SOMETHING I WISH TO REMIND MYSELF ABT.....
〈最美丽的第七天〉

Time is 17 Aug 2011. Life is passing me by, time is not giving me any breathing space. I can feel memories failing me, health giving me way, body breaking apart....

Just wish to pen down something here which I think brought me some sweet memories... =)
Rembr watching this drama serial years ago, n somehow I remember tt the story touched me alot. Whats worth mentioning is tt this storyline resembles the works of 几米, the novelist/ artist that draws v interesting storylines. 〈向左走，向右走〉，〈你们我们他们〉are some of his renowned works that are turned into films/ drama。

Leave some clips here for future remembrance.... This story nv fails to remind me how Sweet it is to fall in Love with some1 who Loves u as well... =)

U.N.I 2011 - Choreography evaluation & Self-Reflection (PART II)

Now let's move on to PartII. Internal evaluation of the whole exp in U.N.I.
Honestly, wat m i doing all these for? Yes, i know e ans but then e issue is here. Who's there to receive wat I wish to give out? Sometimes its just 吃力不讨好.

Your Wedding is an item to my liking. But with it, it also brought abt some issues. Duh, =.= whats new? Which performing item didnt give me issue anw? Now I really gotta re-emphasize again, How much I really 敬佩 Lao Shi.

Its easy for certain ppl to come up with items n just talk cock all the while, n leech into ppl's productions. But honestly, having done AHA since 2007 till now n U.N.I 2011, I learnt tt having a BLAST in a concert ain't the most successful story. The MOST DIFF thing is CONTINUITY & SUSTAINABILITY. Link this to Soccer. Chelsea had some good seasons, but the one tt really sustained is Man U. N in this aspect, Im like Mgr of Arsenal, I always look out for unpolished diamonds, try to bring them in n groom them, but honestly I may not (may only, not definitely not) match up to those ppl who bring in established dancers into their items. Im happy with what Im doing, I like seeing ppl grown & improve. Tt's really a purpose in Life n more meaning in the item rather than just *COUGHING up an item to present.

Mr Low, my Lao Shi has sustained his SYF awards for the past 20 yrs n its how he managed to groom the students. Many students of the established schs may be MUCH better than his students, but truth be told, most of them gave up dancing later part of their life / they just cluster into a small cluster.

IMO, If u r a chef, n u r given v v v good ingredients to start with, it doesn't deserve as much applause as e chef who is given medicore ingredients yet able to whip up a dish tt's as good as yours.

At the end of the day, Its the CONTINUITY & SUSTAINABILITY tt really determines. Its a reminder to me, nv be contented with just a BLAST in 1 concert, showing tt I can sustain in the LR is definitely more impt. 虚怀若谷


I didnt comment on my own Choreo for the whole of this post is becos, I dun really know how to start. I dun really know HOW well I could haf re-coooked the dish to make it better given the ingredients I haf. I believed in terms of optimising the ingredients, Lao Shi would have done a better job than me.

Now the qtn lies: Did my Dancers LEARN things from me? Did they improve? Similarly to as a Choreographer, my work is subjected to the comments / decision by audience, My role as an Instructor is also subjected to the decision by my dancers, only they will know whether they learnt anything or not.... Im not in e position to comment....

At the end of this item, instead of the usual critiques, I only wish to thank my dancers/ Actors; its becos of u all, tt's y I cld stage this item... To me, being able to stage this item is then the most impt fruit I have reaped in this whole exp. THANK U V MUCH, MICHELLE TAN. Girl, your acceptance of the role as Female lead really meant alot to me (otherwise I wld haf to re-choreo everything with an imaginery fig).... So did the Ring.... =)

Your Wedding 你的婚礼
Dedicated to you...
On your Wedding Day...
You moved on, and I'm still Waiting...

Ever wonder what it feels like when u have to attend a wedding as the best man n even play the Wedding March for e couple when the one getting married is e Love of ur Life?

See you in your Wedding Dress......

U.N.I 2011 - Choreography evaluation & Self-Reflection (PART I)

Time is June 2011. I ended the journey with U.N.I 2011, choreo-ed a piece tt I really wanted to express. Your Wedding, 你的婚礼. The synopsis is as follows: Dedicated to you... On your Wedding day... You moved on, and I'm still Waiting....

This Choreo experience with this new batch of students didnt turn out as wat i expected. Some things were missing n of cos I was faced with disappointment. But wat can i do? I know e concert is not their priority, but yet sch performances is. So its quite a bit diaozz.... =( Outside events shld be more fun than sch perf? I rembr when I was a student, It was so fun doing outside perf, cos back then it meant ----> U were good enough to be presented OUTSIDE, n not just in SCH to (ur frenz) a Safe & Comfortable audience.

