tt politics will not be existent in e Arena of Arts cos Arts is supposed to be driven by passion & not profit since Arts all along is NOP organisations. But of course in reality, politics still exist everywhere lah.. So the issue goes where dance instructors from other dance companies enter Tanglin SS & wish to divide the pie into more pieces, reducing DI's share into a smaller one. (Cos Mr Low not interested in these kind of political struggles, so we juz made do with the current situation lor..)
These type of reasons reminded me of what Jeff Tan said in his lectures (Dun do arts lah, be a arts consumer instead of a arts creator, Arts creators are manupilated by $$ one... Give ppl use $ to pressurize one...) So yup, actually wat Jeff said is correct, Life not a bed of roses. Arts oso have its dark side, juz like every other thing else in this world... So readers, those who wish to Do Dance as a occupation, be ready to face these ugly situations, & oso haf to be cool with it... =)
But, amidst all these unhappy & ugly things tt happen, i realize tt there is something tt give me motivation to go on (juz like what gives Jeff motivation in carrying on what he is doing, is he manage to *unplug* some students every semester.) is tt I managed to intro some students to the Dance Arena & make them haf interest in Dance.
This yr i m taking 2T1, 2N2 & 1E2. Apparently all quite rebellious classes. The motivation i haf is my last yr class 1E3 (now 2E3) now misses me so much, tt they acknowledge i m good teacher & wishes me to go back teach them on Wed.. Haha, unfortunately my class is Tues & Fri. The issue is not tt i haf a BIG ego tt my students muz say i m good. Nope, its the appreciation they show =) Once there is appreciation, at least i know someday in life, there r ppl in life whom r influenced by me in their lifetime.. This is min. sufficient for me as a motivtion to carry on in DANCE... =) Anything more than this i would jolly welcome but yup i treat it a Bonus.. They wish me to go back teach them & oso indicated tt they felt the other instructors from the other companies CMI, Haha.... Tt's y i say lah... No pt Involve in so many politics cos in e end students r still the best indicator of whether i can teach or not...
*unplug*
This is a v interesting event done by Jeff Tan. What it means is thru lectures & tutorials, he managed to teach Theatre studies & release our creativity + the way we look at issues/ productions. Thru his unplug process, u will look at issues (debate issues, relationships, human behaviour, politics etc) / productions(whether dance, drama, movies etc) in a new & revolutionary way which u would nv haf thot of in life...
Yes, is nv thot of b4... Hence the term *unplug* cos the analogy he used when conducting his lectures is tt he is Neo in Matrix & his job is to unplug students from their *fixed train of thought* & unleash our creativity as well as look at things from a v diff perspective, which hence as if gives them a new life... =) Though ideally is hope to unplug all students but usually he only managed to 'save' some every semester, BUT its already enough to keep him moving on... Yup, so M I... =)
Time is Jan 2006, a yr has past since 2005, (a yr i taught at Tanglin SS), as of today I can declare tt i think i haf done a great job last yr..
Becos of commitments this yr, I can only teach on Tues & Fri at Tanglin, & becos of school politics which now involve dance instructors from other dance companies, the situation has worsened & become more complicated...
Life is not a bed of roses, yup politics exist everywhere BUT sub-consciously i once wished tt politics will not be existent in e Arena of Arts cos Arts is supposed to be driven by passion & not profit since Arts all along is NOP organisations. But of course in reality, politics still exist everywhere lah.. So the issue goes where dance instructors from other dance companies enter Tanglin SS & wish to divide the pie into more pieces, reducing DI's share into a smaller one. (Cos Mr Low not interested in these kind of political struggles, so we juz made do with the current situation lor..)
These type of reasons reminded me of what Jeff Tan said in his lectures (Dun do arts lah, be a arts consumer instead of a arts creator, Arts creators are manupilated by $$ one... Give ppl use $ to pressurize one...) So yup, actually wat Jeff said is correct, Life not a bed of roses. Arts oso have its dark side, juz like every other thing else in this world... So readers, those who wish to Do Dance as a occupation, be ready to face these ugly situations, & oso haf to be cool with it... =)
But, amidst all these unhappy & ugly things tt happen, i realize tt there is something tt give me motivation to go on (juz like what gives Jeff motivation in carrying on what he is doing, is he manage to *unplug* some students every semester.) is tt I managed to intro some students to the Dance Arena & make them haf interest in Dance.
This yr i m taking 2T1, 2N2 & 1E2. Apparently all quite rebellious classes. The motivation i haf is my last yr class 1E3 (now 2E3) now misses me so much, tt they acknowledge i m good teacher & wishes me to go back teach them on Wed.. Haha, unfortunately my class is Tues & Fri. The issue is not tt i haf a BIG ego tt my students muz say i m good. Nope, its the appreciation they show =) Once there is appreciation, at least i know someday in life, there r ppl in life whom r influenced by me in their lifetime.. This is min. sufficient for me as a motivtion to carry on in DANCE... =) Anything more than this i would jolly welcome but yup i treat it a Bonus.. They wish me to go back teach them & oso indicated tt they felt the other instructors from the other companies CMI, Haha.... Tt's y i say lah... No pt Involve in so many politics cos in e end students r still the best indicator of whether i can teach or not...
Sub-ending
*unplug*
This is a v interesting event done by Jeff Tan. What it means is thru lectures & tutorials, he managed to teach Theatre studies & release our creativity + the way we look at issues/ productions. Thru his unplug process, u will look at issues (debate issues, relationships, human behaviour, politics etc) / productions(whether dance, drama, movies etc) in a new & revolutionary way which u would nv haf thot of in life...
Yes, is nv thot of b4... Hence the term *unplug* cos the analogy he used when conducting his lectures is tt he is Neo in Matrix & his job is to unplug students from their *fixed train of thought* & unleash our creativity as well as look at things from a v diff perspective, which hence as if gives them a new life... =) Though ideally is hope to unplug all students but usually he only managed to 'save' some every semester, BUT its already enough to keep him moving on... Yup, so M I... =)
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Saturday, January 07, 2006
2006- events during Dec holidays
Well, here to record some events i enjoyed during the Dec holidays.. Basically this holiday is The one i enjoyed most for the past 3 yrs maybe?? Ever since NS? Lets start.. Firstly, there is Zhenyu's b-day celebration at Downtown East chalet. Well, i shall not elaborate much on this event cos there was an entry on this earlier. (interested parties kindly refer to earlier entries)
Next, I gained more exp in Dance instructing as i went over to Ai Tong Pri Sch at Bishan to teach for 5 days. Choreographed a SYF dance for them, introduced by Mr Low one... Next, went on to a dance company called 'Dance on Us' to teach Wushu. Then this was the one i kanna 'complained' to Mr Low, they said tt i wasnt strict enough as a instructor, wasnt able to control the little kids aged 5 to 13. Well, readers if u all know me as a dancer, i guess u all might be laughing at this 'complain' now huh?? Well, i do not wish to touch on this issue anymore cos it was an unpleasant exp anyway..
Den move on to 31 Dec, i spent the night over at Zhenyu's house, Haha i ended up reading comic books (belonging to my era, Dragon-Ball) & i enjoyed them so much tt i laughed at all those comical jokes... Michelle, on the other hand, was so surprised tt Dragon-Ball so funny meh? How come Zhongyi siao one, can laugh till like tt? She gave me a kind of 'u siao ah? or u loser leh' look... Hehe.. But its alright, i explained to her tt when u r in the adult world for too long, kiddish stuff such as comical jokes can actually brighten up my day.... It's the cute cute jokes tt really brighten up my day, make me feel better as an adult...
Now move on to today; 7 Jan 2006 NHSS CCA Extravagenza
Well, NHDS ppl managed to pull it off. I personally give credit to the exco & Wei Hong for making it a success.. NHDS managed to 'pull customers' from other CCAs, well, i believe many students are interested in Dance now as the 'marketing strategy' was a success... Si Aun, Shi Bin can make good salesperson sia... Good public speaking.. Okie, not so bad, my efforts to go there early are not wasted... =)
Okie so far for now, a simple entry to record how i spend my Dec holidays in 2005. To me, its rather eventful, many things happened....
Well, here to record some events i enjoyed during the Dec holidays.. Basically this holiday is The one i enjoyed most for the past 3 yrs maybe?? Ever since NS? Lets start.. Firstly, there is Zhenyu's b-day celebration at Downtown East chalet. Well, i shall not elaborate much on this event cos there was an entry on this earlier. (interested parties kindly refer to earlier entries)
Next, I gained more exp in Dance instructing as i went over to Ai Tong Pri Sch at Bishan to teach for 5 days. Choreographed a SYF dance for them, introduced by Mr Low one... Next, went on to a dance company called 'Dance on Us' to teach Wushu. Then this was the one i kanna 'complained' to Mr Low, they said tt i wasnt strict enough as a instructor, wasnt able to control the little kids aged 5 to 13. Well, readers if u all know me as a dancer, i guess u all might be laughing at this 'complain' now huh?? Well, i do not wish to touch on this issue anymore cos it was an unpleasant exp anyway..
Den move on to 31 Dec, i spent the night over at Zhenyu's house, Haha i ended up reading comic books (belonging to my era, Dragon-Ball) & i enjoyed them so much tt i laughed at all those comical jokes... Michelle, on the other hand, was so surprised tt Dragon-Ball so funny meh? How come Zhongyi siao one, can laugh till like tt? She gave me a kind of 'u siao ah? or u loser leh' look... Hehe.. But its alright, i explained to her tt when u r in the adult world for too long, kiddish stuff such as comical jokes can actually brighten up my day.... It's the cute cute jokes tt really brighten up my day, make me feel better as an adult...
Now move on to today; 7 Jan 2006 NHSS CCA Extravagenza
Well, NHDS ppl managed to pull it off. I personally give credit to the exco & Wei Hong for making it a success.. NHDS managed to 'pull customers' from other CCAs, well, i believe many students are interested in Dance now as the 'marketing strategy' was a success... Si Aun, Shi Bin can make good salesperson sia... Good public speaking.. Okie, not so bad, my efforts to go there early are not wasted... =)
Okie so far for now, a simple entry to record how i spend my Dec holidays in 2005. To me, its rather eventful, many things happened....
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Monday, December 26, 2005
My 8th Essay in 2005
Wah, shiok, v comfortable aft writing this essay, this one it took me abt 2 days in all. I started abt 3 or 4 days ago but slack ah, so strictly speaking only abt 2 days work.. Readers pls enjoy and as usual, post ur comments or even send me an email..
Next, i shall move on to the origins of my Ling Gan for this essay.. This essay is really shiok. Normal readers who wish to look out for a storyline, i m sorry u will be v disappointed. Cos my Ling Gan came from so many corners, it cant be formed into a story & i intentionally didnt wanna include a storyline, which i'll explain later why.
Origin 1: Sam's Blog song - Jay Chou's Feng (I went to check up on this song cos i liked the music melody from Sam's blog, didnt know it was a song, till some1 told me, i went to listen & check up the lyrics & wah piang, its damn nice)
Origin 2: Juncheng's Blog Wallpaper abt Sin & Forgiveness... (A really nice wallpaper, i guess its Final Fantasy wallpaper? Kinda liked the Sin & Forgiveness idea, so wanted to write something abt it...)
Origin 3: Songs by Rain - Still unfamiliar & Utada Hikaru - First Love (These 2 songs v sentimental & touching so it inspired me =))
Combine all 3 origins together & I have this essay as the final product... Hahaha... Feeling v shiok now. Now, the reason why i obmitted the storyline cos i only wanted to bring out the feelings of my origins, whoever is reading can thus feel free to put urself in the shoes of my essay & include ur own life story. In this way, u may haf a stronger sense of ownership for my essay, able to understand & feel IT in a better way... =)
So readers pls enjoy, & do leave ur comments.... =)
Wah, shiok, v comfortable aft writing this essay, this one it took me abt 2 days in all. I started abt 3 or 4 days ago but slack ah, so strictly speaking only abt 2 days work.. Readers pls enjoy and as usual, post ur comments or even send me an email..
Next, i shall move on to the origins of my Ling Gan for this essay.. This essay is really shiok. Normal readers who wish to look out for a storyline, i m sorry u will be v disappointed. Cos my Ling Gan came from so many corners, it cant be formed into a story & i intentionally didnt wanna include a storyline, which i'll explain later why.
Origin 1: Sam's Blog song - Jay Chou's Feng (I went to check up on this song cos i liked the music melody from Sam's blog, didnt know it was a song, till some1 told me, i went to listen & check up the lyrics & wah piang, its damn nice)
Origin 2: Juncheng's Blog Wallpaper abt Sin & Forgiveness... (A really nice wallpaper, i guess its Final Fantasy wallpaper? Kinda liked the Sin & Forgiveness idea, so wanted to write something abt it...)
Origin 3: Songs by Rain - Still unfamiliar & Utada Hikaru - First Love (These 2 songs v sentimental & touching so it inspired me =))
Combine all 3 origins together & I have this essay as the final product... Hahaha... Feeling v shiok now. Now, the reason why i obmitted the storyline cos i only wanted to bring out the feelings of my origins, whoever is reading can thus feel free to put urself in the shoes of my essay & include ur own life story. In this way, u may haf a stronger sense of ownership for my essay, able to understand & feel IT in a better way... =)
So readers pls enjoy, & do leave ur comments.... =)
Feeling great now
End of Entry
无法习惯
北风无情地刮着，大地弥漫着萧索、凄凉的气息。一股莫名的寂寞凄凉浮游于空气中，我独自在百花凋谢的这个秋天走着。秋天已到，树叶簌簌飘落，落得遍地。我缓缓走着，一步步都显得沉重疲惫，脚步仿佛背负着沉重负担。而这呆滞的步伐走得无声无息，仿佛走的人亦毫无生命。渐渐地，我在一棵树下停了下来。冷风霍然吹起，遍地落叶随风飘舞，围绕著我，仿佛亦感应到了我的黯然神伤。落叶与我擦身而过，带给我一份若即若离的感觉，气氛瞬间更添凄凉。。。
原谅我，我知道即使再怎么做，都无法挽回这秋天的一切。随着秋天的结束，冬季即将降临，而我亦会独自渡过这寒冷的冬天。然而，与你的共同回忆已深深烙印在我的内心深处，我无法习惯没有你的日子，无法习惯没有你在身边的感觉。深深想念着你的味道、你的微笑、你时而沉，时而轻的呼吸。。。记忆中的你带给我无限的欢笑，犹如春天的阳光，明媚温暖，不带任何杀伤力，缓缓地溶化了冬天残留下来的冰霜。我仍无法习惯没有你的每一天，就如从前一样。在你离开的这个秋天，树叶枯萎了，我的脚步变得呆滞，我的身心交瘁、疲惫不堪，我的生命无声无息地结束了。。。
原谅我，I wish to be forgiven。此时此刻，你不在我身边；而回忆的片段不断地在我脑海里重复著。风，仍不停地刮着；叶，亦继续飘落；我的伤口也依旧没有抚平；思念还是持续不断。一阵莫名的悲伤汹涌袭来，我忽然感到肩膀湿答答的，抬头一望，原来天空已下起雨来。这一瞬间，我已无法分辨出究竟是我因悲伤而落泪，还是天为你我的故事而哭？泪水与雨水已混合在一起了。在这凄凉的秋天，这一阵冷冷的冰雨与片片的落叶让我深切地感受到失去你的‘痛’。今晚落叶簌簌下，满天繁星如我泪。。。
繁星点点，多不胜数，但每一颗星之间的距离却又那么遥远，仿佛就如你我之间的距离。背负着种种的过错，我祈求得到宽恕，即使我知道一切都无法挽回并且都会在这个秋天结束。。。
犹如这场绵绵不断、毫无终结的雨， U will always be inside my heart, I hope I have a place in your heart too.....
北风无情地刮着，大地弥漫着萧索、凄凉的气息。一股莫名的寂寞凄凉浮游于空气中，我独自在百花凋谢的这个秋天走着。秋天已到，树叶簌簌飘落，落得遍地。我缓缓走着，一步步都显得沉重疲惫，脚步仿佛背负着沉重负担。而这呆滞的步伐走得无声无息，仿佛走的人亦毫无生命。渐渐地，我在一棵树下停了下来。冷风霍然吹起，遍地落叶随风飘舞，围绕著我，仿佛亦感应到了我的黯然神伤。落叶与我擦身而过，带给我一份若即若离的感觉，气氛瞬间更添凄凉。。。
原谅我，我知道即使再怎么做，都无法挽回这秋天的一切。随着秋天的结束，冬季即将降临，而我亦会独自渡过这寒冷的冬天。然而，与你的共同回忆已深深烙印在我的内心深处，我无法习惯没有你的日子，无法习惯没有你在身边的感觉。深深想念着你的味道、你的微笑、你时而沉，时而轻的呼吸。。。记忆中的你带给我无限的欢笑，犹如春天的阳光，明媚温暖，不带任何杀伤力，缓缓地溶化了冬天残留下来的冰霜。我仍无法习惯没有你的每一天，就如从前一样。在你离开的这个秋天，树叶枯萎了，我的脚步变得呆滞，我的身心交瘁、疲惫不堪，我的生命无声无息地结束了。。。
原谅我，I wish to be forgiven。此时此刻，你不在我身边；而回忆的片段不断地在我脑海里重复著。风，仍不停地刮着；叶，亦继续飘落；我的伤口也依旧没有抚平；思念还是持续不断。一阵莫名的悲伤汹涌袭来，我忽然感到肩膀湿答答的，抬头一望，原来天空已下起雨来。这一瞬间，我已无法分辨出究竟是我因悲伤而落泪，还是天为你我的故事而哭？泪水与雨水已混合在一起了。在这凄凉的秋天，这一阵冷冷的冰雨与片片的落叶让我深切地感受到失去你的‘痛’。今晚落叶簌簌下，满天繁星如我泪。。。
繁星点点，多不胜数，但每一颗星之间的距离却又那么遥远，仿佛就如你我之间的距离。背负着种种的过错，我祈求得到宽恕，即使我知道一切都无法挽回并且都会在这个秋天结束。。。
犹如这场绵绵不断、毫无终结的雨， U will always be inside my heart, I hope I have a place in your heart too.....
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
Dance Exchange Program @ NHSS 2005
Time is 21 Dec. Well, i didnt intend to join in or even go down to NHSS today, but becos of something i need to go down look for Mr Low and explain everything to him, so basically i went down. I do not wish to spell out everything here cos i really wish to put things behind me. As i said, my blog is a paperless collection of my memories, i wouldn't want these unhappy memories to be recalled when i read this entry again in the future. Basically its abt dance instructing stuff.
