In Appreciation to those ppl ard me who believed in me

时间是26 NOV 2006, 今天在PA做舞蹈, 依旧面对那些让我心灰意冷的事, 当然一切都是重蹈覆辙. 对于这些事, 我虽已司空见惯, 但还是会影响我的心情. 不过呢, 在此每次都因舞蹈而悲伤的我, 想对周围的人说声: 谢谢你们!!
时代已不同, 我懂的东西已经似乎不被现在的年轻人接受...... 无助的我真的非常感谢所有在我身旁的人, 谢谢你们仍然相信我的理念, 我的那一套学说....

舞蹈在PA 已经非昔日时的情况, 所以我真的唯有凭自己的努力走下去, 真的不知会变怎么样, 但真的谢谢现今周围的人, 因为有你们的信任, 我才会一直坚持自己的理念.
Honestly i just suddenly thot of what Jeff Tan taught me: Arts (whether visual arts, musical arts, performing arts, digital art etc) in its finest form, is usually not understood by most ppl. If u really want, then just do it, as to whether what are the critics/ audience comments, they are not important. Whether u make it big or not, is really dependent on Time & Culture. The flair for arts is a black/white situation, no grey. Its either u haf it, or u dun.... It cant be trained/ nutured......
Its the harsh truth.

Come to think of what he say, hmmm.... maybe really v true.... Sigh..... Unfortunately, i dun haf it but still wish to do it..... 简直是飞蛾扑火.......

执着的我

飞蛾扑火

THE PRESTIGE

Time is Nov 9 2006, as usual an all time low period in my life.. Everytime i thot this was the lowest, it always gets lower again.... haizz.... Life is hard on me, or maybe simply becos i not strong enough? Dunno who to blame, what to do, i can only constantly remind myself that i m already v fortunate to haf whatever i haf now, cos all these r not granted... Maybe i may be born in a third world country next life, where i dun even haf $$ to buy food, how to worry whether my life is happy/ successful/ eventful or not... But sincerely i do wish to say: Being appreciative is appreciative, sincerely deep down inside im still unhappy, and i know the unhappiness is brought by myself, so i got no choice... Cos i Kan bu kai, Fang Bu Xia, too stuborn, so bring abt unhappiness... I mean: becos i kan bu kai, so yah lor, gotta accept & endure the unhappiness in my life lor... Its a matter of choice & consequences ba..... Haizzz.... Hopefully thru this sighing, i can get rid of all my unhappiness =)

This entry is to talk abt the movie: THE Prestige, as well as some insights as to what this movie has influenced me...
First & foremost, this movie is really deep & lots of underlying meaning, depending on how u wish to interpret the movie and also how u wish to apply those principles to ur own life... few weeks haf passed since i watched tt movie, and yet i still haf not finished discovering ALL the interpretations, Damn deep, damn good movie sia....

Shant bore this entry with all the technical analysis & critique of this movie, shall do it when i more free next time... Next, is to write down something tt has an impact in my life, the critical sentence mentioned in the movie: OBSESSION IS A YOUNG MAN'S GAME
Well, yup many times i m unhappy is perhaps due to this sentence? not tt i shld regard myself old & dun care anymore abt anything since obsession is a young man's game, but yah, since it is detrimental to me, perhaps i shld follow this good advice & give up on some obsession?

Dance has always been my passion, but i dunno since when, dancing in DI is no longer fun... Becos of the UNI production, things are getting v ugly there, everytime i read the emails from DI, everytime i witness the ppl booking the studios & the dancers, i can see ugly things.... Dance can no longer be the way i enjoy it, hence an all time low for me in life.... In addition, any efforts by me to extend my dance life is being destroyed or spoiled by perhaps fate? i dunno what to classify that but yah......

Frenz who know tt i applied for that job is still pending right? F*** it lor, so now my dreams/ideal seems shattered cos BIG 4 is coming in already... I have to decide by Dec if not next yr grad then no more job vacancy liao... & yet F*** thing is audit is not life i want, not tt i hate audit, its juz tt if i go audit, i gotta give up all my other talents lei, Hello its ALL!!!!!!
Dance, Theatre & Drama, Chinese Studies, Cinemotography, everything.....

So yup, i dunno what Life has installed for me in the future, i dunno how im going to spend the rest of my life.... All i can know is perhaps give up obsession may make me a happier man? Suddenly recall a song by Moon Hee Jun, Alone.... That song is so meaningful =)

LIFE