Anw, Your Wedding, this item consisted of an acting segment with Sam & Michelle, a Lyrical Contem (The Face), a Solo part (Without You - X Japan), an acting segment Sam & Michelle, wrapped up with a Lyrical Hip Hop (Wedding Dress). Thats the full structure of my piece in U.N.I 2011.
(Performers: Sam, Michelle, Vanessa, Siqi, Misa, Yoke Kay, Si Ning, Sin Zhi, Eugene, Xuan Hao, Myself)

Choreo-wise, this was the 1st time I presented something I wanted. Perhaps in terms of dance steps, I simplified a little due to the customization for e dancers, but in terms of idea, it was exactly what I wanna do. So this time rd, I shall not comment on my own Choreo. Instead, I will drop some comments tt r given to me by Audience.

(N/B: There r always 2 schs of thots.
1) Jeff Chen once taught me: 你做你自己要做的东西，不要管观众的意见。观众是今天会把你捧上天，明天会把你摔下来的.
2) Last yr when Cloud Gate Dance Theatre was in SG, During the post-perf talk, 云门舞集 - 林怀民 said of their item: Wind Shadows is a new work, n he himself as e Artistic Director cld not know wat Audience's response is as this work Defers from the usual works of Cloud Gate. He said: U r the Audience, U be the judge & decide whether we did a good job or not. If its not, It means we Failed for this proj.)

This means even Cloud Gate is v mindful of the audience's comments, & accepts e audience's response when tt they r demned to haf failed. As for Jeff's idealogy, he disregards what the audience thinks at all, even if audienceship is cui, he oso bo chap... These r the 2 schs of thots.

COMMENTS / REACTIONS
1) Night 1 : So sad.... =p (This audience commented at my ending when I dropped the ring & Michelle walked away in darkness, I felt so happy, knowing tt they think its sad.... Haha)
2) Night 2: OMG! Your item is so Tragic...
3) The WD routine is damn hard leh...
4) Wah the WD routine how to do one? Tt part, the hands hands one (refering to e precision part) So fast?
5) When WD music came on, Audience started to talk among themselves n anticipated e MTV dance. (Nv did they expect a faster / more complicated dance.. =p)
6) Crazy dance, squeezed so many things in 2 min, (quoted by a fellow dancer) =)
7) Ur dance item itself is worth the Ticket px liao
8) Can see that ur item dancers r more Disciplined n professional
9) Ur item & 童趣 r the only items that is understandable
10) 'The WD choreo was the best choreo she ever saw....' =)
11) U chose the correct Female Lead, she's so pretty..... So pretty that my dance steps not impt liao.... -.- Hahahaah
12) Ur Female lead is so Pretty, u chose the Correct Person, It beautifies the entire storyline...
13) Congrats on last night's wonderful performance. Could see Liu Lao Shi's shadow in many of the students' choreography. Yours dont really see any, rather original
14) The WD dance Beats were COOL... (IKR, otherwise why wld i choose tt song? LOL)
15) Hey, didnt know tt U can choreo Modern Dance piece, thot u Hip hop all along... -.- IKR
16) Impressive dance, Very COOL.....

How come Audiences always like to use the Word - COOL ??

Harsher Comments/ Learning pts:
1) Ur item a little shallow, v much in the face to tell the audience.
2) Ur item a little empty, could fill in more movement language, no ups & downs (not enough) in the whole emotional ride.
3) Candles can be put to better usage

U.N.I 2011 - Production evaluation

Time is June 2011. U.N.I 2011 has just ended on 10 & 12 Jun 2011 at PA Black Box Studio, with a total audienceship of 240 pax, rather close to my estimation. With a total working crew (includ dancers) of abt 50 pax, i wonder if the production can be considered a success.

The interesting issue here is, Ever since I was "unplugged" by Jeff Chen back in 2004/05, I nv go to Sch productions anymore. On 30 May, I decided to go for 1 with Vanessa n it was an interesting night for us. Both of us agreed that "Heng ah, Lucky we came to watch a production tt is so near our own date of perf, so tt we can really experience e grd n abosrb alot alot more learning points w/o banging the wall....". =p

So, based on the audienceship of say 1000 pax, a working committe crew of 40 pax, plus 3 CCAs worth of dancers, I sincerely wonder which Project yielded a better return in terms of working capital investment. Comparing both projects, which one wld haf given a better yield?

It wld deinitely been better for DI to stage 3 shows instead of 2. If it staged all the way from Fri-Sun, I believed this proj wld be a better yield in terms of working capital return.

This Journey was definitely a tiring one. I pushed for it to go thru, w/o the cooperation of many; There r some leeches always hindering e progress of e project. Somehow, these ppl really dun understand. They behave like leech n just wanna hop on the bandwidth of the project n yet nv contribute. =( Sianz...