Okie, so i went down to NH today & sat there the whole day while they played games. All 4 schs were there & yup they perf items turn by turn. Then the ketchup song came & they started to party. Wah Lau, Mr Low muz haf done something to the tempo of the song. The tempo is damn fast, perhaps twice as fast? or one-half times? Next is the Countdown dance. Wah Piang, tt one can confirm is MINIMUM twice as fast. Haha, den Mr Low call us grads go down dance with them as well. It was really a shiok dance. I haf nv danced this dance with dance steps twice as fast b4, so finally got a chance to pit my personal speed with the music, Wah Piang, really shiok man!!! It was a challenge sia, i pit my speed against tt of the music, taking note of my actions, making sure i didn't 'eat' my steps in a bid to catch up with the music, eventually i put in effort & yup, managed to prove to myself TODAY tt i could still catch up with the twice as fast music.
Cos frankly speaking, long time nv dance full-up liao, & to fast music somemore. I v long nv attend Patrick's lessons, so v long no chance to come into contact with fast tempo music. So today is really to prove to myself tt i can still catch up with fast Tempo. V Happy, at least it eliminated my depression since morning.. Yup, so ended today's Exchange Prog at NH with the Countdown dance, with me joining all the students from: Crescent, Nan Chiau, Nan Hua & Tanglin, for the sake of challenging myself. & yup, glad to know tt i still Can Make It. =)
A fast dance is really tiring sia... But really challenging & Shiok!
Time is 21 Dec. Well, i didnt intend to join in or even go down to NHSS today, but becos of something i need to go down look for Mr Low and explain everything to him, so basically i went down. I do not wish to spell out everything here cos i really wish to put things behind me. As i said, my blog is a paperless collection of my memories, i wouldn't want these unhappy memories to be recalled when i read this entry again in the future. Basically its abt dance instructing stuff.
Okie, so i went down to NH today & sat there the whole day while they played games. All 4 schs were there & yup they perf items turn by turn. Then the ketchup song came & they started to party. Wah Lau, Mr Low muz haf done something to the tempo of the song. The tempo is damn fast, perhaps twice as fast? or one-half times? Next is the Countdown dance. Wah Piang, tt one can confirm is MINIMUM twice as fast. Haha, den Mr Low call us grads go down dance with them as well. It was really a shiok dance. I haf nv danced this dance with dance steps twice as fast b4, so finally got a chance to pit my personal speed with the music, Wah Piang, really shiok man!!! It was a challenge sia, i pit my speed against tt of the music, taking note of my actions, making sure i didn't 'eat' my steps in a bid to catch up with the music, eventually i put in effort & yup, managed to prove to myself TODAY tt i could still catch up with the twice as fast music.
Cos frankly speaking, long time nv dance full-up liao, & to fast music somemore. I v long nv attend Patrick's lessons, so v long no chance to come into contact with fast tempo music. So today is really to prove to myself tt i can still catch up with fast Tempo. V Happy, at least it eliminated my depression since morning.. Yup, so ended today's Exchange Prog at NH with the Countdown dance, with me joining all the students from: Crescent, Nan Chiau, Nan Hua & Tanglin, for the sake of challenging myself. & yup, glad to know tt i still Can Make It. =)
A fast dance is really tiring sia... But really challenging & Shiok!
End of Entry
Saturday, December 10, 2005
Introduction & Appreciation
(Cocktail + Jay Chou's Fa Ru Xue)
Time is 10 Dec '05. Last night was Zhenyu's birthday, we celebrated it via a 3day 2 night chalet at Pasir Ris Downtown East. First night i was quite happy, introduced a drink of Baley's Irish Cream with Hershey's chocolate to everyone present tt day. They liked it alot, & I was glad, after all, it's nice to introduce to ppl (esp ladies) these drinks with low alcohol content yet tasty. Haha, esp Joanna, Ivy liked it so much, they kept asking for more.. Though Mei Fang didn't drink much, she still gave acknowledgement tt the drink was nice...
=) It's satisfying to know tt ur introduction of things to frenz are appreciated
However, last night, i didn't haf a goodnight's sleep & yup something happened in the midnight/ early morning during the chalet den i got headache till this afternoon.. Then came home to sleep this morning but headache still didnt subside.. Moreover, still need to use brain over some issues, make me even more headache..
So aft my lunch, i went to sleep again but this time i did some music therapy as i get into sleep.. Hehe, miraclously my headache subsided.. =)
So here i m to introduce this magical song to my blog readers.. Fa Ru Xue by Jay Chou
The lyrics are below, pls enjoy & feel the song, it's really unique in a certain way, very good for music therapy. As i listen to the song, i slept with full relaxation (dancers reading this, u all shld already know its v difficult to relax all muscles even in sleep), yet i managed to do it with e help of this song.. Ppl who cant get to sleep/ haf headaches, i intro this song to u.
Another song oso worth mentioning is Still Unfamiliar sung by Korean Singer - Rain. Those in the chalet should know,i played ths song on Repeat mode last night.. Yup, these 2 songs r quite good for music therapy. U all may haf ur own choices of songs as well but do try out my suggestions.. At least they worked for me =) U dun expect to play Hip Hop/ heavy groove music for music therapy right? I think will even more stressed..
Readers, thanx for reading & yup, enjoy the feel of Fa Ru Xue, appreciate the beauty of this song, from lyrics to melody etc. Music Therapy is not juz listening to music alone, FEEL & APPRECIATE it... Understand the lyrics may help.. =) Anyway diff ppl got diff ways, try them out =)
歌曲：发如雪
歌手：周杰伦 专辑：十一月的萧邦
狼牙月伊人憔悴我举杯饮尽了风雪
是谁打翻前世柜惹尘埃是非
缘字诀几番轮回你锁眉哭红颜唤不回
纵然青史已经成灰我爱不灭
繁华如三千东流水
我只取一瓢爱了解只恋你化身的蝶
你发如雪凄美了离别我焚香感动了谁
邀明月让回忆皎洁爱在月光下完美
你发如雪纷飞了眼泪我等待苍老了谁
红尘醉微醺的岁月我用无悔刻永世爱你的碑
rap:你发如雪凄美了离别我焚香感动了谁
邀明月让回忆皎洁爱在月光下完美
你发如雪纷飞了眼泪我等待苍老了谁
红尘醉微醺的岁月
啦儿啦啦儿啦啦儿啦儿啦啦儿啦啦儿啦啦儿啦儿啦
铜镜映无邪扎马尾你若撒野今生我把酒奉陪
(Cocktail + Jay Chou's Fa Ru Xue)
Time is 10 Dec '05. Last night was Zhenyu's birthday, we celebrated it via a 3day 2 night chalet at Pasir Ris Downtown East. First night i was quite happy, introduced a drink of Baley's Irish Cream with Hershey's chocolate to everyone present tt day. They liked it alot, & I was glad, after all, it's nice to introduce to ppl (esp ladies) these drinks with low alcohol content yet tasty. Haha, esp Joanna, Ivy liked it so much, they kept asking for more.. Though Mei Fang didn't drink much, she still gave acknowledgement tt the drink was nice...
=) It's satisfying to know tt ur introduction of things to frenz are appreciated
However, last night, i didn't haf a goodnight's sleep & yup something happened in the midnight/ early morning during the chalet den i got headache till this afternoon.. Then came home to sleep this morning but headache still didnt subside.. Moreover, still need to use brain over some issues, make me even more headache..
So aft my lunch, i went to sleep again but this time i did some music therapy as i get into sleep.. Hehe, miraclously my headache subsided.. =)
So here i m to introduce this magical song to my blog readers.. Fa Ru Xue by Jay Chou
The lyrics are below, pls enjoy & feel the song, it's really unique in a certain way, very good for music therapy. As i listen to the song, i slept with full relaxation (dancers reading this, u all shld already know its v difficult to relax all muscles even in sleep), yet i managed to do it with e help of this song.. Ppl who cant get to sleep/ haf headaches, i intro this song to u.
Another song oso worth mentioning is Still Unfamiliar sung by Korean Singer - Rain. Those in the chalet should know,i played ths song on Repeat mode last night.. Yup, these 2 songs r quite good for music therapy. U all may haf ur own choices of songs as well but do try out my suggestions.. At least they worked for me =) U dun expect to play Hip Hop/ heavy groove music for music therapy right? I think will even more stressed..
Readers, thanx for reading & yup, enjoy the feel of Fa Ru Xue, appreciate the beauty of this song, from lyrics to melody etc. Music Therapy is not juz listening to music alone, FEEL & APPRECIATE it... Understand the lyrics may help.. =) Anyway diff ppl got diff ways, try them out =)
歌曲：发如雪
歌手：周杰伦 专辑：十一月的萧邦
狼牙月伊人憔悴我举杯饮尽了风雪
是谁打翻前世柜惹尘埃是非
缘字诀几番轮回你锁眉哭红颜唤不回
纵然青史已经成灰我爱不灭
繁华如三千东流水
我只取一瓢爱了解只恋你化身的蝶
你发如雪凄美了离别我焚香感动了谁
邀明月让回忆皎洁爱在月光下完美
你发如雪纷飞了眼泪我等待苍老了谁
红尘醉微醺的岁月我用无悔刻永世爱你的碑
rap:你发如雪凄美了离别我焚香感动了谁
邀明月让回忆皎洁爱在月光下完美
你发如雪纷飞了眼泪我等待苍老了谁
红尘醉微醺的岁月
啦儿啦啦儿啦啦儿啦儿啦啦儿啦啦儿啦啦儿啦儿啦
铜镜映无邪扎马尾你若撒野今生我把酒奉陪
End of Entry
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
散文 <<瞬间の永恒 - 序>>
永恒不是永远。有人常常把永远与永恒搞错。永远与时间有关联。永远是用于指时间的长久性。永恒却和时间没有关联。它原是指不变的东西，因此有“永恒不变”的成语。它着重于不变的那种特质。所以才有这样的说法：钻石是永恒的。因为钻石不会变质，也不会因岁月的蹉跎的变形。
相对的，永远是因时间而定形的。例如：“你会爱我多久？”， “我会永远爱你。” 在这里，时间必须有存在的意义，那么永远才会有其宝贵的价值。永恒却不为此所影响。
永恒是和不变有关联，而永远是和时间的长久性有关联。
搞清楚了两者之间的差别，这篇散文的主题就不会矛盾了。因为瞬间与时间有关联，是指一霎那间的意思。而永远却是指长久的意思。因此，将主题读成瞬间の永远，不免自相矛盾，甚至不能理解作者最想表达的情感。但是，若将主题读成瞬间の永恒，就不难理解作者的用意。那代表着瞬间的不变。亦就是说瞬间的所有：包括了景象、天气、面貌、情感、承诺、回忆等都不会变。这些东西都会历经时间的洗礼，却仍然保持不变。其中，瞬间亦表示了“少”的可贵。
其意境与这两句话有点相似之处
“不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有”
和
“曾经沧海难为水，除却巫山不是云”
永恒不是永远。有人常常把永远与永恒搞错。永远与时间有关联。永远是用于指时间的长久性。永恒却和时间没有关联。它原是指不变的东西，因此有“永恒不变”的成语。它着重于不变的那种特质。所以才有这样的说法：钻石是永恒的。因为钻石不会变质，也不会因岁月的蹉跎的变形。
相对的，永远是因时间而定形的。例如：“你会爱我多久？”， “我会永远爱你。” 在这里，时间必须有存在的意义，那么永远才会有其宝贵的价值。永恒却不为此所影响。
永恒是和不变有关联，而永远是和时间的长久性有关联。
搞清楚了两者之间的差别，这篇散文的主题就不会矛盾了。因为瞬间与时间有关联，是指一霎那间的意思。而永远却是指长久的意思。因此，将主题读成瞬间の永远，不免自相矛盾，甚至不能理解作者最想表达的情感。但是，若将主题读成瞬间の永恒，就不难理解作者的用意。那代表着瞬间的不变。亦就是说瞬间的所有：包括了景象、天气、面貌、情感、承诺、回忆等都不会变。这些东西都会历经时间的洗礼，却仍然保持不变。其中，瞬间亦表示了“少”的可贵。
其意境与这两句话有点相似之处
“不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有”
和
“曾经沧海难为水，除却巫山不是云”
瞬间の永恒
在不知名的远处，有着一栋房子。在这偏僻、毫无人烟的地方，根本没有人会注意甚至经过这栋房子，也从来没有人开启这房子的那扇门。不知过了多久,这间房子来了一位房客。她，什么行李也没带，就打算这么住下来。她轻轻地打开了这扇许久没被开启的门，一步一步踏进了这间房子。她试着探索这房子的神秘，到处摸索，在房子处处留下了脚印。初次住进这间不甚熟悉的房子，她却备感温馨，感到房子给她一种很贴心的亲密感。虽不知她会何时搬走，但她却已在这间房子留下了不可磨灭的脚印。。。。
某年某月某一天的晚上，在送她回家的路途中，他们坐在寥寥数人的车里，窗外一片寂静。路上不见川流不息的车子，只见一排一排的街灯。车的行驶速度并不缓慢，却不知为何，车子似乎永远不会到达终点。他们紧握着彼此的手，依偎在一起，享受着爱就在身边的感觉。尽管车还是以急速在路上奔驰，他还是希望这段路程永远不要结束。与她在一起时的感觉独一无二，非其他人可取代。
他孤高冷傲，从来就没有人能接近他，更没有人试着要打开他心中的那扇门。这扇通往他心房的门被紧紧地锁上了。而从来就没有人能打开这把心锁，她不知如何竟持有打开这道门的钥匙。亦唯有她，才能打开这扇门，借而通往他的内心世界，探索他的心灵深处。。。
在这里，她或许不会住得很久，但是却已在他的心田里留下了不可磨灭的脚印。这一步一步的回忆已足以陪伴他一生一世。。。
当她将手放入他的手里时，她的玉指恰恰填满了他手指间的指缝，仿佛就如她住进了他的心房，填满了他心中的空虚。她的手不仅握住了他的手，仿佛亦触碰到了他的内心深处。握着她柔软的手时，他深切地感受到她的心，仿佛紧握的双手已将两颗心连接在一起，竟连心跳与呼吸的旋律都一致。这一瞬间的所有已代表了永恒。。。
犹如流星划过天际，最灿烂的一刻已是瞬间的永恒。即使流星已不在，观星者依旧记得它在无边无际的黑夜长空所留下的色彩。她亦同样地在他心中留下了永不磨灭的回忆。。。。
一瞬间已足够。。。
在不知名的远处，有着一栋房子。在这偏僻、毫无人烟的地方，根本没有人会注意甚至经过这栋房子，也从来没有人开启这房子的那扇门。不知过了多久,这间房子来了一位房客。她，什么行李也没带，就打算这么住下来。她轻轻地打开了这扇许久没被开启的门，一步一步踏进了这间房子。她试着探索这房子的神秘，到处摸索，在房子处处留下了脚印。初次住进这间不甚熟悉的房子，她却备感温馨，感到房子给她一种很贴心的亲密感。虽不知她会何时搬走，但她却已在这间房子留下了不可磨灭的脚印。。。。
某年某月某一天的晚上，在送她回家的路途中，他们坐在寥寥数人的车里，窗外一片寂静。路上不见川流不息的车子，只见一排一排的街灯。车的行驶速度并不缓慢，却不知为何，车子似乎永远不会到达终点。他们紧握着彼此的手，依偎在一起，享受着爱就在身边的感觉。尽管车还是以急速在路上奔驰，他还是希望这段路程永远不要结束。与她在一起时的感觉独一无二，非其他人可取代。
他孤高冷傲，从来就没有人能接近他，更没有人试着要打开他心中的那扇门。这扇通往他心房的门被紧紧地锁上了。而从来就没有人能打开这把心锁，她不知如何竟持有打开这道门的钥匙。亦唯有她，才能打开这扇门，借而通往他的内心世界，探索他的心灵深处。。。
在这里，她或许不会住得很久，但是却已在他的心田里留下了不可磨灭的脚印。这一步一步的回忆已足以陪伴他一生一世。。。
当她将手放入他的手里时，她的玉指恰恰填满了他手指间的指缝，仿佛就如她住进了他的心房，填满了他心中的空虚。她的手不仅握住了他的手，仿佛亦触碰到了他的内心深处。握着她柔软的手时，他深切地感受到她的心，仿佛紧握的双手已将两颗心连接在一起，竟连心跳与呼吸的旋律都一致。这一瞬间的所有已代表了永恒。。。
犹如流星划过天际，最灿烂的一刻已是瞬间的永恒。即使流星已不在，观星者依旧记得它在无边无际的黑夜长空所留下的色彩。她亦同样地在他心中留下了永不磨灭的回忆。。。。
一瞬间已足够。。。
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
冰天雪地 - 心的接触
在这个地方，仿佛天天都是冬天。寒冷的风无情地刮着，大地没有丝毫生气，处处弥漫着一种近乎死亡的气息。一切都停顿、似乎连时间与空间都冻结，仿佛连地球都停止转动。这片大地没有一丝阳光，存在的只是一片黑暗。既没有白天也没有夜晚；在这里，时间失去了它的意义。年、月、日、分、秒，都没有任何分别。在这一片毫无生气的大地，存在着一座冰窟，冰窟的深处存放着一样东西。这样东西被万年玄冰冰封着，摆放在冰窟里也不知过了多久，一切似乎对时光的流逝无动于衷。。。
他们在一个不知名的情形下邂逅了彼此。当她初次出现在他的生命中时，一切如往常。但是，却不知从何时起，她的情绪开始影响了他。她的喜怒哀乐成了他最在乎的事。这时，大地有了变化，漫长的冬季告一段落。寒冷的风不再无情地刮着，取而代之的是一阵清凉爽朗的微风。时间与空间已不再冻结，黑暗的天空中渐渐地露出一丝丝的曙光，为大地带来了温暖。黑夜与白昼轮流交替，时间有了其存在的意义。大地逐渐因阳光的温暖而变得生气勃勃。冰天雪地渐渐融化，冰窟崩塌了，万年玄冰亦融化了，露出了一颗血红的心。血红的心开始在这一片冰天雪地中跳动，每一个心跳都仿佛震动了大地，驱散了死亡的气息。冰封已久的心因她的关系而解冻，只因不知从何时起，她的一颦一笑在他心中激起了阵阵涟漪。。。。
在一起的时候，感觉十分奇妙，这份感觉很亲近、很贴心。心与心的接触很真实，她是否也感觉得到？和她心连心的接触，改写了他的结局，终止了那漫长的冬天，更为大地注入了灵魂、情感，使他不再是无情的一副躯壳。她为他带来的不仅仅是爱情，而是更多尽在不言中的情感。冰窟已不复在，玄冰也不再凝结，心亦不再被冰封起来。。。
手牵手，心连心，一起走向未知的明天已是幸福。不知这条路会通往何处，不知能携手一起走多久，只知现在拥有的一切已是幸福。结局如何，他们都不知道，抑或根本不想知道，甚至情愿不知道，只想此刻在一起，过着心与心紧紧相连的日子。。。
此时正是四月份，外头却不知缘故，竟然漫天飞雪；片片雪花随风飘落，毫不着力地落在他的肩上，瞬间融化了，只因她为他带来温暖，使那颗跳动的心不再冻结。。。。
在这个地方，仿佛天天都是冬天。寒冷的风无情地刮着，大地没有丝毫生气，处处弥漫着一种近乎死亡的气息。一切都停顿、似乎连时间与空间都冻结，仿佛连地球都停止转动。这片大地没有一丝阳光，存在的只是一片黑暗。既没有白天也没有夜晚；在这里，时间失去了它的意义。年、月、日、分、秒，都没有任何分别。在这一片毫无生气的大地，存在着一座冰窟，冰窟的深处存放着一样东西。这样东西被万年玄冰冰封着，摆放在冰窟里也不知过了多久，一切似乎对时光的流逝无动于衷。。。
他们在一个不知名的情形下邂逅了彼此。当她初次出现在他的生命中时，一切如往常。但是，却不知从何时起，她的情绪开始影响了他。她的喜怒哀乐成了他最在乎的事。这时，大地有了变化，漫长的冬季告一段落。寒冷的风不再无情地刮着，取而代之的是一阵清凉爽朗的微风。时间与空间已不再冻结，黑暗的天空中渐渐地露出一丝丝的曙光，为大地带来了温暖。黑夜与白昼轮流交替，时间有了其存在的意义。大地逐渐因阳光的温暖而变得生气勃勃。冰天雪地渐渐融化，冰窟崩塌了，万年玄冰亦融化了，露出了一颗血红的心。血红的心开始在这一片冰天雪地中跳动，每一个心跳都仿佛震动了大地，驱散了死亡的气息。冰封已久的心因她的关系而解冻，只因不知从何时起，她的一颦一笑在他心中激起了阵阵涟漪。。。。
在一起的时候，感觉十分奇妙，这份感觉很亲近、很贴心。心与心的接触很真实，她是否也感觉得到？和她心连心的接触，改写了他的结局，终止了那漫长的冬天，更为大地注入了灵魂、情感，使他不再是无情的一副躯壳。她为他带来的不仅仅是爱情，而是更多尽在不言中的情感。冰窟已不复在，玄冰也不再凝结，心亦不再被冰封起来。。。
手牵手，心连心，一起走向未知的明天已是幸福。不知这条路会通往何处，不知能携手一起走多久，只知现在拥有的一切已是幸福。结局如何，他们都不知道，抑或根本不想知道，甚至情愿不知道，只想此刻在一起，过着心与心紧紧相连的日子。。。
此时正是四月份，外头却不知缘故，竟然漫天飞雪；片片雪花随风飘落，毫不着力地落在他的肩上，瞬间融化了，只因她为他带来温暖，使那颗跳动的心不再冻结。。。。
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
<<窗外雨滴-序>> <Raindrop>
Well, another essay done.. This essay took relatively a shorter time. Basically it took me simply one whole afternoon & i managed to complete it. It may not be v well-done but i haf a sense of accomplishment becos this essay was done impromptu, w/o much planning unlike previous essays.
This essay, i got my ling gan from 2 songs; A song for Lady by H.O.T, Wu Jin De Si Nian by Lin JJ. However, the main theme of this essay came from the rain today. It's been raining from this morning till now, so i m here at home nursing my injury, den nothing else to do, hence came up with an essay. =)
Unlike my previous essays, this particular essay has no story line to follow, yah there is but readers may find some pieces of the 'jigsaw puzzle' missing, so u may find tt the changes in the essay r abrupt & not smooth... Hehe, well, its alright cos i only wanted to express some thoughts i haf w.r.t to the 2 songs mentioned above & the rain today. =) I suggest u play these two songs while reading my essay, u may haf a diff feel. Best if when u look out of the window, its raining at the same time when u r reading...
A simple piece of essay, readers feel free to give comments... As usual, i wont get offended, dun worry...
Well, another essay done.. This essay took relatively a shorter time. Basically it took me simply one whole afternoon & i managed to complete it. It may not be v well-done but i haf a sense of accomplishment becos this essay was done impromptu, w/o much planning unlike previous essays.
This essay, i got my ling gan from 2 songs; A song for Lady by H.O.T, Wu Jin De Si Nian by Lin JJ. However, the main theme of this essay came from the rain today. It's been raining from this morning till now, so i m here at home nursing my injury, den nothing else to do, hence came up with an essay. =)
Unlike my previous essays, this particular essay has no story line to follow, yah there is but readers may find some pieces of the 'jigsaw puzzle' missing, so u may find tt the changes in the essay r abrupt & not smooth... Hehe, well, its alright cos i only wanted to express some thoughts i haf w.r.t to the 2 songs mentioned above & the rain today. =) I suggest u play these two songs while reading my essay, u may haf a diff feel. Best if when u look out of the window, its raining at the same time when u r reading...
A simple piece of essay, readers feel free to give comments... As usual, i wont get offended, dun worry...
End of Entry
<<窗外雨滴>>
夕 阳西下，阳 光缓缓地从地平线上消失。。。清澈的海水因为失去了阳光的反射，不再耀眼。夜幕低垂，海洋仿佛换上了另一件晚装，营 造了另一种气氛。我独自走 在沙滩上，迎面吹着海风。如此漫无目的地走着，听着海涛击打在岩石上的声音，看着海面上溅起的浪花，时间就在不知不觉中悄悄溜走了。时间总是如此这般在人 类的不知觉中溜走。。。爱情亦是一样。时间是永恒的，对于时间的无情，它的毫不停留，人类处于被动，毫无反抗的处境，一切是那么地无可奈何。面对永恒的时 间，人类显得多么渺小。
她是我一生挚爱，我们的爱情经过很多考验，彼此之间的爱情却始终坚贞不移。但是即使多么纯洁的爱情，也敌不过命运 的摆布。仿佛在扮演着悲剧中的角色似的， 她的身体逐渐衰弱，但在医学上却找不出任何解释。日子一天一天过去了，时间无情地流逝，她变得越来越憔悴。被病魔缠身的她却依然故作坚强，强颜欢笑，不希 望身边的人为她伤心难过。在看似坚强的微笑背后，隐藏着深深的悲痛。我明明知道，也感觉得到，却无力挽回她的笑容。在笑容逐渐褪去的时光中，她的生命也燃 烧到了尽头。。。
纯 洁的白玫瑰枯萎、凋谢了，我的世界停留在一年前的那一霎那，一切冻结了。。。尽管地球还是继续转动，日子也依旧一天一天过去，我却犹如行尸走肉一般，毫无 情感。“对不起，Dear,我虽答应了你不再流泪，但无奈对你的思念还是没减少，而失去你的痛还依旧残留在心中，深深被埋藏在内心的某一个角落，我还是无 法忘怀。。。”
此 时，面对着窗外的绵绵细雨，我不禁想起我们曾经一起走过的路，所踏过的每一片草原。雨点绵绵不绝地击打在窗上；滴答、滴 答、滴答~~~ 雨点在透明的玻璃窗缓缓滑落，仿佛形成了一幅画。画中的那名女生多愁善；她虽然拥有雪白的肌肤，脸上却蒙上了一层忧郁，使她显得越加苍白。那一滴一滴的 雨点仿佛是从她眼中滑落的泪水，颗颗晶莹剔透的泪珠显得纯洁无垢，似乎象征着她真情的流露。。。她是因相思、分离之苦而流泪吗？我试图抚摸她的脸颊，感受 那令人温馨的体温，无奈触碰到的尽是冰冷的玻璃窗。我的心又再次沉淀到深海里，对她的无尽思念这辈子都不会减少。我们之间的距离也不会丝毫缩短。我 知道自己曾经答应她不会沉溺于 悲伤。而能让我见到她的唯一方法是透过雨天、透过那片冰冷的玻璃窗；亦只有每当下雨天，我才能再次见到她。即使如此，我们之间的距离还是让我触摸不到 她。。。
“能与你相爱一次，这一生我已满足。对你的种种思念，我将会把它埋藏在心里，让悲伤不再。” 能够慰藉这颗冰冻的心亦只有下雨天的雨点、只有你。。。
夕 阳西下，阳 光缓缓地从地平线上消失。。。清澈的海水因为失去了阳光的反射，不再耀眼。夜幕低垂，海洋仿佛换上了另一件晚装，营 造了另一种气氛。我独自走 在沙滩上，迎面吹着海风。如此漫无目的地走着，听着海涛击打在岩石上的声音，看着海面上溅起的浪花，时间就在不知不觉中悄悄溜走了。时间总是如此这般在人 类的不知觉中溜走。。。爱情亦是一样。时间是永恒的，对于时间的无情，它的毫不停留，人类处于被动，毫无反抗的处境，一切是那么地无可奈何。面对永恒的时 间，人类显得多么渺小。
她是我一生挚爱，我们的爱情经过很多考验，彼此之间的爱情却始终坚贞不移。但是即使多么纯洁的爱情，也敌不过命运 的摆布。仿佛在扮演着悲剧中的角色似的， 她的身体逐渐衰弱，但在医学上却找不出任何解释。日子一天一天过去了，时间无情地流逝，她变得越来越憔悴。被病魔缠身的她却依然故作坚强，强颜欢笑，不希 望身边的人为她伤心难过。在看似坚强的微笑背后，隐藏着深深的悲痛。我明明知道，也感觉得到，却无力挽回她的笑容。在笑容逐渐褪去的时光中，她的生命也燃 烧到了尽头。。。
纯 洁的白玫瑰枯萎、凋谢了，我的世界停留在一年前的那一霎那，一切冻结了。。。尽管地球还是继续转动，日子也依旧一天一天过去，我却犹如行尸走肉一般，毫无 情感。“对不起，Dear,我虽答应了你不再流泪，但无奈对你的思念还是没减少，而失去你的痛还依旧残留在心中，深深被埋藏在内心的某一个角落，我还是无 法忘怀。。。”
此 时，面对着窗外的绵绵细雨，我不禁想起我们曾经一起走过的路，所踏过的每一片草原。雨点绵绵不绝地击打在窗上；滴答、滴 答、滴答~~~ 雨点在透明的玻璃窗缓缓滑落，仿佛形成了一幅画。画中的那名女生多愁善；她虽然拥有雪白的肌肤，脸上却蒙上了一层忧郁，使她显得越加苍白。那一滴一滴的 雨点仿佛是从她眼中滑落的泪水，颗颗晶莹剔透的泪珠显得纯洁无垢，似乎象征着她真情的流露。。。她是因相思、分离之苦而流泪吗？我试图抚摸她的脸颊，感受 那令人温馨的体温，无奈触碰到的尽是冰冷的玻璃窗。我的心又再次沉淀到深海里，对她的无尽思念这辈子都不会减少。我们之间的距离也不会丝毫缩短。我 知道自己曾经答应她不会沉溺于 悲伤。而能让我见到她的唯一方法是透过雨天、透过那片冰冷的玻璃窗；亦只有每当下雨天，我才能再次见到她。即使如此，我们之间的距离还是让我触摸不到 她。。。
“能与你相爱一次，这一生我已满足。对你的种种思念，我将会把它埋藏在心里，让悲伤不再。” 能够慰藉这颗冰冻的心亦只有下雨天的雨点、只有你。。。
Monday, November 21, 2005
Thoughts & Feelings aft Lao Jiu The Musical 2005
Well, much haf been said abt this production, i haf gone thru alot, including one additional new injury inflicted by my fellow dancer. I shall touch on issue by issue in this entry. Honestly, the moment i got this injury, which i demmed serious, i was v sad, v v sad..
1stly, sad tt i cant practise dance 4 approx 2 months, 2nd, its the issue i wanna bring up in this entry.
With utmost respect to all readers & my frenz reading this entry, dun misunderstand my words. U all should know me well so i shall not think abt 'phrasing'... I'll juz pour out my thots w/o packaging them, pls understand..
The issue is I m injured by my fellow dancer, Mr Low's student. I wanna say why all of us r taught by the same teacher, turned out so differently? I dun consider myself a talent, hence i expect others to hit the same level as me easily, or even surpass me... There is room for improvement for me..
I m so sad is tt why r the students from Mr Low's classes getting more & more CMI? The truth y i was injured is really simply becos he couldn't grasp his amt of strength & his timing & positioning... Isn't a 'Mr-Low-trained' dancer supposed to know all these already? I dun blame him for this becos even Jet Li Jackie Chan in movies they slipped too, & injure too..
Hence, i m not asserting blame, i m simply sad...
I m sad becos the students who r being churned out of Mr Low's hands r getting more & more CMI. Yet, this isn't Mr Low's fault, i saw how he taught these students. Basically he taught me the same things when i was a student, but why did i turn out like tt, & those ppl turn out otherwise?
I m not advocating tt every1 muz be like me, muz be the same... NO!!! I m saying why these basic principles such as timing & positioning r not taken into account when they dance/ perform? I dare to say here, in my blog, tt all the current Sec 3s of NHDS oso make this type of mistake, they r juz pure lucky they didnt injure otheres yet... In a performance, like i always teach them as well, u muz be sensitive to what is going on ard u, u dun juz F***ing dance ur own dance steps & dun bother abt other things.. It doesn't work this way, it isn't supposed to as well... All these advice fell on deaf ears...
Hence i m so sad, which is y i blogged down this entry. Cant they be more careful, more enthu, more hardworking to improve themselves? I m sad becos If this carries on, i wouldnt dare & wouldnt want to dance with any of the dancers in DI liao, cos they jeopardize my life leh...
F***, this time is ribcage already damn serious liao, next time is what?
So the sadness continues, cos if i dun dance with them, i haf to part with my beloved dance... I really dun wish to.. But it doesnt mean i haf to compromise & accomodate these sub-standard ppl who will endanger my life-span in dancing... I wanna carry on dancing 4 a long term, i really wish to, the only possible way is tt they muz buck up...... Not i bring myself to tt kind of level to join them...
Argh................................... Why muz things turn out like tt?
Well, much haf been said abt this production, i haf gone thru alot, including one additional new injury inflicted by my fellow dancer. I shall touch on issue by issue in this entry. Honestly, the moment i got this injury, which i demmed serious, i was v sad, v v sad..
1stly, sad tt i cant practise dance 4 approx 2 months, 2nd, its the issue i wanna bring up in this entry.
With utmost respect to all readers & my frenz reading this entry, dun misunderstand my words. U all should know me well so i shall not think abt 'phrasing'... I'll juz pour out my thots w/o packaging them, pls understand..
The issue is I m injured by my fellow dancer, Mr Low's student. I wanna say why all of us r taught by the same teacher, turned out so differently? I dun consider myself a talent, hence i expect others to hit the same level as me easily, or even surpass me... There is room for improvement for me..
I m so sad is tt why r the students from Mr Low's classes getting more & more CMI? The truth y i was injured is really simply becos he couldn't grasp his amt of strength & his timing & positioning... Isn't a 'Mr-Low-trained' dancer supposed to know all these already? I dun blame him for this becos even Jet Li Jackie Chan in movies they slipped too, & injure too..
Hence, i m not asserting blame, i m simply sad...
I m sad becos the students who r being churned out of Mr Low's hands r getting more & more CMI. Yet, this isn't Mr Low's fault, i saw how he taught these students. Basically he taught me the same things when i was a student, but why did i turn out like tt, & those ppl turn out otherwise?
I m not advocating tt every1 muz be like me, muz be the same... NO!!! I m saying why these basic principles such as timing & positioning r not taken into account when they dance/ perform? I dare to say here, in my blog, tt all the current Sec 3s of NHDS oso make this type of mistake, they r juz pure lucky they didnt injure otheres yet... In a performance, like i always teach them as well, u muz be sensitive to what is going on ard u, u dun juz F***ing dance ur own dance steps & dun bother abt other things.. It doesn't work this way, it isn't supposed to as well... All these advice fell on deaf ears...
Hence i m so sad, which is y i blogged down this entry. Cant they be more careful, more enthu, more hardworking to improve themselves? I m sad becos If this carries on, i wouldnt dare & wouldnt want to dance with any of the dancers in DI liao, cos they jeopardize my life leh...
F***, this time is ribcage already damn serious liao, next time is what?
So the sadness continues, cos if i dun dance with them, i haf to part with my beloved dance... I really dun wish to.. But it doesnt mean i haf to compromise & accomodate these sub-standard ppl who will endanger my life-span in dancing... I wanna carry on dancing 4 a long term, i really wish to, the only possible way is tt they muz buck up...... Not i bring myself to tt kind of level to join them...
Argh................................... Why muz things turn out like tt?
End of Entry (with sadness)
Dance Exp in Events so far (from 1996 - 2005)
Edited version since 21 Nov '05
Blogged this entry so tt in future i can easily recall what i did during my younger dayz...
Realize my memories r failing me recently..
If u realize tt is the reason y i suddenly chose to blog...
A paperless collection of my memories...
1996 - NDP Mass Display
1997 - SYF Dance Competition Joyful Harvest(Gold)
1997 Dec to 1998 Jan - My 1st self-choreographed dance under guidance of Mr Low (my idea was later adopted & edited by Mr Low for 1998's D.I. production Snake Dance) Titled: Zhan Wu Bu Sheng
1998 - SYF Mass Display at Kallang Stadium
1998 - Hope, Vannessa Mae dance (e table & chou)
1999 - SYF Dance Competition, Forging Ahead (Gold)
1999 - Suntec Millenium Countdown (at top of Fountain, circle road) - Forging Ahead
2000 - Kallang Theatre, He Wu Gong Ming 2000 - The world in the Magical Box *w Guang Ming + Han Qiang etc
2000 - NKF event at e water area opp Istana Park - 30+ min dance (comprieses of: my very 1st self-choreographed solo dance under the guidance of Mr Low, Titled: Pan Gu (duration 10 min) + The world in the Magical Box (editied version, 15 min) , + Hope)
2000? - I think.... Chingay at Nicoll Highway
2001 - Quit 4 'A' Levels
2002 - Go back NHSS help the Chingay at Padang
2003 - Aft Commission, later half of the yr go back join Mr Low
2004 - NKF event at e water area opp Istana Park - The world in the Magical Box (diff from 2000, is this time no stage, straight away dance in water) Path Productions
2004 - Wu Ju 3 (collaboration w Foo Chow Assoc) Kopitiam + Bottle up
2005 - Chingay 2005 @ Orchard Road
2005 - NDP 2005 @ Padang
2005 - Lao Jiu The Musical 2005 presented by TTP
Out of the list unmentioned are minor performances such as Cultural Pot & Sch Anniversary + Comm Centre perf....