Im personally a little glad tt this proj pulled thru n I think there r some success points in this whole proj.
1) We injected new energy into the Space in Obox. Previously no one wld take it as a performing space, but we r now the precedent who energized the space.
2) We knew our limits, strengths, weaknesses; We targeted a reasonable amt of audience of the correct audience grp
3) We re-introduced the Idea of U.N.I to the new batch of young ppl. Hopefully it will spark off more proj & interests in e future
4) We completed the proj Fast & Furious (within 4 mths), w/o all the procrastination

Well, Wat im really displeased abt this proj wld be the audienceship honestly. Ideally, I would hope in future, we can charge up a total audienceship of 450-500 pax over 3 shows.

As for the unhappy parts during this proj in DI, I guess it cant really be changed since the working culture there is lidat n there's ppl always there to disrupt the working process flow, guess I can only face it n yet complain abt it every single proj lor. Perhaps till the leeches disappear ba... Shan't chock up this entry with more unhappy stuff...

Next up; U.N.I 2011 - Choreography evaluation =)

The Woman behind the Successful Man

I believe this quote is not new to anyone. I happened to watch an episode of <<美人心计>>
on SCV n I found it v interesting. I went to Wiki to read up on the show since I dun haf time to sit in front of the TV. Its basically revolves ard the empress of Han Wen Di, the emperor in Eastern Han Dynasty.

As usual, this show revolves n exihibits the difficulties a woman faces esp when she has to juggle family, career, status, power struggle, love etc. Its quite informative n gives a number of diff perspectives. However, what caught my attention was the lyrics of the ending theme song <<椒房殿>>. Quite interesting that the song is named as such. Cos actually 椒房殿 is the name of the Empress Palace in Han Dynasty. Wherever the empress stays, her palace will be named as such. Thus, this song actually has a hint of the power struggles n e route towards being an empress.
It also shows tt every concubine wants to become empress so tt they can Move into tt particular palace.

The lyrics of the song is super nice. Pls refer to them below. =)
最初的那一眼 最缠绵
擦肩而过的 岂止是誓言
温柔地贴烫着 我的脸
忘记了所有 的时间

昨夜的梦里面 太缱绻
黄花飘落的 岂止是衣边
纠缠在一起 不想成仙
最爱的人 不在身边

椒房殿 长门怨 落花吹满天
寂寞的春蚕 苦作茧
岁岁又年年 太眷恋太疯颠
扯不断的线 残破的书记不下一个个红颜

Anyhow ARTS 2010 (Part 2)

Thoughts on AHA overall in the past 5 yrs. I participated in the past 4 yrs n made an impact on some students, made some grew, some left, some still stagnant. Which exact yr was the 1 i enjoyed most?? Well, i sincerely dunno, n i dun even know how to rank them. Of cos i shldnt in e 1st place. Lets just recap my happy moments. =)

2007 - A relatively simple item but it was hassle free, the dancers Jun Cheng & Joanne were totally independent n can master what was given to them =)
Stress lvl - Zero. Disappointment lvl - Zero. Enjoyment lvl - High

2008 - A nice item n glad tt the students improved so much, literally to another level =)
Stress lvl - Close to Zero. Disappointment lvl - Zero. Enjoyment lvl - High

2009 - A nice item n get to work with wonderful ppl who practise v hard. V happy tt Joanne & Yiyang improved so much during this item, perhaps cos they 1st time working with me, so like wat he said earlier, the Gap super big. The Gap for Vanessa & Vivian not so big in this yr liao.
Stress lvl - High. Disappointment lvl - Ok. Enjoyment lvl - High

2010 - A new challenge to work with TOTALLY new additions to the team, which made me doubt my 眼光. Really gotta look more carefully next time. Overall Happy cos Si Qi joined e team, 1st time working with her, a v pleasant experience. Happy becos Siqi & Vanessa tried out e piano precision part; allowed me to play e choreography for e 1st time with such music. (Didnt dare to try out this type of things at all with previous yrs' cast) Unhappy cos some Dancers left, n becos the remaining dancers mostly remained at the same lvl, didnt improve.

Stress lvl - High till I give up, just told them to enjoy themselves, didnt dare to put expectations.
Disappointment lvl - Similar as above.
Enjoyment lvl - Low (So Low tt I didnt come out for Curtain call, only enjoyed during post-concert Supper time, Diaozz......)


SO Honestly, I dunno did i succeed as an instructor in grooming new talent? As a choreographer I definitely learnt alot more n learnt much much more how to work with students. But tt is my personal development, in terms of helping Dance Inspiration, I dunno did i make any results at all... Sigh... It's over anw, so I shall move on... Look forward to the next DI production. =)

CHEERS TO ALL MY MEMORIES OF AHA!!!!!!