Partners i have cooperated with thru out the years:
1996 - Xueping
1998 - Lee Hao Yih, Chuiling, ZhiQian, Cai Shiming, Jingling
1999 - Connie Wan Ziying
2000 - Zhou Xiu, Hui Ting, QianHui, Xiao Huimin, Xiao Wanling
2003 - Xue Zhen
2004 - Shi Hui, Adelene Kong, Wei Yun, Yunyun
So far from 1996 - 2005 is lidat... (edited since 21 Nov '05)
Some dance memories:
*2002 Dec i went NHSS @old sch campus NHPS for e dance camp, is last time i saw Mdm See still as a teacher in NHSS....
*smth worth mentioning abt yr 2000 NKF event: Last chance 4 3 of us dance together Weiyang, me & Zixiang.. Weiyang nv dance since then...
Edited version since 21 Nov '05
Blogged this entry so tt in future i can easily recall what i did during my younger dayz...
Realize my memories r failing me recently..
If u realize tt is the reason y i suddenly chose to blog...
A paperless collection of my memories...
1996 - NDP Mass Display
1997 - SYF Dance Competition Joyful Harvest(Gold)
1997 Dec to 1998 Jan - My 1st self-choreographed dance under guidance of Mr Low (my idea was later adopted & edited by Mr Low for 1998's D.I. production Snake Dance) Titled: Zhan Wu Bu Sheng
1998 - SYF Mass Display at Kallang Stadium
1998 - Hope, Vannessa Mae dance (e table & chou)
1999 - SYF Dance Competition, Forging Ahead (Gold)
1999 - Suntec Millenium Countdown (at top of Fountain, circle road) - Forging Ahead
2000 - Kallang Theatre, He Wu Gong Ming 2000 - The world in the Magical Box *w Guang Ming + Han Qiang etc
2000 - NKF event at e water area opp Istana Park - 30+ min dance (comprieses of: my very 1st self-choreographed solo dance under the guidance of Mr Low, Titled: Pan Gu (duration 10 min) + The world in the Magical Box (editied version, 15 min) , + Hope)
2000? - I think.... Chingay at Nicoll Highway
2001 - Quit 4 'A' Levels
2002 - Go back NHSS help the Chingay at Padang
2003 - Aft Commission, later half of the yr go back join Mr Low
2004 - NKF event at e water area opp Istana Park - The world in the Magical Box (diff from 2000, is this time no stage, straight away dance in water) Path Productions
2004 - Wu Ju 3 (collaboration w Foo Chow Assoc) Kopitiam + Bottle up
2005 - Chingay 2005 @ Orchard Road
2005 - NDP 2005 @ Padang
2005 - Lao Jiu The Musical 2005 presented by TTP
Out of the list unmentioned are minor performances such as Cultural Pot & Sch Anniversary + Comm Centre perf....
Partners i have cooperated with thru out the years:
1996 - Xueping
1998 - Lee Hao Yih, Chuiling, ZhiQian, Cai Shiming, Jingling
1999 - Connie Wan Ziying
2000 - Zhou Xiu, Hui Ting, QianHui, Xiao Huimin, Xiao Wanling
2003 - Xue Zhen
2004 - Shi Hui, Adelene Kong, Wei Yun, Yunyun
So far from 1996 - 2005 is lidat... (edited since 21 Nov '05)
Some dance memories:
*2002 Dec i went NHSS @old sch campus NHPS for e dance camp, is last time i saw Mdm See still as a teacher in NHSS....
*smth worth mentioning abt yr 2000 NKF event: Last chance 4 3 of us dance together Weiyang, me & Zixiang.. Weiyang nv dance since then...
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Lao Jiu The Musical (Part 4/4)
The New Drama Centre
The venue where Lao Jiu is staged is at the New Drama Centre, above the new National Library. Lao Jiu is the opening performance for the new drama centre, thereby Shi Jian is the first troupe to use this venue for a performance. Haha...
Woah, the facilities there r good.. Well, i dun haf the chance to go to the control room to take a look at the control lighting & sound syst but the theatre is well-designed and furnished.
Why do i bother to enter an entry juz abt New Drama Centre? Cos last night during the rehearsal there, i suddenly realized once again why i had liked to perform... When i stepped into the dressing room of Drama Centre, woah, it was great!!! though with only 3-4 rooms, but each room is considered spacious. (Dun compare to Kallang Theatre lah, but its better than Vic Theatre) With a bathroom in each dressing room, moreover shower got heater. In dressing room still got personal lockers for putting belongings. Most impt, it is spacious, really spacious, can do all the necessary warm-up in there b4 going on-stage..
The seating capacity of Drama Centre is rather small, the stage is relatively deep but not wide enough, approximately do 2 handspring can reach end to end liao.. The stage floor texture is smooth, too smooth till slippery, not v safe, do stunts v dangerous. The front seats are too close to the stage front, i can imagine Mr Low's dances sure cannot perform there... No place to jump down stage, audience is directly juz in front of u.. The dist from u to him is abt 2 rows of seats... But anyway, every stage has its uniqueness and i still exploring this stage.. =)
When i stepped up onto the stage of Drama Centre, it was a familiar feeling, like i haf found my long-lost friend... Recall: Do u know when i haf last stepped onto a theatre stage? It was in 2004, Wu Ju 3 in Vic Theatre. A yr ago leh... It was really a long-lost feeling...
Standing on stage, touching the curtains, all the side lights, walking on stage, putting markings here & there for positioning, feeling the stage floor, looking at the audience seats from the centre of e stage, all these feelings just came back to me again... I just felt happy all of a sudden, & juz so happy.
The dressing room gives me a comforting & familiar feeling as well... I always recall that dressing rooms (holding area) are always the places with most fun... In fact, i decided to bring my clothing, sleeping bag & my books to study at Drama Centre while waiting for my scene rehearsal... Haha, like the feeling of wandering around & exploring theatres...
I recall why i haf always liked performances in theatres. It is this kind of familiar, fun, wander ard feeling tt keeps me always interested in going to theatres to perform.. In fact, i seriously like them. I remember the first time i wandered ard Kallang Theatre to everywhere as if it was my playground. From toilets to hidden staircases, emergency fire exits, all dressing rooms, control room, & interestingly, how to get into theatre w/o paying 4 tix.
Enjoyed the rehearsal at Drama Centre last night, i found the feeling once again... =)
I want/wish to perform in theatres every now & then...
The New Drama Centre
The venue where Lao Jiu is staged is at the New Drama Centre, above the new National Library. Lao Jiu is the opening performance for the new drama centre, thereby Shi Jian is the first troupe to use this venue for a performance. Haha...
Woah, the facilities there r good.. Well, i dun haf the chance to go to the control room to take a look at the control lighting & sound syst but the theatre is well-designed and furnished.
Why do i bother to enter an entry juz abt New Drama Centre? Cos last night during the rehearsal there, i suddenly realized once again why i had liked to perform... When i stepped into the dressing room of Drama Centre, woah, it was great!!! though with only 3-4 rooms, but each room is considered spacious. (Dun compare to Kallang Theatre lah, but its better than Vic Theatre) With a bathroom in each dressing room, moreover shower got heater. In dressing room still got personal lockers for putting belongings. Most impt, it is spacious, really spacious, can do all the necessary warm-up in there b4 going on-stage..
The seating capacity of Drama Centre is rather small, the stage is relatively deep but not wide enough, approximately do 2 handspring can reach end to end liao.. The stage floor texture is smooth, too smooth till slippery, not v safe, do stunts v dangerous. The front seats are too close to the stage front, i can imagine Mr Low's dances sure cannot perform there... No place to jump down stage, audience is directly juz in front of u.. The dist from u to him is abt 2 rows of seats... But anyway, every stage has its uniqueness and i still exploring this stage.. =)
When i stepped up onto the stage of Drama Centre, it was a familiar feeling, like i haf found my long-lost friend... Recall: Do u know when i haf last stepped onto a theatre stage? It was in 2004, Wu Ju 3 in Vic Theatre. A yr ago leh... It was really a long-lost feeling...
Standing on stage, touching the curtains, all the side lights, walking on stage, putting markings here & there for positioning, feeling the stage floor, looking at the audience seats from the centre of e stage, all these feelings just came back to me again... I just felt happy all of a sudden, & juz so happy.
The dressing room gives me a comforting & familiar feeling as well... I always recall that dressing rooms (holding area) are always the places with most fun... In fact, i decided to bring my clothing, sleeping bag & my books to study at Drama Centre while waiting for my scene rehearsal... Haha, like the feeling of wandering around & exploring theatres...
I recall why i haf always liked performances in theatres. It is this kind of familiar, fun, wander ard feeling tt keeps me always interested in going to theatres to perform.. In fact, i seriously like them. I remember the first time i wandered ard Kallang Theatre to everywhere as if it was my playground. From toilets to hidden staircases, emergency fire exits, all dressing rooms, control room, & interestingly, how to get into theatre w/o paying 4 tix.
Enjoyed the rehearsal at Drama Centre last night, i found the feeling once again... =)
I want/wish to perform in theatres every now & then...
End of Entry
Lao Jiu The Musical (Part 3/4)
Haha, this part i wish to say abt the happy memories i haf when participating in Lao Jiu. It's damn interesting, i got to know so many ppl and tt they r so 100% professional, i m impressed. (though there r exceptions sometimes =p)
Let's just intro: till now i dunno many of them abt shall just try my best. 1st; Johnny Ng (Huang Jia Qiang Da-ge), oh cos every1 in Shi Jian address him as Jia Qiang Da-ge. He is my opponent in my fight scene and of course i m the one kanna beaten up lah, but he is damn professional. I shall touch a little on technical aspects; his powerful voice projection, his yan shen and hence the entire say, really walk like got wind blowing... Gangster really act until like gangster. professional.
Next, Jonathan Lim; Yup yup, he is tt Jonathan from Wild Rice, the assoc artistic director. In a certain way, he is currently Ivan Heng's Right Hand Man. Basically his skill the same as Jia Qiang Da-ge, dun wish to touch so much on technical aspects. He was also a ex-lecturer in NUS teaching Theatre Studies. He acts as Mr Jin in Lao Jiu, the person offering the scholarship to Lao Jiu.
Next, Lim Kay Siu; if u dunno him, he is Frankie Foo in PCK. Ring a bell? Well, he is damn good lor, he polish his chinese language v hard, professional sia.. In this show, he is really one of the most hardworking artistes.. Oso, his smoking hor, wah, Power... Haha...
Next, Alvin; he is the asst. director for Lao Jiu. Something worth mentioning, he is from Old Ox Theatre last time, so yah, if u know drama & theatre, u will know Old Ox ppl damn pro one, this one dun need elaborate. Something worth mentioning is his acting skills lah, imagine he can act ah-beng until so alike tt even Yongxuan oso scared of him leh... Wah, his yan shen & say is good man... In our fight scene, he was the 1 responsible for teaching us how to act like true ah-bengs, unlike what u see at the bus stops nowadays...
Next, Trey & Justin; Justin one yr younger than me, studying in SIM now, oso interested in Arts one lah, he is v into fliming, got productions participate in Singapore Film Festival b4. Trey, a yr older than me, wah lau, this guy is freaking good sia. He is now in NUS Theatre Studies, and oso an active dancer of NUS dance ensemble. His ji ben gong wah piang, so old liao still so flexible, i v impressed.. oso a little envy/jealous... sob, sob...
Next Mindee & Magdalene; well, they sometimes appear on TV as actors or models. Something worth mentioning is Magdalene's voice. Wah, her vocal damn good, powerful sia... high pitch too, the key v high...
There are many others who r all v professional but i still dunno many of their names yet..=p But i really wish to say: When they r on rehearsal, they usually full-up all e time & when they do, they r completely different. Their energy is focused on the stage, when in curtains, they keep quiet & dun talk to each other at all.. Fully focused on what is going on on stage, how to prep their emotions for next scene etc. Every1 is extremely enthu & nobody spoils the atmosphere, all fully prepared, 100% concentration, no giggling, no chatting. Though they r at side stage, they r fully involved in the flow of the show, so dun need to try to ru xi again later.
F*** lah, compare this to ppl in DI? No 100% concentration & devotion at all... Mr Low say muz let them come & learn from others, he meant this type of attitude & prep methods. Hence, these past months in Shi Jian, i really happy to exp this high level of professionalism, unlike in DI..
This crew is really fun to be with, i seriously enjoyed the rehearsals with them. The most interesting thing is our talk-cock seesions where we sit down & chat during waiting time. Wah piang, laugh till like siao, even Kay Siu & Jonathan join in our sessions... Haha... Interesting ppl..
I m v happy to haf met & know these ppl...
Something worth mentioning: Wah lau eh, Jeff Tan is really rather well-known in this arena, imagine when both Jonathan & Alvin talked to me, they asked me how come i know abt theatre stuff such as alienation effect, i said: oh Jeff Tan taught me b4, they said, Orh, Jeff Tan ah.... No wonder lah... They were full of praises of Jeff... Haha, with thanks to Jeff Tan, i was introduced to theatre & got to know this bunch of interesting ppl... Really happy =)
Haha, this part i wish to say abt the happy memories i haf when participating in Lao Jiu. It's damn interesting, i got to know so many ppl and tt they r so 100% professional, i m impressed. (though there r exceptions sometimes =p)
Let's just intro: till now i dunno many of them abt shall just try my best. 1st; Johnny Ng (Huang Jia Qiang Da-ge), oh cos every1 in Shi Jian address him as Jia Qiang Da-ge. He is my opponent in my fight scene and of course i m the one kanna beaten up lah, but he is damn professional. I shall touch a little on technical aspects; his powerful voice projection, his yan shen and hence the entire say, really walk like got wind blowing... Gangster really act until like gangster. professional.
Next, Jonathan Lim; Yup yup, he is tt Jonathan from Wild Rice, the assoc artistic director. In a certain way, he is currently Ivan Heng's Right Hand Man. Basically his skill the same as Jia Qiang Da-ge, dun wish to touch so much on technical aspects. He was also a ex-lecturer in NUS teaching Theatre Studies. He acts as Mr Jin in Lao Jiu, the person offering the scholarship to Lao Jiu.
Next, Lim Kay Siu; if u dunno him, he is Frankie Foo in PCK. Ring a bell? Well, he is damn good lor, he polish his chinese language v hard, professional sia.. In this show, he is really one of the most hardworking artistes.. Oso, his smoking hor, wah, Power... Haha...
Next, Alvin; he is the asst. director for Lao Jiu. Something worth mentioning, he is from Old Ox Theatre last time, so yah, if u know drama & theatre, u will know Old Ox ppl damn pro one, this one dun need elaborate. Something worth mentioning is his acting skills lah, imagine he can act ah-beng until so alike tt even Yongxuan oso scared of him leh... Wah, his yan shen & say is good man... In our fight scene, he was the 1 responsible for teaching us how to act like true ah-bengs, unlike what u see at the bus stops nowadays...
Next, Trey & Justin; Justin one yr younger than me, studying in SIM now, oso interested in Arts one lah, he is v into fliming, got productions participate in Singapore Film Festival b4. Trey, a yr older than me, wah lau, this guy is freaking good sia. He is now in NUS Theatre Studies, and oso an active dancer of NUS dance ensemble. His ji ben gong wah piang, so old liao still so flexible, i v impressed.. oso a little envy/jealous... sob, sob...
Next Mindee & Magdalene; well, they sometimes appear on TV as actors or models. Something worth mentioning is Magdalene's voice. Wah, her vocal damn good, powerful sia... high pitch too, the key v high...
There are many others who r all v professional but i still dunno many of their names yet..=p But i really wish to say: When they r on rehearsal, they usually full-up all e time & when they do, they r completely different. Their energy is focused on the stage, when in curtains, they keep quiet & dun talk to each other at all.. Fully focused on what is going on on stage, how to prep their emotions for next scene etc. Every1 is extremely enthu & nobody spoils the atmosphere, all fully prepared, 100% concentration, no giggling, no chatting. Though they r at side stage, they r fully involved in the flow of the show, so dun need to try to ru xi again later.
F*** lah, compare this to ppl in DI? No 100% concentration & devotion at all... Mr Low say muz let them come & learn from others, he meant this type of attitude & prep methods. Hence, these past months in Shi Jian, i really happy to exp this high level of professionalism, unlike in DI..
This crew is really fun to be with, i seriously enjoyed the rehearsals with them. The most interesting thing is our talk-cock seesions where we sit down & chat during waiting time. Wah piang, laugh till like siao, even Kay Siu & Jonathan join in our sessions... Haha... Interesting ppl..
I m v happy to haf met & know these ppl...
Something worth mentioning: Wah lau eh, Jeff Tan is really rather well-known in this arena, imagine when both Jonathan & Alvin talked to me, they asked me how come i know abt theatre stuff such as alienation effect, i said: oh Jeff Tan taught me b4, they said, Orh, Jeff Tan ah.... No wonder lah... They were full of praises of Jeff... Haha, with thanks to Jeff Tan, i was introduced to theatre & got to know this bunch of interesting ppl... Really happy =)
Lao Jiu the Musical (Part 2/4)
Well, this part i would like to enter my personal thoughts abt my life after participating in Lao Jiu.
I find myself so similar to the role of Lao Jiu and tt i face similar consequences regarding my decision. But well, right up till now, i dun haf the courage to decide yes, i go dance full time. Nope, i haf not. In fact, i may feel tt i dun even haf the capability to do tt. After all, i not like Connie who since young has been learning dancing etc. I dun think i m up to mark yet. Okie, this is the technical aspect, i dunno good enough or not.
Next, is the aspect of stable income. Actually Arts can oso haf stable income one. 1 good example is Mr Low. Others would be Drama Troupes like Wild Rice, TheatreWorks etc. All can make $$. It depends on how u do it, do u spend extravagently on every single production? So the stability comes from Sourcing. If u haf a great network of contacts, u can get jobs relatively easy, in such a way, income is considered rather stable. I dare say at least 4 a yr.
Next, is the aspect of Reality. Honestly, passion matters alot but it doesn't decide Everything. Life is not a bed of roses. I taught in Tanglin for a yr so far, i realized it's really damn hard. Wanna impart my skills to them, but they mostly not interested. Interested ones, not hardworking enough, learn a bit den give up... Sigh... Moreover, Life is harsh. If i wanna go full time i would haf to think of ways to up my profile, these may include winning in dance competitions etc. But reality is: in these competitions such as Funkamania, Anti-Drug etc, newcomers usually dun win no matter how gd u r. I dun think u even make it thru the audition. It is the regular customers tt choreograph & participate who win. So all in all, Reality bites.
So basically, its oso not tt easy to be like Lao Jiu, say decide den decide. U may haf to be like him, embark on a lonely journey w/o anyone beside u. And just like the ending of the drama, u dunno what lies in the future, there is uncertainty....
Well, this part i would like to enter my personal thoughts abt my life after participating in Lao Jiu.
I find myself so similar to the role of Lao Jiu and tt i face similar consequences regarding my decision. But well, right up till now, i dun haf the courage to decide yes, i go dance full time. Nope, i haf not. In fact, i may feel tt i dun even haf the capability to do tt. After all, i not like Connie who since young has been learning dancing etc. I dun think i m up to mark yet. Okie, this is the technical aspect, i dunno good enough or not.
Next, is the aspect of stable income. Actually Arts can oso haf stable income one. 1 good example is Mr Low. Others would be Drama Troupes like Wild Rice, TheatreWorks etc. All can make $$. It depends on how u do it, do u spend extravagently on every single production? So the stability comes from Sourcing. If u haf a great network of contacts, u can get jobs relatively easy, in such a way, income is considered rather stable. I dare say at least 4 a yr.
Next, is the aspect of Reality. Honestly, passion matters alot but it doesn't decide Everything. Life is not a bed of roses. I taught in Tanglin for a yr so far, i realized it's really damn hard. Wanna impart my skills to them, but they mostly not interested. Interested ones, not hardworking enough, learn a bit den give up... Sigh... Moreover, Life is harsh. If i wanna go full time i would haf to think of ways to up my profile, these may include winning in dance competitions etc. But reality is: in these competitions such as Funkamania, Anti-Drug etc, newcomers usually dun win no matter how gd u r. I dun think u even make it thru the audition. It is the regular customers tt choreograph & participate who win. So all in all, Reality bites.
So basically, its oso not tt easy to be like Lao Jiu, say decide den decide. U may haf to be like him, embark on a lonely journey w/o anyone beside u. And just like the ending of the drama, u dunno what lies in the future, there is uncertainty....
Lao Jiu The Musical (Part 1/4)
Time is Nov '05. As mentioned in past entries, i m into this musical by Shi Jian Ju Chang. Honestly, i learnt alot from this collaboration with Shi Jian. Though i just take up a minor role, but i got to know lots of ppl, & seriously learnt alot. Even thinking oso a bit change. After all, these theatre ppl always are always innovating. Whether in terms of thinking or productions, always got their own unique styles. =)
For this entry, i shall include the plot of Lao Jiu, and state out why i sincerely feel its a good script.. Kuo Pao Kun is really a genius with his She Hui Zhu Ti Ju Chang, always ever pointing out the 'sickness' of our society. Yup, to him, he may haf viewed it as sickness and other audience/ critics may not think tt the point he brought out is a type of 'sickness' but anyway tt's not impt. What impresses me is tt he managed to bring out these points which r close to our life and tt we can relate so closely to the script.. The plot goes like this:
Lao Jiu, the ninth child of the family, only son, is the pride & joy of his father, an ex-gangster. It was foretold that this brillant young man will achieve great success in life. Now on the brink of winning a prestigious scholarship (for the gifted) that will ensure a glorious career, Lao Jiu finds himself more fascinated by Puppetry, a dying art which no youngsters r interested. He yearns to be a student of Shifu, his dad's cloest friend. Torn between reality & dreams, modernity & tradition, he is determined to find his destiny.
Eventually he gave up the scholarship though he topped among all e gifted, and went on to learn puppetry from Shifu. But the plot has many underlying themes, it isn't just abt Arts Vs. Stable job kinda theme. 1stly, his father is like my parents, relatively lowly educated. He was a gangster when young, stayed with Martial Arts sch, learnt Wushu and didnt haf $$ to go study at all, not even primary sch. Having the only son who was highly gifted, it's natural he would want his son to get the scholarship & hence stable job & dun need like him slog like mad for the entire life. This comes in the theme abt our parents always telling us to study hard, get a degree, come out & haf a stable job..
However, his passion was in puppetry. Actually, tt is what is in the script but actually audience can interpret it in any way, u can simply put urself into Lao Jiu's shoes, and replace Puppetry with Dance/ Music/ Visual Arts/ Wushu/ whatever arts. So the theme abt Passion Vs Reality. So How? Usually ppl say those who do arts end up with no money, will be damn poor etc. So do u want a luxurious life or u dun mind as long as u spend everyday fruitfully doing what u love most?
So eventually, there is a conflict between him & his entire family, cos their hopes are all on him. So the issue here is: Filial Piety Vs Pursuing ur own dream? If u give up scholarship, u give up a successful career which can bring ur family out of poverty, in such a way, u failed ur parents, thereby considered unfilial. Or would u choose to pursue ur dreams & passion?
Next, the hint in the script abt dying art. If nobody takes up Arts as full-time jobs, such as Lao Jiu, eventually It will be too late and e Art will be totally lost. This is the interesting part in the script. In the ending, when Lao Jiu finally decided to learn puppetry from Shifu, Shifu died of a terminal illness 3 months later. N it was not stated in the ending whether did he learn everything he ought to from Shifu b4 he died. I mean, so what if Lao Jiu decided to learn? It was only 3 months, i dun think he learnt everything. In a certain way, the art may be considered lost. The issue is: When society such as Singapore does not place emphasis on dying arts, eventually it gets lost. I dare say many forms of arts in Singapore r already facing similar fate. Eg. Puppetry, Chinese Opera, Gao Qiao, and some music instruments in Chinese Orchestra.
The conflict here is tt nobody is right nor wrong. Its only natural tt parents want their child to haf stable income etc, but neither is Lao Jiu's fault if he decides to puruse his dreams. The conflict is tt, if Lao Jiu pursues his dream, he has to carry the 'name' of unfilial, selfish, not providing for parents' old age etc. Anyway, in the end of the drama, Lao Jiu's father passed away too not long after Shifu passed away. N the family members who once doted on him, started to 'mind their own business' so in a certain way, the family is no longer as close as b4. N Lao Jiu embarks on his lonely journey as an artist (puppetry). It is just a very bei ai ending.
The presentation of the script thru a musical is oso v good, can feel the sadness in every1, in the entire story.... There is alot to read from the show, i cant spell out everything cos its too much, even a simple dialogue has hidden meaning/ implications. So yup, its really a great script! =)
Time is Nov '05. As mentioned in past entries, i m into this musical by Shi Jian Ju Chang. Honestly, i learnt alot from this collaboration with Shi Jian. Though i just take up a minor role, but i got to know lots of ppl, & seriously learnt alot. Even thinking oso a bit change. After all, these theatre ppl always are always innovating. Whether in terms of thinking or productions, always got their own unique styles. =)
For this entry, i shall include the plot of Lao Jiu, and state out why i sincerely feel its a good script.. Kuo Pao Kun is really a genius with his She Hui Zhu Ti Ju Chang, always ever pointing out the 'sickness' of our society. Yup, to him, he may haf viewed it as sickness and other audience/ critics may not think tt the point he brought out is a type of 'sickness' but anyway tt's not impt. What impresses me is tt he managed to bring out these points which r close to our life and tt we can relate so closely to the script.. The plot goes like this:
Lao Jiu, the ninth child of the family, only son, is the pride & joy of his father, an ex-gangster. It was foretold that this brillant young man will achieve great success in life. Now on the brink of winning a prestigious scholarship (for the gifted) that will ensure a glorious career, Lao Jiu finds himself more fascinated by Puppetry, a dying art which no youngsters r interested. He yearns to be a student of Shifu, his dad's cloest friend. Torn between reality & dreams, modernity & tradition, he is determined to find his destiny.
Eventually he gave up the scholarship though he topped among all e gifted, and went on to learn puppetry from Shifu. But the plot has many underlying themes, it isn't just abt Arts Vs. Stable job kinda theme. 1stly, his father is like my parents, relatively lowly educated. He was a gangster when young, stayed with Martial Arts sch, learnt Wushu and didnt haf $$ to go study at all, not even primary sch. Having the only son who was highly gifted, it's natural he would want his son to get the scholarship & hence stable job & dun need like him slog like mad for the entire life. This comes in the theme abt our parents always telling us to study hard, get a degree, come out & haf a stable job..
However, his passion was in puppetry. Actually, tt is what is in the script but actually audience can interpret it in any way, u can simply put urself into Lao Jiu's shoes, and replace Puppetry with Dance/ Music/ Visual Arts/ Wushu/ whatever arts. So the theme abt Passion Vs Reality. So How? Usually ppl say those who do arts end up with no money, will be damn poor etc. So do u want a luxurious life or u dun mind as long as u spend everyday fruitfully doing what u love most?
So eventually, there is a conflict between him & his entire family, cos their hopes are all on him. So the issue here is: Filial Piety Vs Pursuing ur own dream? If u give up scholarship, u give up a successful career which can bring ur family out of poverty, in such a way, u failed ur parents, thereby considered unfilial. Or would u choose to pursue ur dreams & passion?
Next, the hint in the script abt dying art. If nobody takes up Arts as full-time jobs, such as Lao Jiu, eventually It will be too late and e Art will be totally lost. This is the interesting part in the script. In the ending, when Lao Jiu finally decided to learn puppetry from Shifu, Shifu died of a terminal illness 3 months later. N it was not stated in the ending whether did he learn everything he ought to from Shifu b4 he died. I mean, so what if Lao Jiu decided to learn? It was only 3 months, i dun think he learnt everything. In a certain way, the art may be considered lost. The issue is: When society such as Singapore does not place emphasis on dying arts, eventually it gets lost. I dare say many forms of arts in Singapore r already facing similar fate. Eg. Puppetry, Chinese Opera, Gao Qiao, and some music instruments in Chinese Orchestra.
The conflict here is tt nobody is right nor wrong. Its only natural tt parents want their child to haf stable income etc, but neither is Lao Jiu's fault if he decides to puruse his dreams. The conflict is tt, if Lao Jiu pursues his dream, he has to carry the 'name' of unfilial, selfish, not providing for parents' old age etc. Anyway, in the end of the drama, Lao Jiu's father passed away too not long after Shifu passed away. N the family members who once doted on him, started to 'mind their own business' so in a certain way, the family is no longer as close as b4. N Lao Jiu embarks on his lonely journey as an artist (puppetry). It is just a very bei ai ending.
The presentation of the script thru a musical is oso v good, can feel the sadness in every1, in the entire story.... There is alot to read from the show, i cant spell out everything cos its too much, even a simple dialogue has hidden meaning/ implications. So yup, its really a great script! =)
Friday, October 28, 2005
MBTI Quiz
http://www.blogthings.com/mbtiquiz/
I found this website online.. Friends who visit my blog, i strongly recommend u all to take this personality test. Well, this is called the MBTI (Myers Briggs Type Indicator) It is the most well-known personality test in the world currently with firms such as Hewlett-Packard, Exxon, using it on their top executives. It is divided into 4 categories: Introversion vs extraversion (I/E), sensing vs intuition (S/N), Thinking vs Feeling (T/F), and lastly, Judging vs Perceiving (J/P).
With diff combinations, u get 16 combinations all in all. Eg. ISTP means Introvert, sensing, thinking and perceiving person.
This letter combination does not exactly specify who u r, becos MBTI acknowledges tt every individual is unique and different and does not attempt to generalize personality types. The reason why this test is extremely good is not in its accuracy in predicting personality, is tt it lets firms/ top executives know the working personality of the person taking the test. When dealing with work, what type of a person is HE? Eg. a Judging person means he is extremely organized, and likes to go by the books, while a perceiving person is some1 who is creative, likes to innovate, likes to do things on the spot w/o planning b4 hand. Hence, if an employee is a Judging type, & u assign him tasks last min, thereby disrupting his daily organized schedule, he is likely to hate u for it & may be de-motivated to perform. Hence, MBTI is extremely useful in evaluating personnels so tt Organizational Behaviour can be better shaped.
However, having looked at this quiz and took this quiz, i wish to say this online quiz is not the real MBTI quiz, it is a shorter version. The real MBTI quiz has abt 200+ questions which can lead to a better evaluation, this online quiz has only 40 qtns. Friends out there reading this, pls take the test, its really good. Becos u can know urself even better, u can even shape ur own working style so tt when u work with diff ppl in the future, if u r highly adaptable, u can even change ur working style to suit his.
For instance, if now u r Judging but ur boss always like to give jobs on the spot, u can gradually change ur style of working, not necessary resign right? All in all, the good thing abt MBTI is like we can choose who we wanna be, I tell u, i took e real test twice, once in SAJC, once in NTU. I managed to change my results, not tt i memorise the answers again and play cheat to change my MBTI results, but i gradually change my working styles & habits, eventually achieving the results i want. (though now it is still not my ideal result) I didn't know i haf changed till i took the test again, when i recall my previous results, i realized i did change after all.
What this test does not offer as compared to the longer version one( i muz say the nature of the qtn is the same but quantity diff), is tt becos longer version got more qtn, it gives a better evaluation, something called the clarity score. Like i said above, MBTI acknowledges tt every individual is unique and different and does not attempt to generalize personality types. Clarity score shows the magnitude of ur inclineness towards the personality type, from 0-99.
Take me for eg. My type is INTJ, but my T & J component is 3/99, which is extremely low, this means tt i can oso be a INFP person, becos my T/F & J/P components are highly interchangeable. For clarity score, as mentioned by my professor in NTU, as long as u haf a clarity score of below 5, it means u can switch in between diff personality types. It is not exactly clear what type of personality u are.
Anyway, having read what i haf wrote, i still dun think i explained MBTI clearly, Friends wishing to know more, pls let me know... It's really v good, though not the longer version but juz take this online quiz as a guide.
http://www.blogthings.com/mbtiquiz/
I found this website online.. Friends who visit my blog, i strongly recommend u all to take this personality test. Well, this is called the MBTI (Myers Briggs Type Indicator) It is the most well-known personality test in the world currently with firms such as Hewlett-Packard, Exxon, using it on their top executives. It is divided into 4 categories: Introversion vs extraversion (I/E), sensing vs intuition (S/N), Thinking vs Feeling (T/F), and lastly, Judging vs Perceiving (J/P).
With diff combinations, u get 16 combinations all in all. Eg. ISTP means Introvert, sensing, thinking and perceiving person.
This letter combination does not exactly specify who u r, becos MBTI acknowledges tt every individual is unique and different and does not attempt to generalize personality types. The reason why this test is extremely good is not in its accuracy in predicting personality, is tt it lets firms/ top executives know the working personality of the person taking the test. When dealing with work, what type of a person is HE? Eg. a Judging person means he is extremely organized, and likes to go by the books, while a perceiving person is some1 who is creative, likes to innovate, likes to do things on the spot w/o planning b4 hand. Hence, if an employee is a Judging type, & u assign him tasks last min, thereby disrupting his daily organized schedule, he is likely to hate u for it & may be de-motivated to perform. Hence, MBTI is extremely useful in evaluating personnels so tt Organizational Behaviour can be better shaped.
However, having looked at this quiz and took this quiz, i wish to say this online quiz is not the real MBTI quiz, it is a shorter version. The real MBTI quiz has abt 200+ questions which can lead to a better evaluation, this online quiz has only 40 qtns. Friends out there reading this, pls take the test, its really good. Becos u can know urself even better, u can even shape ur own working style so tt when u work with diff ppl in the future, if u r highly adaptable, u can even change ur working style to suit his.
For instance, if now u r Judging but ur boss always like to give jobs on the spot, u can gradually change ur style of working, not necessary resign right? All in all, the good thing abt MBTI is like we can choose who we wanna be, I tell u, i took e real test twice, once in SAJC, once in NTU. I managed to change my results, not tt i memorise the answers again and play cheat to change my MBTI results, but i gradually change my working styles & habits, eventually achieving the results i want. (though now it is still not my ideal result) I didn't know i haf changed till i took the test again, when i recall my previous results, i realized i did change after all.
What this test does not offer as compared to the longer version one( i muz say the nature of the qtn is the same but quantity diff), is tt becos longer version got more qtn, it gives a better evaluation, something called the clarity score. Like i said above, MBTI acknowledges tt every individual is unique and different and does not attempt to generalize personality types. Clarity score shows the magnitude of ur inclineness towards the personality type, from 0-99.
Take me for eg. My type is INTJ, but my T & J component is 3/99, which is extremely low, this means tt i can oso be a INFP person, becos my T/F & J/P components are highly interchangeable. For clarity score, as mentioned by my professor in NTU, as long as u haf a clarity score of below 5, it means u can switch in between diff personality types. It is not exactly clear what type of personality u are.
Anyway, having read what i haf wrote, i still dun think i explained MBTI clearly, Friends wishing to know more, pls let me know... It's really v good, though not the longer version but juz take this online quiz as a guide.
End of Entry
Sunday, October 02, 2005
I really have hopes on 'them'
This is a senseless entry... I oso dunno why i think this way; maybe attributable becos youngsters recently are v cmi, so i hope for miracles to happen where i can get 2 know a grp of so-called 'better' youngsters...
Well, i sincerely hope for NHDS current members to be pro-active so tt in a certain way, the mythology can lives on... Recently heard from Qihui tt the Sec 3s are trying to get alot of things done... Apparently i heard tt they haf big plans for Dance Camp, and to my surprise, they quite enthu (they arrange a meeting next Mon, immediately aft end of yr exams) hopefully they can org a dance camp successfully lah...
Actually hopes r hopes, i dunno what to pin for, what can be expected.. Imagine the mid-autumn fest celeb at NHDS, the sec 3 guys kanna scolded by Mr Low again, i m quite unwelcome by e idea of seniors/ grown-ups kanna scolded by Mr Low, how is it possible tt at such a age liao still canno think? Still need instructor to scold? Wah lau.. How do i connect with them? Honestly haf high hopes 4 NHDS, i sincerely wish to come back to sch every now & then, see a very united and enthu bunch of young dancers which participate in their ECAs actively and furthermore, within every bunch can choke up abt 1 or 2 extremely enthu ones to coach in depth so tt they can be active in performing arts or simply dance in their future... Woh... This is really an ideal, i can see how far it is from reality but nvtheless, i know deep down inside i still harbour hopes..