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Anyhow ARTS 2010 (Part 1)

Time is 21 Dec 2010. I have come to the end of Anyhow Arts, a performing platform tt lasted for 5 yrs since 2006. Which makes me feel sad that this fun platform is no longer available aft tis year.

Honestly, If i haf to point fingers at some ppl, it would be those ppl in DI. Its really becos this yr, the lack of participants & audience tt resulted in this eventual result. If the audience turnout was good, i.e. at least match up to Last yr's, things wouldnt be so the same. Its the disappointment tt made him call it quits..... =( The kids there just dunno what they r missing out.... Ppl put in their own time & $$ to create a concert platform for u, n u cant even get ur frenz to come support as audience? Its so lukewarm n u all still act like u did ur best?? U sure tt's e best u can do?

Enough of all these rubbish liao, I guess me & him are really disappointed this time rd....

Lets just do a recap of my past yrs' works: 2006 - n.a., 2007 - The Awaken Life 后知后觉的生命, 2008 - No More Rubbish 不再垃圾, 2009 - Love like Dust 情似飞灰, 2010 - Tattoo 刺青

Out of all these, I guessed I failed much as a choreographer / instructor over the years. Perhaps I did improve but as the saying goes: 赢少算输. I guess this is the 1st time I critique my own items online tt can be accessed by public? I think I shall list down the learning points for me to recap years later when i look back...

2007 - Shld be e best item in terms of choreography & concept due to the site specific performance I decided to use. Good use of site, rather innovative, not draggy, can play to the strengths of the performers; Jun Cheng & Joanna. Suits the whole AHA artistic direction n is easy for audience to interpret =) Choreography: Pass, Instructor: Pass

2008 - Well done in terms of training as instructor, cos use of Big & Simple yet Fast Movements, trained the performers in terms of musicality, strength, agility & stamina. Choreography not good, Item concept is incomplete, the Mario music failed to garner interests from audience, although fellow dancers (Weiyang) did notice its Mario music n said tt it was good. Michelle Tan said tt she liked the item but i wonder issit just 朋友捧场的话. Overall still suit the whole AHA artistic direction. Choreography: Fail, Instructor: Pass

2009 - Item concept is incomplete, not v funny even with use of 甜蜜蜜. Audience interaction failed to break the 4th wall. 1st time trying Lyrical with the performers, failed in training them to absorb techniques of Milking (Hard / Soft dynamics). Music editing was good due to Bleeding Love remix part, ppl like Joanne, Yiyang improved in terms of musicality. Judging from dancers' performance, their skill ability didnt improve as much as '08. In terms of Instructing, I paled in comparison to '08. Overall Dun suit AHA artistic direction.
Choreography: Fail, Instructor: Fail, Music Editing: Pass

2010 - Item concept is Very Complete. Good work in breaking the 4th Wall with audience. Similarly, failed in training dancers to absorb Milking. Super Fail in training them to do Floorwork, jumps / turns. Music editing was not as good as '09. Dancers didnt improve as a well-prepared dancer, still needa spoonfeed. Musicality did not improve at all, cos e challenging part on piano only 2 pax dance. Dancers' feel & touch to the music didnt improve, still at the dance steps level. Overall, Dancers didnt improve as compared to their earlier selves. Suits the AHA 2010 artisitc direction due to the fun element
Choreography: Pass, Instructor: SUPER Fail TTM, Music Editing: Fail

Ok, tt's all, move on to next entry....

2010 Thoughts (Pre-Chingay, Pre-AHA)



Time is 22 Nov 2010. This year has been a turmoil year, think it will go even more so next year. When was the last time I ever smiled or had a happy day? Think these days wont come anytime soon. Life is going rough n i guess I have to bide my time....



Much has happened in the past yr & in summary, I kinda suck at it... haiz.... =(



Just some thots on the "DANCE Life" i have. Recently things werent smooth for the troupe and for the events DI is involved in. So in summary, Its hard to maintain a troupe. So wat can really be done is a real headache. But having watched a number of performances this yr by diff arts groups in SG, I realized a few things. (Though I already did, but let's pen it down this time).



Apparently, or Actually, Many of the ppl in SG, they simply wish to work with willing parties. I believe many of the Directors / Choreographers, will haf an ideal team which they wanna work with. But end of the day, I believe they will rather work with some1 less capable but More Willing than some1 who is more capable but less Willing & less Commited.



Sometimes I wonder why DI is always the troupe tt ends up in a half-past-six manner? Is it cos Lao Shi is too nice? Or issit becos Its too easy to join this troupe? There r no barriers to entry?

Next, talking abt LIFE itself, my life is in a mess n im still swimming, haven reach any shore yet... Dunno what lies ahead, n haf to hang on by myself w/o any support, n storms & waves will keep coming at ME from time to time. Tt's the painful thing. All those comparisons nv fail to kill me once in a while..... =(

Im Dumbfounded for this entry, let it end here....