Yup, i mean which graduate (with a rational mind) would wanna come back and juz see NHDS collapse then happy as if he/she struck lottery? There r ppl like tt, but definitely not me lah...
What will NHDS turn into? I seriously dunno but as of today, 2 Oct 2005, i know tt i sincerely dun want it to fall, i still wanna help it... Nv will i wanna see NHDS lose its uniqueness and become a society with many girls and some sissy among them...
May this coming Dance Camp be a exciting one.... =) May NHDS prosper once again with true quality tt can take the dance arena by storm...
I simply wish upon....
This is a senseless entry... I oso dunno why i think this way; maybe attributable becos youngsters recently are v cmi, so i hope for miracles to happen where i can get 2 know a grp of so-called 'better' youngsters...
Well, i sincerely hope for NHDS current members to be pro-active so tt in a certain way, the mythology can lives on... Recently heard from Qihui tt the Sec 3s are trying to get alot of things done... Apparently i heard tt they haf big plans for Dance Camp, and to my surprise, they quite enthu (they arrange a meeting next Mon, immediately aft end of yr exams) hopefully they can org a dance camp successfully lah...
Actually hopes r hopes, i dunno what to pin for, what can be expected.. Imagine the mid-autumn fest celeb at NHDS, the sec 3 guys kanna scolded by Mr Low again, i m quite unwelcome by e idea of seniors/ grown-ups kanna scolded by Mr Low, how is it possible tt at such a age liao still canno think? Still need instructor to scold? Wah lau.. How do i connect with them? Honestly haf high hopes 4 NHDS, i sincerely wish to come back to sch every now & then, see a very united and enthu bunch of young dancers which participate in their ECAs actively and furthermore, within every bunch can choke up abt 1 or 2 extremely enthu ones to coach in depth so tt they can be active in performing arts or simply dance in their future... Woh... This is really an ideal, i can see how far it is from reality but nvtheless, i know deep down inside i still harbour hopes..
Yup, i mean which graduate (with a rational mind) would wanna come back and juz see NHDS collapse then happy as if he/she struck lottery? There r ppl like tt, but definitely not me lah...
What will NHDS turn into? I seriously dunno but as of today, 2 Oct 2005, i know tt i sincerely dun want it to fall, i still wanna help it... Nv will i wanna see NHDS lose its uniqueness and become a society with many girls and some sissy among them...
May this coming Dance Camp be a exciting one.... =) May NHDS prosper once again with true quality tt can take the dance arena by storm...
I simply wish upon....
End of Entry
Saturday, September 24, 2005
Juz Enjoy What U r Doing, Easy to Say but Hard to carry out (Part1)
Haha, so interesting.. Dian and Qianhui asked me when we were doing our project, who do i think in today's entertainment arena can dance well? Quite interesting so i decided to pen it down..
Cos this qtn by them is linked to my qtn of what is a good dancer mah, thus i found it v interesting to ans this qtn. B4 i answer this qtn, i wish to say: tt after these days so long in dancing, i honestly can feel what Mr Low said tt day during his workshop in PA. He mentioned tt ever since he stepped into the dance arena and realized how big the world is, he doesn't claim anymore tt he knows/ understands DANCE. Well, i seriously understand liao... Cos recently went thru so much i think i fucking wake up my idea liao... Its v sad and it's the harsh truth but it really woke me up, Esp what Jeff Tan said abt Performing Arts, i quote him (word 4 word);
"In this world, it's really the hard truth, regardless whether u haf worked extremely hard or not, when it comes to the FINAL Judgement, there can only be 2 answers; It's either u haf it, or u dun.. It is so harsh, & regardless whether u can accept it or not, it is still the truth."
So in his explaination, actually he meant when it comes to eventual judgement, 3 parties will agree on the same thing, whether the person has the talent/gift/ X-factor (or whatever u call it) or not.. 3 Parties r: The one judging the performance, the one watching the performance (audience), the performer (or the choreographer). All 3 will come to the same conclusion ultimately: The item is good/ bad, no in betweens; no not bad, ok lah, so-so etc. Even the performer(choreographer) himself, if being partial, will oso come to the same conclusion.
So its v sad/ disheartening, cos its in-borne or cultivated, NOT trained. Which means no amt of training can make up. which oso means PASSION isn't enough...
So Honestly, I know i DUN HAF it, and of course i think will nv haf it... Which i think i still decide to carry on dancing cos i think i juz cant let it go... As for achievements wise, i think i can only take things as they come ba... I know i'll nv and i can nv achieve far....
I'll have to just enjoy what i am doing and disregard the achievements thing but i know this isn't going to be easy...
Really hor, Dance is so wide and limitless, i dunno dance at all, in fact, i m still nothing.. which makes me feel v useless... =( With regards to Kpop Arena, Artists like Rain, Se7en are ard my age, yet they r so far ahead in dance liao, i really wonder what i haf been doing so far.... Rain is 1982, Se7en is 1984, i'm 1983, but i m nowhere, & nothing too...
Dance is really borderless, even if u limit urself to the A-sphere or E-sphere, it's still limitless...
Haha, so interesting.. Dian and Qianhui asked me when we were doing our project, who do i think in today's entertainment arena can dance well? Quite interesting so i decided to pen it down..
Cos this qtn by them is linked to my qtn of what is a good dancer mah, thus i found it v interesting to ans this qtn. B4 i answer this qtn, i wish to say: tt after these days so long in dancing, i honestly can feel what Mr Low said tt day during his workshop in PA. He mentioned tt ever since he stepped into the dance arena and realized how big the world is, he doesn't claim anymore tt he knows/ understands DANCE. Well, i seriously understand liao... Cos recently went thru so much i think i fucking wake up my idea liao... Its v sad and it's the harsh truth but it really woke me up, Esp what Jeff Tan said abt Performing Arts, i quote him (word 4 word);
"In this world, it's really the hard truth, regardless whether u haf worked extremely hard or not, when it comes to the FINAL Judgement, there can only be 2 answers; It's either u haf it, or u dun.. It is so harsh, & regardless whether u can accept it or not, it is still the truth."
So in his explaination, actually he meant when it comes to eventual judgement, 3 parties will agree on the same thing, whether the person has the talent/gift/ X-factor (or whatever u call it) or not.. 3 Parties r: The one judging the performance, the one watching the performance (audience), the performer (or the choreographer). All 3 will come to the same conclusion ultimately: The item is good/ bad, no in betweens; no not bad, ok lah, so-so etc. Even the performer(choreographer) himself, if being partial, will oso come to the same conclusion.
So its v sad/ disheartening, cos its in-borne or cultivated, NOT trained. Which means no amt of training can make up. which oso means PASSION isn't enough...
So Honestly, I know i DUN HAF it, and of course i think will nv haf it... Which i think i still decide to carry on dancing cos i think i juz cant let it go... As for achievements wise, i think i can only take things as they come ba... I know i'll nv and i can nv achieve far....
I'll have to just enjoy what i am doing and disregard the achievements thing but i know this isn't going to be easy...
Really hor, Dance is so wide and limitless, i dunno dance at all, in fact, i m still nothing.. which makes me feel v useless... =( With regards to Kpop Arena, Artists like Rain, Se7en are ard my age, yet they r so far ahead in dance liao, i really wonder what i haf been doing so far.... Rain is 1982, Se7en is 1984, i'm 1983, but i m nowhere, & nothing too...
Dance is really borderless, even if u limit urself to the A-sphere or E-sphere, it's still limitless...
End of Part 1
Juz Enjoy what u r doing, Easy to say but Hard to carry out (part 2)
So Qianhui & Dian asked me this qtn, i responded as follows: Well, in my opinion, alot of ppl dance now cos an artist no longer needs to know how to sing but oso need to know how to dance, but dance well ones really v few.. in order not to complcate matters, i shall answer the qtn with regards to Cpop & Kpop arena only lah..
So in Cpop female artistes, my top 3 are: Evonne Xu, Elva Hsiao, Landy Wen
Evonne ranks first becos she can carry all sorts of dance genres off v well... Dian said she thought Evonne only knows Ballet but she is v wrong lor.. In my opinion, she has already obtained the essence of dance, hence she can carry off many genres of dance v well.. I told Dian to take a look at Shi Lian Bu Ba MTV, she will see how Evonne can bring off E-sphere Dances too... Take a look at Da Feng Chui she will see how Evonne can bring off Social Dances such as Waltz... Hence, i rank her 1st.
For Male artist in Cpop, there r alot of good dancers i agree but ranking wise, i only manage to rank out 2 most extraordinary one... Cos i feel that they r worth mentioning..
1st: Aaron Kwok 2nd: Milk (Energy)
Aaron Kwok will always the 1st in my list cos the reason is the same as Evonne.. He carries off all genres of dance v well.. Even martial arts he oso zai, so no disputes lah.. Milk is good but imagine Milk dance Ballet? Cannot right? So tt's y he ranks below Aaron...
There r many good dancers but i personally feel tt they lag behind Aaron & Milk by alot, so i dun bother to rank cos it's madness... But honestly, someone worth mentioning here who is good in Hip-Hop or MTV dances is Alex Toh.
Moving on to Kpop female artists, no need to fight
1st is confirm: BoA 2nd: Lee Hyori
Both these artists are good, but i think Hyori is too westernized (kinda Destiny Child pattern), so will not carry off genres such as Ballet well... BoA a bit more versatile than her...
Kpop Male Artists, sad to say: NO ranking... Cos they all to F***ing zai already, cannot rank ah, it will be madness.... =)
There r juz too many of them... But i would like to mention if Dance Choreography Skills is included, (i.e not juz dance techniques) the outstanding one would be Jang Woo Hyuk.
He is ex-H.O.T member, current JTL member, choreographer of all H.O.T's dances and of course currently of all JTL dances. Equivalent to Milk's role in Energy but honestly his genre does not limit to Hip Hop only, he can choreograph alot more kinds of dances.
Honestly as compared to Rain & Se7en, their genres are only hip-hop, R&B, Woo Hyuk is far much better...
Still, i would like to list out some of the good dancers in Kpop Arena:
(Not in order of merit) Rain, Se7en, JunJin, MinWoo, H.O.T, Black Beat
So yup, Dance world is damn big out there, i haf not included Western Pop artists yet...
Anyway, in this big world, i realize i m nothing....
So Qianhui & Dian asked me this qtn, i responded as follows: Well, in my opinion, alot of ppl dance now cos an artist no longer needs to know how to sing but oso need to know how to dance, but dance well ones really v few.. in order not to complcate matters, i shall answer the qtn with regards to Cpop & Kpop arena only lah..
So in Cpop female artistes, my top 3 are: Evonne Xu, Elva Hsiao, Landy Wen
Evonne ranks first becos she can carry all sorts of dance genres off v well... Dian said she thought Evonne only knows Ballet but she is v wrong lor.. In my opinion, she has already obtained the essence of dance, hence she can carry off many genres of dance v well.. I told Dian to take a look at Shi Lian Bu Ba MTV, she will see how Evonne can bring off E-sphere Dances too... Take a look at Da Feng Chui she will see how Evonne can bring off Social Dances such as Waltz... Hence, i rank her 1st.
For Male artist in Cpop, there r alot of good dancers i agree but ranking wise, i only manage to rank out 2 most extraordinary one... Cos i feel that they r worth mentioning..
1st: Aaron Kwok 2nd: Milk (Energy)
Aaron Kwok will always the 1st in my list cos the reason is the same as Evonne.. He carries off all genres of dance v well.. Even martial arts he oso zai, so no disputes lah.. Milk is good but imagine Milk dance Ballet? Cannot right? So tt's y he ranks below Aaron...
There r many good dancers but i personally feel tt they lag behind Aaron & Milk by alot, so i dun bother to rank cos it's madness... But honestly, someone worth mentioning here who is good in Hip-Hop or MTV dances is Alex Toh.
Moving on to Kpop female artists, no need to fight
1st is confirm: BoA 2nd: Lee Hyori
Both these artists are good, but i think Hyori is too westernized (kinda Destiny Child pattern), so will not carry off genres such as Ballet well... BoA a bit more versatile than her...
Kpop Male Artists, sad to say: NO ranking... Cos they all to F***ing zai already, cannot rank ah, it will be madness.... =)
There r juz too many of them... But i would like to mention if Dance Choreography Skills is included, (i.e not juz dance techniques) the outstanding one would be Jang Woo Hyuk.
He is ex-H.O.T member, current JTL member, choreographer of all H.O.T's dances and of course currently of all JTL dances. Equivalent to Milk's role in Energy but honestly his genre does not limit to Hip Hop only, he can choreograph alot more kinds of dances.
Honestly as compared to Rain & Se7en, their genres are only hip-hop, R&B, Woo Hyuk is far much better...
Still, i would like to list out some of the good dancers in Kpop Arena:
(Not in order of merit) Rain, Se7en, JunJin, MinWoo, H.O.T, Black Beat
So yup, Dance world is damn big out there, i haf not included Western Pop artists yet...
Anyway, in this big world, i realize i m nothing....
End Of Entry
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Hatred, Frustration, Anger
Time is 20 Sep '05
Today mood is damn bad... Dunno how to describe, what to say, how to pen down...
I can feel the Hatred, Frustration, Anger all burning inside me.. Life has make me damn sick recently. All those talk abt cherishing life suddenly dun ring to me anymore, currently now i feel overwhelmed by Hatred, Frustration, Anger...
I haf nothing against life just tt i m very angry NOW... (N/B:It's just a day only lah, hopefully tml things turn out better... This entry is not important lah, just for venting's sake...)
Life is hard, Life is tough, Life is difficult, I dunno what i m doing.... Why is my life like tt?
Wah Lau.......
Time is 20 Sep '05
Today mood is damn bad... Dunno how to describe, what to say, how to pen down...
I can feel the Hatred, Frustration, Anger all burning inside me.. Life has make me damn sick recently. All those talk abt cherishing life suddenly dun ring to me anymore, currently now i feel overwhelmed by Hatred, Frustration, Anger...
I haf nothing against life just tt i m very angry NOW... (N/B:It's just a day only lah, hopefully tml things turn out better... This entry is not important lah, just for venting's sake...)
Life is hard, Life is tough, Life is difficult, I dunno what i m doing.... Why is my life like tt?
Wah Lau.......
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Where should i go from here?
Today is 11 sep '05. I juz came back from DI. i realized things changed so much.. though i see light every now & then, & get depressed over dance issues, but somehow i always pick myself up. Actually i dunno whether in the future i will get over this or not, maybe few days, maybe few months, but i really want to pen this down...
Is it i really should not dance anymore? esp with this new batch of ppl? its not solely NH only lor cos there r still dancers fromother sch, so things r getting out of hand. Since i cant influence ppl with my good intentions, i decide not to care anymore... Is there any other soln? I sincerely pen down these thots of mine: Where should i go from here? How should i carry on from here? Leave? or join some other troupe? i think neither may make me happy (there r several possiblities), nor will staying make me happy too? How?
Cant believe it tt I haf to face such a situation someday. Come to think of it, i haf danced for quite some time, but i dun think its long cos honestly i still wish to continue for as long as i can..
I started out at 13, ever since i graduated from NHSS, i haf danced with many diff ppl, nv haf i faced this kinda of situation whether to carry on or not... A dancer dance until ask himself whether to carry on dancing or not? what is e world coming to?!
When i read this entry in the future, i may understand my current state of mixed-feelings..
A little sad, angry, feel unappreciated, disappointed, plus a kind of 'running out of time' feeling, & lastly a kind of 'praying for surprises' feeling...
I sincerely wish to meet & be with a bunch of super-enthu dancers willing to practise hard & sweat it out everytime, doesn't complain abt bordem n yet continues to create & innovate everytime..
I shall end this entry with this hope of mine....
Today is 11 sep '05. I juz came back from DI. i realized things changed so much.. though i see light every now & then, & get depressed over dance issues, but somehow i always pick myself up. Actually i dunno whether in the future i will get over this or not, maybe few days, maybe few months, but i really want to pen this down...
Is it i really should not dance anymore? esp with this new batch of ppl? its not solely NH only lor cos there r still dancers fromother sch, so things r getting out of hand. Since i cant influence ppl with my good intentions, i decide not to care anymore... Is there any other soln? I sincerely pen down these thots of mine: Where should i go from here? How should i carry on from here? Leave? or join some other troupe? i think neither may make me happy (there r several possiblities), nor will staying make me happy too? How?
Cant believe it tt I haf to face such a situation someday. Come to think of it, i haf danced for quite some time, but i dun think its long cos honestly i still wish to continue for as long as i can..
I started out at 13, ever since i graduated from NHSS, i haf danced with many diff ppl, nv haf i faced this kinda of situation whether to carry on or not... A dancer dance until ask himself whether to carry on dancing or not? what is e world coming to?!
When i read this entry in the future, i may understand my current state of mixed-feelings..
A little sad, angry, feel unappreciated, disappointed, plus a kind of 'running out of time' feeling, & lastly a kind of 'praying for surprises' feeling...
I sincerely wish to meet & be with a bunch of super-enthu dancers willing to practise hard & sweat it out everytime, doesn't complain abt bordem n yet continues to create & innovate everytime..
I shall end this entry with this hope of mine....
End of Entry
Hope
Friday, September 09, 2005
A Glimpse of Hope
Today at home do nothing, quite slack but there is something worth blogging abt.. Seriously i read something on other blogs & i was quite happy (or should i say comforted instead?). I m entering this entry cos i sincerely feel tt they deserve an entry in my 'book of memories' tt i know when in the future i look back & read this entry, i might be rather happy, no guarantees but yah there is a possibility i may be happy...
Well, all along i haf been blooging abt how NHDS has sunk in standard & other aspects etc. Maybe one of the things out there tt dun look so bleak to me may be the youngsters themselves. Yes, the youngsters nowadays cant make it but whenever i spot/ (or rather sense cos i nv contact with them anyway), i feel a glimpse of hope. I sincerely feel all is not lost & if i can influence these youngsters, i would be very happy & as a matter of fact, if they really follow my 'teachings/ philosophies in life', i will even feel more honoured.
I went around reading their blogs today, i realized many dancers are still v interested in dance. Mostly all girls' blogs due to nhds blog, cos their links mostly girls. link to those sec 1 & 2s then their personal blogs oso all girls... so read lots of girls' entries today but yup, quite happy to know tt they r interested in dance. Actually, i dun haf good impression of them cos Cultural Pot '05 was a disaster, so i dun believe them. But since they show interest, i mean maybe i can mould them slowly ba.. Maybe their maturing process in thinking has slowed down, but anyway got interest most impt.
Whether they eventually can make it or not, i cant say 4 sure & like in previous entries, unless 'approached', i shall not intervene anymore cos the age gap too big liao, imagine this yr sec1 is 1992, diff of 9 yrs from me... Wah Kao... But I see a glimpse of hope lah... Yah lah, 4 guys i dun see the light yet but 4 girls okie lah, got hope lah... Now the issue is who go mould them & influence them only.. There is this sec 1 grp called phay, i think they got hope lah, dun learn any bad stuff from their seniors, i think can nuture them ba....
Bottomline, today i quite happy... Seriously everytime i so sian NHDS become so weak, it always nice to let me c a glimpse of hope in the young generation.. It is so interesting & encouraging for me =)... The worrying thing abt NHDS is like wat Zhenyu has mentioned b4, dunno NH will turn into SA or not... Some1 muz go train the boys to become man ah..... Some1 pls.....
But anyway, as long as got hope can liao, the boys dun wanna become man, tt's not gonna be my problem anyway, i can juz sit back & laugh.... =p
Today at home do nothing, quite slack but there is something worth blogging abt.. Seriously i read something on other blogs & i was quite happy (or should i say comforted instead?). I m entering this entry cos i sincerely feel tt they deserve an entry in my 'book of memories' tt i know when in the future i look back & read this entry, i might be rather happy, no guarantees but yah there is a possibility i may be happy...
Well, all along i haf been blooging abt how NHDS has sunk in standard & other aspects etc. Maybe one of the things out there tt dun look so bleak to me may be the youngsters themselves. Yes, the youngsters nowadays cant make it but whenever i spot/ (or rather sense cos i nv contact with them anyway), i feel a glimpse of hope. I sincerely feel all is not lost & if i can influence these youngsters, i would be very happy & as a matter of fact, if they really follow my 'teachings/ philosophies in life', i will even feel more honoured.
I went around reading their blogs today, i realized many dancers are still v interested in dance. Mostly all girls' blogs due to nhds blog, cos their links mostly girls. link to those sec 1 & 2s then their personal blogs oso all girls... so read lots of girls' entries today but yup, quite happy to know tt they r interested in dance. Actually, i dun haf good impression of them cos Cultural Pot '05 was a disaster, so i dun believe them. But since they show interest, i mean maybe i can mould them slowly ba.. Maybe their maturing process in thinking has slowed down, but anyway got interest most impt.
Whether they eventually can make it or not, i cant say 4 sure & like in previous entries, unless 'approached', i shall not intervene anymore cos the age gap too big liao, imagine this yr sec1 is 1992, diff of 9 yrs from me... Wah Kao... But I see a glimpse of hope lah... Yah lah, 4 guys i dun see the light yet but 4 girls okie lah, got hope lah... Now the issue is who go mould them & influence them only.. There is this sec 1 grp called phay, i think they got hope lah, dun learn any bad stuff from their seniors, i think can nuture them ba....
Bottomline, today i quite happy... Seriously everytime i so sian NHDS become so weak, it always nice to let me c a glimpse of hope in the young generation.. It is so interesting & encouraging for me =)... The worrying thing abt NHDS is like wat Zhenyu has mentioned b4, dunno NH will turn into SA or not... Some1 muz go train the boys to become man ah..... Some1 pls.....
But anyway, as long as got hope can liao, the boys dun wanna become man, tt's not gonna be my problem anyway, i can juz sit back & laugh.... =p
End of Entry
Saturday, September 03, 2005
Dark Dayz in Life
Actually wanted to write 'darkest dayz in life' but realized tt i cant do it, cos in the future confirm got even darker days waiting behind.. Since life is a struggle & fighting process, then i think things will get tougher as days goes by.. Which of course makes us 'stronger' in a certain way, adapting to the hardships & challenges..
There is lots of types of hardships in the world today, i can divide them as financial difficulties, relationship problems, self-serving problems, and even many more... In amongst all these, i realize i haf every single one of them... Though i should not complain cos there r always ppl who r more unfortunate than me but there is one very simple question i juz cant simply avoid/ ignore...
Can i survive in this world in the future? By 'survive' i mean everything above; Financially, emotionally, psychologically etc
Frenz who r reading this entry, & yet not my age yet, u can ignore it or think abt it but actually this is the real world.. (This is very controversial, depending on ur own point of view & which stage of life u r in) Yes, every1 views this world differently but my view is not of the extremists & in fact, i m actually looking in an objective point of view.
I dunno whether i can survive or not... Even if i haf a degree, i m facing immense competition.. I doubt i can get Honours Degree judging from my results so far apparently to many others in Acc Faculty, & though i intend to Minor in Chinese, i dunno whether it is of any value or not cos There r ppl taking Double specialisation degrees now in Acc & moreover, there r competitors from SMU as well... Wah, Fuck!! Can i really survive? My degree may be worthless by then.. It is cheaper for an org to hire a Poly grad to do low-level jobs such as book-keeping etc. i.e. if i cant secure a position for a high level job, then most likely low level will be taken by Poly-grads due to lower cost. So it's really an irony; u study so hard, fighting like shit to get a degree but it no longer serves as a guarantee ticket to employment; unlike what my parents told me when i was young. So the feeling of studying in Uni now still makes me insecure; above all, it makes me lose focus & intention. If there isn't any value in the ultimate outcome, can u stay focused? Who says tt degree is a sure tick to employment? & also, my relationship with bro is not close, i can imagine in the future tt aft my parents pass away, me & bro like no longer family.. Tt is rather pathetic. Amongst all these future problems, Lets get back to present; I can no longer enjoy what i like doing most: Dancing
It can no longer be pure as before... Though i really dun wish to attribute blame to others, but i haf to say tt its them who make it like this. It wasn't like this in the past when i used to dance with my seniors. Frenz reading this; Honestly speaking touch ur heart & answer, who now in DI can practise until sweat like hell but still v enthu & dun complain abt fatigue? Pathetically almost none... Ppl now regardless in DI or NHSS dun prac unless pushed by seniors/ Mr Low himself...
NO!!!!! It shouldnt be this way.. It used to be: Ppl prac on their own till damn tired, Mr Low comes in, does simple coordination, minor corrections, then moves on to teach other ppl... He does not need to give special/additional attention to ppl who haf 'grown up'; even more particularly those who haf graduated from sec sch... Everything in DI is auto-run, self-initiated, not afraid to admit mistakes.. Adapt to changes appropriately
The situation now: Included many ppl from sec sch who in my view, claims to be enthu in dance, but in reality, i dun think they deserve to claim 'enthu & passionate'. Take a look at other troupes, u will understand y i made tt remark... Prac so little, complain so much, slack so much & worst, Dun adjust to mistakes... Corrections made were rendered useless eventually... Full-up 3-4 times, the same mistake still exists.. Dunno is dancers stuborn or wat....
In this scenario, pls lah; i wanna dance with a small group of interested ppl oso v difficult.... Tt's why i say i can no longer enjoy fully what i like most... The sad thing is i know i cant force ppl to be passionate abt dance, so how? what can i do? I seriously dunno... Is like i haf to adjust myself to the 'crowd' but i juz cant take it lying down honestly... Esp when i know Mr Low oso wants things to turn for the better...(Cos this means the prob is really not with me, Mr Low oso see the prob is with the dancers) Everytime we talk & i realize he still has not changed, it juz makes me feel so sad tt actually he has already written down his expectations & yet those ppl r still unaware of it, and remain self-conceited...
Why is it dark dayz in life? Cos i dun see any light... I mean i dunno if i can survive in the Future, & i cant fully enjoy every single moment of Present, ain't i juz living aimlessly? Future or present, i oso cant live life to fullest... The reason i m alive is becos i really dun wanna lose out in the fight against life... I will wait till the tide is over, but honestly, i oso f***ing dunno when it will be over... The most interesting part is i haf not start working yet so the darkest part is not even here & yet i m waiting for shine... Haha.... F***ing lame....
I dunno how m i going to go thru this phase in Life... Maybe when i look back, i oso can be amazed if i could survive this.....
Actually wanted to write 'darkest dayz in life' but realized tt i cant do it, cos in the future confirm got even darker days waiting behind.. Since life is a struggle & fighting process, then i think things will get tougher as days goes by.. Which of course makes us 'stronger' in a certain way, adapting to the hardships & challenges..
There is lots of types of hardships in the world today, i can divide them as financial difficulties, relationship problems, self-serving problems, and even many more... In amongst all these, i realize i haf every single one of them... Though i should not complain cos there r always ppl who r more unfortunate than me but there is one very simple question i juz cant simply avoid/ ignore...
Can i survive in this world in the future? By 'survive' i mean everything above; Financially, emotionally, psychologically etc
Frenz who r reading this entry, & yet not my age yet, u can ignore it or think abt it but actually this is the real world.. (This is very controversial, depending on ur own point of view & which stage of life u r in) Yes, every1 views this world differently but my view is not of the extremists & in fact, i m actually looking in an objective point of view.
I dunno whether i can survive or not... Even if i haf a degree, i m facing immense competition.. I doubt i can get Honours Degree judging from my results so far apparently to many others in Acc Faculty, & though i intend to Minor in Chinese, i dunno whether it is of any value or not cos There r ppl taking Double specialisation degrees now in Acc & moreover, there r competitors from SMU as well... Wah, Fuck!! Can i really survive? My degree may be worthless by then.. It is cheaper for an org to hire a Poly grad to do low-level jobs such as book-keeping etc. i.e. if i cant secure a position for a high level job, then most likely low level will be taken by Poly-grads due to lower cost. So it's really an irony; u study so hard, fighting like shit to get a degree but it no longer serves as a guarantee ticket to employment; unlike what my parents told me when i was young. So the feeling of studying in Uni now still makes me insecure; above all, it makes me lose focus & intention. If there isn't any value in the ultimate outcome, can u stay focused? Who says tt degree is a sure tick to employment? & also, my relationship with bro is not close, i can imagine in the future tt aft my parents pass away, me & bro like no longer family.. Tt is rather pathetic. Amongst all these future problems, Lets get back to present; I can no longer enjoy what i like doing most: Dancing
It can no longer be pure as before... Though i really dun wish to attribute blame to others, but i haf to say tt its them who make it like this. It wasn't like this in the past when i used to dance with my seniors. Frenz reading this; Honestly speaking touch ur heart & answer, who now in DI can practise until sweat like hell but still v enthu & dun complain abt fatigue? Pathetically almost none... Ppl now regardless in DI or NHSS dun prac unless pushed by seniors/ Mr Low himself...
NO!!!!! It shouldnt be this way.. It used to be: Ppl prac on their own till damn tired, Mr Low comes in, does simple coordination, minor corrections, then moves on to teach other ppl... He does not need to give special/additional attention to ppl who haf 'grown up'; even more particularly those who haf graduated from sec sch... Everything in DI is auto-run, self-initiated, not afraid to admit mistakes.. Adapt to changes appropriately
The situation now: Included many ppl from sec sch who in my view, claims to be enthu in dance, but in reality, i dun think they deserve to claim 'enthu & passionate'. Take a look at other troupes, u will understand y i made tt remark... Prac so little, complain so much, slack so much & worst, Dun adjust to mistakes... Corrections made were rendered useless eventually... Full-up 3-4 times, the same mistake still exists.. Dunno is dancers stuborn or wat....
In this scenario, pls lah; i wanna dance with a small group of interested ppl oso v difficult.... Tt's why i say i can no longer enjoy fully what i like most... The sad thing is i know i cant force ppl to be passionate abt dance, so how? what can i do? I seriously dunno... Is like i haf to adjust myself to the 'crowd' but i juz cant take it lying down honestly... Esp when i know Mr Low oso wants things to turn for the better...(Cos this means the prob is really not with me, Mr Low oso see the prob is with the dancers) Everytime we talk & i realize he still has not changed, it juz makes me feel so sad tt actually he has already written down his expectations & yet those ppl r still unaware of it, and remain self-conceited...
Why is it dark dayz in life? Cos i dun see any light... I mean i dunno if i can survive in the Future, & i cant fully enjoy every single moment of Present, ain't i juz living aimlessly? Future or present, i oso cant live life to fullest... The reason i m alive is becos i really dun wanna lose out in the fight against life... I will wait till the tide is over, but honestly, i oso f***ing dunno when it will be over... The most interesting part is i haf not start working yet so the darkest part is not even here & yet i m waiting for shine... Haha.... F***ing lame....
I dunno how m i going to go thru this phase in Life... Maybe when i look back, i oso can be amazed if i could survive this.....
End of Entry
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Study Life/ Working Life
Today is 30 Aug '05. I m in Yr 2 Acc, damn busy recently, dun even haf time to sleep.. N sigh, it's really sleep... Last time in NS dun sleep oso can, now cant do it liao, really getting old.. Life is so busy, work is piling up & yet i m slacking... Why m i slacking? Actually if i were analyse myself now using the theory of Heuristics & Biases in Decision Making, i can diagonise y i m slacking...
Cos the work is so hard & comes in Quantity, i cant clear in time.. Once work cant be cleared in time, it affects my confidence level in coping with new chapters, since the old ones haf not been cleared yet, hence the replication goes on and when confidence level drops, the relunctance to do work sets in & again work cant be cleared in time... I den end up in a vicious cycle. Of course all these can be attributed to a form of excuses but actually, i really v tired... As usual, amidst my fatigue, i go back NHDS to chill out but Alas! Recently NHSS no dance, so i sianz diao...
Study Life & Working life r both hard... Amidst my busy life recently, really rather alone... As written in my previous entry, alone is a status while lonely is a feeling... But yuan lai busy working life/ study life leave u with v little time with true frenz... In an attempt to meet up with frenz recently, i realized tt every1 is busy, we dun even get to meet...
Welcome to the adult world... Every1 is busy with routine life, its already considered a luxury to be able to meet up with frenz & chat over a meal... Being in the real world is really tiring.. =(
Today is 30 Aug '05. I m in Yr 2 Acc, damn busy recently, dun even haf time to sleep.. N sigh, it's really sleep... Last time in NS dun sleep oso can, now cant do it liao, really getting old.. Life is so busy, work is piling up & yet i m slacking... Why m i slacking? Actually if i were analyse myself now using the theory of Heuristics & Biases in Decision Making, i can diagonise y i m slacking...
Cos the work is so hard & comes in Quantity, i cant clear in time.. Once work cant be cleared in time, it affects my confidence level in coping with new chapters, since the old ones haf not been cleared yet, hence the replication goes on and when confidence level drops, the relunctance to do work sets in & again work cant be cleared in time... I den end up in a vicious cycle. Of course all these can be attributed to a form of excuses but actually, i really v tired... As usual, amidst my fatigue, i go back NHDS to chill out but Alas! Recently NHSS no dance, so i sianz diao...
Study Life & Working life r both hard... Amidst my busy life recently, really rather alone... As written in my previous entry, alone is a status while lonely is a feeling... But yuan lai busy working life/ study life leave u with v little time with true frenz... In an attempt to meet up with frenz recently, i realized tt every1 is busy, we dun even get to meet...
Welcome to the adult world... Every1 is busy with routine life, its already considered a luxury to be able to meet up with frenz & chat over a meal... Being in the real world is really tiring.. =(
End of Entry
Monday, August 22, 2005
Dance, Performing Arts is My Life?
Time is 2005, my 2nd yr in NTU Acc. Life has been tough recently, other than busy with sch work, Modern Jazz, still got Theatre Practise Rehearsals, which r a killer. Rehearse till 11 pm, reach home no need do work liao... Lagging behind in my studies..
Actually i am seriously very surprised typing this entry. I remember tagging on my own tagboard saying tt: Anyone wanna/ need to put up a perf lately cos i got lots of ideas recently? It's really true, I somehow realized tt subconsciously maybe i cant live w/o dance liao... I oso dunno what happen to me. Actually, it is more of an ECA to me liao, as compared to the past.. I realized recently whenever i am tighted down by work & i get v stressed & frustrated, i end up choreographing dance works. Yes, The reason y i have so many ideas recently, ironically is becos my studies are really too much liao... There is so much work in school, so many readings, so little time, & the ironic thing is tt I managed to choreograph dance works in such a situation? M I mad or what?
The logical/ rational reason i can think of is tt Dance maybe to me, is no longer just an ECA, it is a form of stress relieve for me liao... Maybe put it selfishly, i go back NHDS, even if i dun do anything, I oso feel more at ease & more relaxed - As compared to going home & study/ face the 4 walls. Maybe doing choreography relieves my stress, i oso not sure...
I m juz shocked by myself tt i managed to come up with so many ideas in the past 3 weeks... Some of them belong to E-sphere of dance, some belong to A-sphere. Wah lau, last time think till head crack oso cant get 1 idea, now i haf so many of them... Overflow ah... I shall list them down, next time no ideas liao can come back to refer this entry.. They are: Maksim 2 pieces, H.O.T Outside Castle + I Yah, OP.T + Enter the dragon, Woo Hyuk Do or Die, Rain It's Raining, Black Beat Dangerous, Don't Phunk with my Heart, Ciara Hotline, Multi Shinhwa tracks etc.
Actually i now wish to do lots of dance-related things.. Was honestly quite surprised tt got ppl in this current NHDS interested in dance choreography. Haha, was quite consoling to know tt Juncheng & Wei Hong they all so enthu to participate/ org a workshop for this. Actually this phenomenon muz thank Sam. He org the leadership workshop so successfully, it gave me an idea of going back to NHDS once again to help out. Honestly, i feel tt i know lots of things the students now dunno lah( w.r.t dance) so actually i wish to teach them all i know.. I dont wish to keep all these things i know cos eventually when i leave, there is no continuation, so whats the pt? Knowledge passed on then is useful.. I can actually understand now why old ppl such as my dad is so naggy sometimes & keeps repeating their life stories. Becos there is really so much knowledge in it, as long as I go ask, i can find out lots of interesting things. I find tt i really getting old liao, cos i really got this mentality now, the eager urge to pass on whatever i know, like as if i gonna die tml like tt =p My best ideal is really we got 1 day, can got many many of us Ex-NHDS Dancers go back to NHDS one day during Dance camp, & sit down talk cock.. Imagine got stay overnight in sch, then we grads can sit in Canteen/ wherever & talk till morning.. Go 7-Eleven buy drinks come back oso good... Got car laggy better, drive ard den come back again.. Sigh, Dunno whether this day will come or not... Getting crappy liao...