ENDLESS PAIN

Learning & Enhancing all the way

Well, time is 14 Oct 2010, which is sometime since I stepped on the new journey... Think things are really going tough for me and All i can really really say is: Thank you to both of u for being supportive n didnt give me a dressing down though i know u all aren't really feeling good abt this.

But I guess fate & destiny plays a part? I will work hard and push on and ensure that I can answer back to you both.... Well, i guess at the end of the day, its also the lifestyle im looking at? So if tt's the case, I reall cant blame any1 when i step into my own future.... I guess I will really haf to walk this alone into the Wild, into the Unknown.......


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Have the drive & determination, But can tt suffice??

Im such an idiot....

WITH THANKS TO ALL I HAVE

Time is 10 Aug 2010, life is hard. I just caught the movie - Street Dance. Well, after so long / so much of hardship in my life so far, I hereby Thank every1 and every single Almighty being up there for all the gifts I have so far in my life. I know my life is damn hard, But I sincerely thank for what I haf.

Till date, I have a bunch of friends, a bunch of dance mates, v good Dance teachers/Mentors who gave me opportunities, taught me lots, guidance and alot alot alot more... Last but not least, thank you to this pair of Parents who though dislike what Im doing now, but Thank you for NOT stopping me... Regardless of what happens in the future, I vow that I will Nv nv nv nv ever blame u both. I understand tt its your Love & Heartache for me that resulted in this, I am really grateful and thankful for it. Thank you for being so tolerant even though u both really dislike it alot deep down in ur heart.

I would like to apologise for making u both disappointed and Im really kinda sorry tt u both haf raised such CMI sons. I sincerely hope to make u both proud someday, whereby u both can in the eyes of the Society, finally manage to "be proud" of your son, i.e. ME.

Having watched Street Dance today has made me once again be thankful for what i currently can enjoy / have. Thank u Lao Shi for giving me so much guidance and opportunities in Dance. Thank you for doing so much such that we dont even have to worry abt issues such as rehearsal space.

Life is abt hardship and I sincerely dunno why I am heading towards now, But haiz...... Still thank every1 who has appeared in my life and made a difference. Thanks lots =)

Half-Alive, Half Dead

DANCE CLASS - DANCE FLOW

Time is 6-Jun-2010, ytd was the 1st lesson with an extended class. Many came to join in the fun. Its really great to see many ppl interested in dancing and honing their skills. Something worth mentioning last night was tt I recorded down e dance steps for Last Night for documentation purposes. I did e routine with Vanessa, took a look at e video, was really Happy how much she grew over the years.
The level of satisfaction I think no one can understand except those being dance teachers. =)
Can really see her improvements and tt she starting to shine & glow n is independent liao. There is e level of assurance I can get where I know IF i work with her in the future, I can dun need worry abt her, she can definitely master e steps to a certain satisfaction level for performance.

Actually to my honest feelings, other than Vanessa, Vivian is the other person whom I would like to see her glow & shine de. Unfortuantely, she wont be joining in the lessons so its really a pity. I cant deny the fact tt I have a lost feeling tt a team will haf 1 less dancer, but since there's nothing I can do abt it, I can only keep on searching for new unpolished diamonds from other sch and start the process of polishing them all over again. I do hope by EOY or Mar-2011, I will be able to form a Cast tt is capable of handling a choreography which even I will find challenging myself de.... =)

As at what I haf at hand today, I can only hope tt more ppl in e class will improve to e level of Vanessa for my item to be staged.
My probable list of shortlisted cast as at now stays at: Alyssa, Pei Xuan, Yueli, Yiyang, Joanne, Jinghui, Celia, Vanessa, Xinyu.
For Modern dance, hopefully these ppl can make e list by EOY: Vivian, Lina, Joey, Siqi, Xuezhen.

Honestly, it wont be easy to stage e item if I cant find the correct ppl.
千里马固然需要伯乐, 但是伯乐何尝不想遇到千里马?

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重新出发

Time is 6 Jun 2010, things haf changed alot during the past 3 months. Im re-looking at the route I will take once again in my life. Things look unstable and I m fighting on in life. Just wanna jot down those few things in my life that happened over the past 3 months.

1) Choreographer with Lao Shi @ Resort World Sentosa for Voyage De La Vie
Feel v honoured to be part of this world-class production where I get the chance to direct and work with International stars from the world including acrobats from Cirque du Soleil. This has been the highest level of honour so far in my life that I get to choreograph/ direct artists. Alot of thanks to Lao Shi who gave me this opportunity.

2) Fok Kah Hon's wedding
My 1st time being a Brother for friend's wedding. Fun experience and got to meet up with lots of sec sch days. Well, this has been an electrifying experience. Why? Cos I managed to know how every1 is getting along in their life and really, every1 is going on with the "Routine" life. No offence to the "Routine" life but its really "duh!!!!"... This particular circle of frenz now weekends stay home sleep, even if go out, oso dun stay out late cos of Midnight cab charges etc. So Im like, wah sian, go out oso early go home sleep, the vibe is not there... =(

Sometimes though I wonder is it I too immature, tt's y keep on hanging ard young kids, like I CMI, but actually to be honest with my feelings, its really more fun to be hanging out with these young ppl. I sincerely would love to hang out with ppl of my age since e conversation topics r less kiddish, but there r no such available "frenz" who still lead this kind of life. Once caught in the routine life, its damn sian.... KH's wedding has given me another insight to how I want my life to be.... Its really v scary to know tt One's life will be changed like tt....

Some thoughts to be recorded in Memory

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男歌女唱 女歌男唱

Recently ever since Yang Zong Wei sang the male version of Xin Bu Liao Qing, this phenomenon has been ongoing. I kinda like this trend cos a different interpretation by the opposite sex will always bring a Different feel.

I hereby bring 2 MVs today, same song, diff version for passer-by of my blog.

Do feel free to comment. I personally prefer the female version.

Life recollection - 1

Time is March 2010. Recently haf been taking a break and haf some more free time on my hand.
Its really interesting tt I haf been going ard seeing all these things. Kinda lost / unknown in life now but then again, enjoying every single day and moment where I still can breathe the fresh air.

Watching the dancers ard learning how to dance, I once again acknowledge that coaching dance is really a fun & meaningful thing to do. =)

On a side note, last night met up with the clique again. Haha long time nv see every1 together at the same time le. Zhenyu, Zhiyan, Sam, Chee Hao, Daryl, Michelle, Celia, Vivian. Wei Hong, Kai wei and me joined them later. Was really in a surprised mode. Noted that the clique is really interesting. Standing from far away and while walking towards them, can really segment into a few categories: Poly/ JC students, Uni students, Dance instructors, Tai Tai.
Haha i sincerely noted 1 person who stands out among our whole clique. In terms of dress code (living standards / style), it was really outstanding amongst the rest. Haha, guess tt is wat i term as Difference in Class ba.... Really simialr to ancient times where peasants, scholars, aristocrats etc were divided....

From last night, it hit upon me that perhaps coming this May when I once again meet up with 4E2 NHSS students, I most probably will be the odd one out. Tt will be such a diff class where I most probably will see every1 as the "Corporate Class" and I am the "Free & Easy Class"... I guess living standards can also be segmented in this coming May's gathering ba.
Haha, every1 at the gathering will be at that "particular stage of life", but not me.... I will be perhaps just faraway....

Takes the hard knock again, Haiz....

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Rounds of training

Time is March 2010. Unknowingly, AHA has passed by for 4 years running. For 2010, if it will still be held, it will be the 5th year. Time has passed, I have been at it for 3 years? 1 with Juncheng & Joanna, 2nd with Xinyu, Van, Vivian, Ivy & CCHY dancers. 3rd with Yiyang, Joanne, Pei Xuan, Yueli, Alyssa, Celia, Van, Vivian, Yisong.

This year feel like coming back performance hence i started a training prog early for the ppl so tt eventually hopefully i will haf a pool of ppl to choose from for the YE event. Over these few rounds of training, I really got a bit worried... Haiz.... Is it cos the age gap too big? Hence they dun understand what im trying to get at? Really hope this year the cast will be super super GOOD!!! Then we can haf a fun year =) Hope some things will work out amidst all these training.

Time has passed, Life has gone on. Friends haf moved on to a next phase in life. Im still holding on.... I m the final one standing on tt road liao..... Can I really stage this item in the near future with an ideal cast?? Dunno......

Unfinished

1st Entry of 2010
(New insights to Life, New goals, new aims, new meaning in Life)

Time is 25 Feb 2010. The first entry of 2010 =) Cant believe i didnt post for so long. I guess work has made me quite sian over the past few months. So now tt everything is over, yeah!

Looking forward to a new start, a new beginning.

Well, Chingay 2010 is over, Edward Lam Dance Theatre's latest production : Man & Woman; War & Peace is also over. I had an enjoyable CNY. Now finally can settle down with my some time for myself to blog. =)

Wont blog abt Edward Lam's production simply becos it was too GOOD. Its so good i cant explain in words or summarise what are the interesting parts of the play. Cos the whole play consists of too many interesting things. But comparing this one to last yr's production: Design for Living. I prefer Design for Living cos i guess its more meaningful to me ba... Nvtheless, its still a v well done production. Look forward to next yr's one =)

Chingay 2010 was alright, a good experience. =)

Ok, now for the new beginning, as usual I will like to touch on DANCE. My fav topic. =)

Actually im really behaving like a kid, haiz... Dunno is good or not?????? My circle of frenz of my age are now all busy earning $$, getting married, buying houses & cars, landing themselves in debt, while Im still in touch with what is the latest in Kpop, How is Edward Lam's production, how to make UNI 2011 better etc..... Perhaps Im still not grown up, still always on DANCE....