I think this batch of 1989's quite interesting.. I sincerely feel they unique in their own ways lah, & looking at their immediate juniors, i feel tt they r even better.. I mean, it's true & i m not sacarstic. U put good & poor side by side, Good will appear even Better. It's natural. It would be best if i could groom a whole big bunch of independent students in this batch.
Current Status: Getting Mad as the dayz pass by; Realize what role Dance is playing in my life; realize i getting old; sudden urge to on-pass whatever F*** I know...
Time is 2005, my 2nd yr in NTU Acc. Life has been tough recently, other than busy with sch work, Modern Jazz, still got Theatre Practise Rehearsals, which r a killer. Rehearse till 11 pm, reach home no need do work liao... Lagging behind in my studies..
Actually i am seriously very surprised typing this entry. I remember tagging on my own tagboard saying tt: Anyone wanna/ need to put up a perf lately cos i got lots of ideas recently? It's really true, I somehow realized tt subconsciously maybe i cant live w/o dance liao... I oso dunno what happen to me. Actually, it is more of an ECA to me liao, as compared to the past.. I realized recently whenever i am tighted down by work & i get v stressed & frustrated, i end up choreographing dance works. Yes, The reason y i have so many ideas recently, ironically is becos my studies are really too much liao... There is so much work in school, so many readings, so little time, & the ironic thing is tt I managed to choreograph dance works in such a situation? M I mad or what?
The logical/ rational reason i can think of is tt Dance maybe to me, is no longer just an ECA, it is a form of stress relieve for me liao... Maybe put it selfishly, i go back NHDS, even if i dun do anything, I oso feel more at ease & more relaxed - As compared to going home & study/ face the 4 walls. Maybe doing choreography relieves my stress, i oso not sure...
I m juz shocked by myself tt i managed to come up with so many ideas in the past 3 weeks... Some of them belong to E-sphere of dance, some belong to A-sphere. Wah lau, last time think till head crack oso cant get 1 idea, now i haf so many of them... Overflow ah... I shall list them down, next time no ideas liao can come back to refer this entry.. They are: Maksim 2 pieces, H.O.T Outside Castle + I Yah, OP.T + Enter the dragon, Woo Hyuk Do or Die, Rain It's Raining, Black Beat Dangerous, Don't Phunk with my Heart, Ciara Hotline, Multi Shinhwa tracks etc.
Actually i now wish to do lots of dance-related things.. Was honestly quite surprised tt got ppl in this current NHDS interested in dance choreography. Haha, was quite consoling to know tt Juncheng & Wei Hong they all so enthu to participate/ org a workshop for this. Actually this phenomenon muz thank Sam. He org the leadership workshop so successfully, it gave me an idea of going back to NHDS once again to help out. Honestly, i feel tt i know lots of things the students now dunno lah( w.r.t dance) so actually i wish to teach them all i know.. I dont wish to keep all these things i know cos eventually when i leave, there is no continuation, so whats the pt? Knowledge passed on then is useful.. I can actually understand now why old ppl such as my dad is so naggy sometimes & keeps repeating their life stories. Becos there is really so much knowledge in it, as long as I go ask, i can find out lots of interesting things. I find tt i really getting old liao, cos i really got this mentality now, the eager urge to pass on whatever i know, like as if i gonna die tml like tt =p My best ideal is really we got 1 day, can got many many of us Ex-NHDS Dancers go back to NHDS one day during Dance camp, & sit down talk cock.. Imagine got stay overnight in sch, then we grads can sit in Canteen/ wherever & talk till morning.. Go 7-Eleven buy drinks come back oso good... Got car laggy better, drive ard den come back again.. Sigh, Dunno whether this day will come or not... Getting crappy liao...
I think this batch of 1989's quite interesting.. I sincerely feel they unique in their own ways lah, & looking at their immediate juniors, i feel tt they r even better.. I mean, it's true & i m not sacarstic. U put good & poor side by side, Good will appear even Better. It's natural. It would be best if i could groom a whole big bunch of independent students in this batch.
Current Status: Getting Mad as the dayz pass by; Realize what role Dance is playing in my life; realize i getting old; sudden urge to on-pass whatever F*** I know...
End of Entry
Monday, August 08, 2005
Human Beings today?
Time is 8th Aug '05, 10:30 pm... Actually i dunno at this point of time what i wanna blog... Felt a bit odd cos lots of things happened lately... I really dunno how/ what to express how i feel.. I decided to write essays ba, since essays r my way of letting feelings flow...
This essay below started few days ago, finished it today...
Basically didnt know what to write, it was juz a pure flow of my emotions... When i wrote, i seriously felt a little sad... I really input the 'sad' & 'sorrow' feelings into this essay...
I felt these emotions when i read some1's blog, (N/B: My essay is 100% fictional, dun read in between the lines), i could clearly feel the sadness & sorrow in the entry... Unable to do anything to help at all, i decided to write such an essay... Dunno who will read this essay of mine & i oso dunno how readers will interpret it but I sincerely say tt i dun haf any ill intentions at all...
Realized tt other ppl's entries can also influence my moods actually....
Time is 8th Aug '05, 10:30 pm... Actually i dunno at this point of time what i wanna blog... Felt a bit odd cos lots of things happened lately... I really dunno how/ what to express how i feel.. I decided to write essays ba, since essays r my way of letting feelings flow...
This essay below started few days ago, finished it today...
Basically didnt know what to write, it was juz a pure flow of my emotions... When i wrote, i seriously felt a little sad... I really input the 'sad' & 'sorrow' feelings into this essay...
I felt these emotions when i read some1's blog, (N/B: My essay is 100% fictional, dun read in between the lines), i could clearly feel the sadness & sorrow in the entry... Unable to do anything to help at all, i decided to write such an essay... Dunno who will read this essay of mine & i oso dunno how readers will interpret it but I sincerely say tt i dun haf any ill intentions at all...
Realized tt other ppl's entries can also influence my moods actually....
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(痛、苦、悲、绝)
(一)
她、 一位文静的女子，一头漆黑的头发，一双明亮的眼睛，眼中却流露出愤世嫉俗的眼神。那眼神仿佛替她本人穿上了一层隔膜，企图将她与世隔绝。高佻的身材， 清秀的脸孔，眼神流露出丝丝的恨意，然而恨意之中却搀杂着无限的痛苦。这一切的痛苦即使在恨意的掩饰下也还是无所遁行。沿着手臂可以清楚地看到一道道的伤 痕。这些伤痕显然都是被 刀割的。 每一道伤痕都叙述着一段痛苦的故事,每一道伤痕都充满著深深的悲伤。在命运无情的摧残下，原本纯真，未经世道的她历经了无法想象的痛苦，体验了悲伤失落的 感觉。每当悲伤失落却又毫无依靠时，她便会用刀子在自己原本毫无瑕疵的手臂划上一刀。这一刀并不如何迅速，相反的，非常的慢。她仿佛在清楚地体会“痛”的 感觉，感受着刀锋划过肌肤的那一霎那，让鲜红的血一滴一滴流过雪白的肌肤。这涌流不止的鲜血似乎暗喻了她那永无止境的悲伤与痛。每一滴鲜红的血，都包含了 无限的黯然神伤，无限的苦与痛。然而，即使血在流，她也毫无感觉，只因躯体的痛早已远远不及她心灵上所受的煎熬。
渐渐地，手臂上的伤痕逐 渐增加。饱受煎 熬的她，眼神中的纯真与无邪逐渐褪去。取而代之的是对世间的不平的丝丝恨意。但是，在自残身躯的每一刻，心中的悲痛都没有丝毫减少。 其实，一切的恨意都是掩饰，她内心深处是那么渴望能有一个可以躲避所有风风雨雨的避风港。但是，朋友的承诺无法兑现，情人的誓言落空了，亲人的无私荡然无 存...... 她开始对人类的情感失去信心，身边亦逐渐竖起一层隔膜，将她与世界隔绝。在毫无依靠的情形下，肉体上的痛成了她抒解压力的唯一管道。她失落地祈求肉体上所 承受的痛能减少她内心的寂寞与悲伤。
悲伤的感觉经历岁月的蹉跎，渐渐成了绝望。即使地球仍继续在转，黎明与黄昏不断，黑夜与白昼轮流交 替，她还是停留在自己的世界里，无视于时间的流失。滴 答、滴答、滴答，血仍不停地流着，滴在雪白的长裙上...... 她静静地走在雪地上，对于躯体的疼痛已无任何反应。滴答、滴答、滴答；鲜红的血随即染红了整个雪地。伤痛是否已不再重要？抑或是心中的伤口已无法抚平？即 使在隔膜外，还有人在默默守候着，等待着进入她的世界？
血海般的雪地为这个冬天染上了悲哀、凄凉且黯然的色彩......
情仍存在于世间......
(一)
她、 一位文静的女子，一头漆黑的头发，一双明亮的眼睛，眼中却流露出愤世嫉俗的眼神。那眼神仿佛替她本人穿上了一层隔膜，企图将她与世隔绝。高佻的身材， 清秀的脸孔，眼神流露出丝丝的恨意，然而恨意之中却搀杂着无限的痛苦。这一切的痛苦即使在恨意的掩饰下也还是无所遁行。沿着手臂可以清楚地看到一道道的伤 痕。这些伤痕显然都是被 刀割的。 每一道伤痕都叙述着一段痛苦的故事,每一道伤痕都充满著深深的悲伤。在命运无情的摧残下，原本纯真，未经世道的她历经了无法想象的痛苦，体验了悲伤失落的 感觉。每当悲伤失落却又毫无依靠时，她便会用刀子在自己原本毫无瑕疵的手臂划上一刀。这一刀并不如何迅速，相反的，非常的慢。她仿佛在清楚地体会“痛”的 感觉，感受着刀锋划过肌肤的那一霎那，让鲜红的血一滴一滴流过雪白的肌肤。这涌流不止的鲜血似乎暗喻了她那永无止境的悲伤与痛。每一滴鲜红的血，都包含了 无限的黯然神伤，无限的苦与痛。然而，即使血在流，她也毫无感觉，只因躯体的痛早已远远不及她心灵上所受的煎熬。
渐渐地，手臂上的伤痕逐 渐增加。饱受煎 熬的她，眼神中的纯真与无邪逐渐褪去。取而代之的是对世间的不平的丝丝恨意。但是，在自残身躯的每一刻，心中的悲痛都没有丝毫减少。 其实，一切的恨意都是掩饰，她内心深处是那么渴望能有一个可以躲避所有风风雨雨的避风港。但是，朋友的承诺无法兑现，情人的誓言落空了，亲人的无私荡然无 存...... 她开始对人类的情感失去信心，身边亦逐渐竖起一层隔膜，将她与世界隔绝。在毫无依靠的情形下，肉体上的痛成了她抒解压力的唯一管道。她失落地祈求肉体上所 承受的痛能减少她内心的寂寞与悲伤。
悲伤的感觉经历岁月的蹉跎，渐渐成了绝望。即使地球仍继续在转，黎明与黄昏不断，黑夜与白昼轮流交 替，她还是停留在自己的世界里，无视于时间的流失。滴 答、滴答、滴答，血仍不停地流着，滴在雪白的长裙上...... 她静静地走在雪地上，对于躯体的疼痛已无任何反应。滴答、滴答、滴答；鲜红的血随即染红了整个雪地。伤痛是否已不再重要？抑或是心中的伤口已无法抚平？即 使在隔膜外，还有人在默默守候着，等待着进入她的世界？
血海般的雪地为这个冬天染上了悲哀、凄凉且黯然的色彩......
情仍存在于世间......
Monday, August 01, 2005
A Rather Different Phase in Dance (Part II)
Juz now dunno why juz keep writing abt NHDS, i think is linked becos of the phase i m now in ba...
In my current phase, 2005, with appreciation to Jeff Tan: I haf received teachings from Rudolf Laban, since Jeff graduated from Laban Art of Movement Centre..
As i keep learning, i shall pen down important notes in point form, hopefully i can remind myself now & then... Frenz who by chance read my entries, pls dun Copy & Paste due to Copyrights issue.. Actually i know u ppl wont lah, juz write tt line so tt in case anything happen, at least i gave warning b4 mah... But frenz reading, i welcome u all to discuss these points with me if u all interested... =)
From the above context, i can be aware of NHDS dancers are how far behind in the entire route to autonomy. Mr Low trains students to be self-problem solving, emphasizes on creativity, helping them step by step to be independent. It's a 2-sided affair. Even up till the stage where he demmed students to be fully independent liao, as students, i still think tt we should remain humble & keep on learning.. As Daryl had once said, i quote him; He dislikes ppl who disown their roots & refuses to acknowledge the roots (As if being an ex-NHDS Dancer is a disgraceful thing). I agree tt some NHDS ppl do behave like tt. NH dancers are really still v far behind.. I sincerely hope tt they may be able to adv in leaps & bounds, cos honestly, they r very weak now... I wish to see something with much effort input in this Year's Dance Camp. After this batch of Sec 4s grad, i dunno how things will fall apart...
Frenz, feel free to discuss above points with me.. =)
Juz now dunno why juz keep writing abt NHDS, i think is linked becos of the phase i m now in ba...
In my current phase, 2005, with appreciation to Jeff Tan: I haf received teachings from Rudolf Laban, since Jeff graduated from Laban Art of Movement Centre..
As i keep learning, i shall pen down important notes in point form, hopefully i can remind myself now & then... Frenz who by chance read my entries, pls dun Copy & Paste due to Copyrights issue.. Actually i know u ppl wont lah, juz write tt line so tt in case anything happen, at least i gave warning b4 mah... But frenz reading, i welcome u all to discuss these points with me if u all interested... =)
- Dance is a 3-stranded subject, namely performing, making, and apreciating dance. N effective work in any one area is dependent on the other two. Experiencing dance can be thru practical doing but these has its shortcomings. They r: the lack of link with dance as a theatre art, excessive concentration on personal development, no acquisition of skills on how to appreciate/ appraise Dance works.
- Focus on Creativity or Technical Skills? 60-40? 50-50? 30-70? No model ans.
- In educating dancers, five aims should be achieved as much as possible. Sensitivity to quality, acquisition of skill & confidence, acquaintance with the creative process as an exp of dance choreography, knowledge of and accuracy in spatial environment, last but not least, enjoyment of dance works.
From the above context, i can be aware of NHDS dancers are how far behind in the entire route to autonomy. Mr Low trains students to be self-problem solving, emphasizes on creativity, helping them step by step to be independent. It's a 2-sided affair. Even up till the stage where he demmed students to be fully independent liao, as students, i still think tt we should remain humble & keep on learning.. As Daryl had once said, i quote him; He dislikes ppl who disown their roots & refuses to acknowledge the roots (As if being an ex-NHDS Dancer is a disgraceful thing). I agree tt some NHDS ppl do behave like tt. NH dancers are really still v far behind.. I sincerely hope tt they may be able to adv in leaps & bounds, cos honestly, they r very weak now... I wish to see something with much effort input in this Year's Dance Camp. After this batch of Sec 4s grad, i dunno how things will fall apart...
Frenz, feel free to discuss above points with me.. =)
End of Entry
A Rather Different Phase in Dance (Part I)
Time is 2005, i haf entered into another world from 05 onwards, as stated in previous entries, Zhongyi u would haf realized tt u haf now been alone taking this path... U haf been rather tired/ sick/ disappointed to look at NHDS as its future outlook is rather bleak... Dunno how things will turn out, seriously oso dunno how i myself can help them... Brainwashing & influencing is possible but it really is time-consuming & requires lots of energy to do it.. Supervision in their progress (whether maturity/ techniques/ upholding traditions etc) is extremely tiring & practically impossible for me to carry out... i where got time to go look at them & supervise? 1 week i think i can only go back 1 day now lor..
Honestly, i shall pen down my feelings tonight, though i may haf written in past entries.. I dunno, i forgot... NHDS: A place i grew up, increased in confidence level, leadership skills, learnt e importance of teamwork, enjoyed the fruits of labour, knew many wonderful friends, some of which haf left my social circle ever since we graduated, but the memories were really fine.. Though they did not enthu dance like me, they still did their job... I mean, yah it was still a job, they were being responsible & professional... Friends, u all were great...
But now the NHDS: Intro politics, dun respect seniors/ authority (i mean u dun like chairman or whoever, still give face lah, dun need to openly defy one mah..), think so fully of themselves, erosion of traditions & practices & worst: dunno how BIG is the world outside... I mean nothing can be worst if u dunno how BIG the world is... Gonna suffer if next time exposed to the outside world.. Eg. If u know ur weaknesses, at least can try to cover during auditions so tt u dun show it out.. If u know ur strengths, u can try to impress the instructor holding e audition by emphazing on ur strengths...
Realy v sad to c the place where i haf grown up turned into lidat... Really sad, more so when i know i cannot do anything to salvage the situation.. Sad/ Disappointed...
Time is 2005, i haf entered into another world from 05 onwards, as stated in previous entries, Zhongyi u would haf realized tt u haf now been alone taking this path... U haf been rather tired/ sick/ disappointed to look at NHDS as its future outlook is rather bleak... Dunno how things will turn out, seriously oso dunno how i myself can help them... Brainwashing & influencing is possible but it really is time-consuming & requires lots of energy to do it.. Supervision in their progress (whether maturity/ techniques/ upholding traditions etc) is extremely tiring & practically impossible for me to carry out... i where got time to go look at them & supervise? 1 week i think i can only go back 1 day now lor..
Honestly, i shall pen down my feelings tonight, though i may haf written in past entries.. I dunno, i forgot... NHDS: A place i grew up, increased in confidence level, leadership skills, learnt e importance of teamwork, enjoyed the fruits of labour, knew many wonderful friends, some of which haf left my social circle ever since we graduated, but the memories were really fine.. Though they did not enthu dance like me, they still did their job... I mean, yah it was still a job, they were being responsible & professional... Friends, u all were great...
But now the NHDS: Intro politics, dun respect seniors/ authority (i mean u dun like chairman or whoever, still give face lah, dun need to openly defy one mah..), think so fully of themselves, erosion of traditions & practices & worst: dunno how BIG is the world outside... I mean nothing can be worst if u dunno how BIG the world is... Gonna suffer if next time exposed to the outside world.. Eg. If u know ur weaknesses, at least can try to cover during auditions so tt u dun show it out.. If u know ur strengths, u can try to impress the instructor holding e audition by emphazing on ur strengths...
Realy v sad to c the place where i haf grown up turned into lidat... Really sad, more so when i know i cannot do anything to salvage the situation.. Sad/ Disappointed...
End of Part I
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