Ok, recently i guess every1 who is in touch with e Entertainment world knows tt nowadays Dance steps for MVs shld be iconic and simple as possible. The craze started from Wonder Girls' Nobody, followed by SuJu - Sorry Sorry, then aft tt All Hell break loose. Every1 is doing it, regardless whether the artistes can dance or not. Brown Eyed Girls, Aft Sch, Girls Generation (SNSD), Shinee, and all the new kpop groups tt popped out from nowhere suddenly all follw suit. Sigh....

So, in my youtubing process, I have found 2 videos which I would like to share. These are the few artistes who know how to dance well + their MVs is the "old" kind of dance where steps r rather complicated compared to the current "ICONIC & SIMPLE" trend. Apparently these 2 artistes are doing quite well in Kpop now.
Wish to touch on 1 of the artistes - Son Dam Bi. Son Dam Bi has moved with e new trend, this MV is her 1st Single when she joined the industry, so it still followed e "old" trend. Managed to chance upon it, was taken back by her skills. =)

Apart from BoA, Stephanie from CSJH, Son Dam Bi is the 3rd female kpop artiste who has amazed me with her versatile skills.

SO here goes the video. Readers who chance upon my blog, do comment ya? =)

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因为我没有哭

以下的篇章是从 赖雅妍 的部落格 成篇拷贝过来, 并非我个人的作品。

一直都觉得自己很像大人
跌到了很痛但是我没有哭
直到转身后痛得掉了眼泪，
才发现。。。
我一点都不喜欢当大人。

大人常常被孩子不谅解，
因为直线看过去的世界，
不会了解弯弯曲曲的结，
想画一个拐弯抹角的圆,
只因为这样好像比较完美。

屁。。。
那弄得大人都好累好累

小时候妈妈说我哭得好丑,
从此觉得眼泪不是好东西。
再难过似乎都比丑好,
因此我不哭，也忍着不难过。
这样应该就会比较漂亮了。

长大以后发现会哭好像比较得意
女人哭了有人帮你拿东西
男人哭了被称做铁汉柔情
小孩哭了爸妈给你买玩具
老天哭了所有人都不快乐
眼泪变成一种说话的工具
也变成另一种战争的武器

等我老了眼泪就不再有价值,
何不把握当下现在就学会哭,
掉了眼泪心里就会比较舒服，
哭完好入睡,
哭了比较楚楚可怜，
哭了,心里的重量就不会多,
可放下它, 也可吃掉它。

但可惜了,
因为我没有哭。
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我想赖雅妍的这篇，倒与我不谋而合。想想，我已有许久没落泪了，更别说哭。。。
日子久了，连哭的感觉都没有，何来的泪呢？
记得以前自己曾写过: 人，只会越来越麻木，最后到了欲哭无泪的地步。。。

其实，能哭的人是幸福的

终

Anyhow Arts 2009

YES!!! Time is 25 Dec 2009, Anyhow Arts 2009 has ended on 19 / 20 Dec at PA. This yr was a shiong yr. I did the programming all by myself, programme booklet with Zixiang, ticketing by myself, and I choreo 2 items, more than the usual. I even have to source for new concepts. I brought in a guitar duet this year, Genin & Chun Yong. 1 comment---> super shiong...


But now tt its over, Im really happy =) Special thanks here to Xi Ying Lao Shi & Mr Low, my 2 beloved teachers who have guided me and gave me so much room to grow. This year I was invited by Xi Ying Lao Shi to choreo a dance for the Southern Arts Society dance troupe. Thank you Xi Ying Lao Shi for giving me this opportunity. =) Then as usual, I choreo 1 dance for DI members, those who are willing to work with me, those who answered my Facebook "call" for dancers.



This year, my item is lyrical hip hop using Bleeding Love, with some other segments in between. Thanks to the dancers who danced in my item, Yiyang, Celia, Alyssa, Yueli, Peixuan, Yi Song, Joanne (who joined last min --- Haha, but still glad u could make it), and my last 2 dancers from previous year, Vanessa & Vivian. Thank you for your hard work, hope u all like the item, there's alot of details in the choreography to try to match every single word of the song. I hope u guys or even the audience was able to appreciate the beauty of this compatible matching choreography.



My item for Southern Arts is on Beauty. I picked up the idea from Perfect Cut, Channel U drama, and let the girls dance to the theme song by Shi Xin Hui. The dance piece is abt Beauty, Self-confidence, and other people's view / gaze.... To match to the meaning of the song, I had Hui wen wearing a mask, signifying her inferior complex, different from the norm of "Beauty" in society's eyes. Then there was this part where every1 freezed, and she walked ard them in envy, hoping to be like them. Then I added 1 part of lifting (which the audience is free to interpret in anyway), and ended off with Hui Wen taking off the Mask, and dancing again. This time, with her real appearance, and I used sign languages in the choreography, hoping to bring out a silent msg to the audience.

As per my dance synopsis; What is beauty? Self-confidence is then a Lady's best accessories. Beauty is decided by the Society, and any1 can nv catch up with Society's view of beauty. In ancient Greece, Ladies who are overweight & plump are considered beauty. In today's society, the hour-glass shape tt a lady shld haf is simply a norm set by society. Thus, beauty is nv ever defined. Self-confidence is then the best accessory any lady can have.


Well, for this year's AHA, my personal opinion what would be e best dance of e night would be tt dance by Crescent Girls dancers, dancing to Lao Shi's item. It was really well-choreo, and v site specific. It matched the evening, the ambience, the lighting. It was simply beautiful, practically Art in Motion. Saw alot of photographers taking photos during the dance, I guess the visual image of the dancers within the surrounding background is really a captivating image to capture.
Well done Girls.....=) Impressive is the word....

Next, as for my item, Love like Dust, Thank you the 9 dancers who danced in this item. I sincerely hope tt it was a nice collaboration and u all loved this item. Tt would be my most ultimate objective. =) Dance education is aft all what im looking at all along....

This year, Im really happy that I did so much, worked with so many diff ppl, and see so many new faces. I even managed to feature Genin & ChunYong for the pre-show segment, and many told me tt it was a good move to bring music into AHA 2009, giving it a new lease of life =).

Once again, Thank you Yiyang, Celia, Alyssa, Yueli, Peixuan, Yi Song, Joanne, Vanessa & Vivian. Like I said tt day, U guys did a great job and really Love u ppl. Esp the last encore dance for Yiyang w/o the audience, i think u all suddenly become stress-free and danced so well. Thank you Xi Ying Lao Shi, Mr Low for the wonderful opportunities.
To every1 who has worked along / with me for AHA 2009, thank you so much, you have given me memories to take along with when I grow old...

Zhongyi is still the same old Zhongyi.

This year marks the 10th anniversary since I graduated from NHSS.

Getting Re-started

Time is 25 Dec 09, I finally have the time to sit down and rest and spring-clean my room. The feeling of "cleaning" everything up is really good.... IT gives me a refreshing feeling, something like falling down and standing up again to re-start.

For not blogging so long (abt 6 months), is becos i was confused, re-thinking over the process whether I took the wrong step in life. Tt step i took.... It was brave, courageous u can say, but on the other hand, it can be viewed as Dumb, impractical, young & rash, not mature...

So how do YOU view it?? If there's an audience watching my life as a movie, how would they have viewed tt step i took? For the past 6 months i was confused... But aft AHA 09, aft talking to Lao Shi, I m all ready to go again...

Perhaps I am a person who is supposed to meet with setbacks & failures all the way, and to know how to handle them again & again is my destiny?? Resilience & Perseverenace is what i am named anyway. 仲毅, 取意自-----> 所有人之中 : 仲， 最有毅力的：毅

Anyway, Im enlightened by AHA 09, and Lao Shi, so once again (and I freaking mean AGAIN, so u can imagine how many times i FAILED in life already), Im starting out from zero and on a new path again. 我又再一次跌到了，我又必须再一次重新站起来。现在已有很多人跑在我的前面，我只有重新再起步。或许真的已比很多人迟，但是我还是会一步一步地一直往前走。。。

重新出发

A Catalogue of My essays:

Dear readers, those interested to read my essays, pls refer to the datelines and search thru my archieves to read them... Suggestion is to read from the oldest essays which i find are better done generally ...

Hope u all read when u are free, and do give comments everytime, i do come up with new essays every now and then, depends on whether i got ling gan or not.... =D

Date & Title:
12/07/05 - 钢琴与她
18/07/05 - 思念
23/07/05 - 孤单起飞
08/08/05 - 痛、苦、悲、绝
22/11/05 - 窗外雨滴
29/11/05 - 冰天雪地 - 心的接触
07/12/05 - 瞬间の永恒
26/12/05 - 无法习惯
18/02/06 - It's been raining since u left me
23/05/06 - 刺青
24/06/06 - 一个人生活
21/12/06 - When did your heart stop loving me?
28/12/07 - 遥远的她

*B4 every essay, there is a foreword, so if interested do read tt as well, it states how i got the ideas =)