解脱

Time is 23 Sep 07, ain't really happy recently.. Just got news abt a fren who quit her audit job in EY where she had worked only few months? Life's hard for us auditors... The above title of my entry is the latest song on my playlist, Jie Tuo by Li Jiu Zhe (Aka Xiao Pang of the Machi Gang) This song is really nice and the lyrics are so meaningful. Though the song title usually misleads ppl to thinking tt it is the song by A-mei, but nope, this song has its own uniqueness too.

My fren's MSN nick is: Thinking of what i really wanna do in the future, Audit is definitely not for me.
Having read that, i oso dunno what i want. Perhaps, ppl of our generation are too fortunate, hence too self-centred on thinking what I WANT. Its all abt ME, & I etc. My parents generation slog their whole lives out just to make ends meet tt they dun even haf chance to talk abt their dreams & ideals. Which side should i be on? Be a daring person, and go search for my ideals, which may not even come true in a lifetime (Artists usually led a poor life till they r dead, then their works get cherished, Sigh.... Irony), Or just stick by my job everyday and slog my life away in OFFICE? There is no right or wrong, but just tt if i go for dreams etc, it seems impractical & self-centred. I shld be working to support my family, repay all my debts to parents etc, be responsible for their costs of living etc. Life is v brittle, esp mine i think.... Im perhaps just not strong enough.... Then again, whats the definition of "strong"? F*** it lah..


Anyway, all these are just side notes. Basically i just felt like introducing this song to the readers of my blog. Its nice. The lyrics are below and readers out there (if any at all), do take note of the lyrics ya? Many a times, Love happens/ evolves into what is written in the song, so ppl, when dealing with Love, Handle it with care. =)

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歌手：李玖哲
歌曲：解脱

爱永远都是难题失去分寸太容易
谁都是凡人不够小心翼翼
有时候忘了珍惜伤害来的太无意
有时爱太急需要空间呼吸

争吵愈狠痛愈深刻然后不断自责
我们都忘了最初的快乐
拥抱越紧痛愈深刻谁不会舍不得
现在我给的或许并不是你要的

Chorus:
如果分离是唯一的解脱
最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过
遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱, 连未来也没有我
爱着你仍是我的执着

让你哭泣对不起为了爱承受委屈
说过的承诺其实还没忘记
愈是在乎的关系愈是相处不容易
伤害了你我也失去勇气

争吵愈狠痛愈深刻然后不断自责
我们都忘了最初的快乐
拥抱越紧痛愈深刻谁不会舍不得
现在我给的或许并不是你要的

如果分离是唯一的解脱
最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过
遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱, 连未来也没有我
爱着你仍是我的执着

走到感情关键时候却握不住你的手
还能有什么藉口让爱再回头

多少的爱说不出口
就让时间帮我说话
我一个人拼命挣扎
总比两个人一起难过还好吧

Chorus *
爱着你唯一的解脱

Life as @ Sep 07

A month has passed since I started work and shant mention the unhappy issues cos as i always say: this blog is a paperless collection of all my memories, i wouldnt want my memories to be filled with worthless stuff when i re-read my blog like perhaps 10-20 yrs down the road?

During this month, as it is off-peak, i still got some time for myself, dun haf to work thru midnights but unfortunately, it didnt mean tt i could knock off on time. Life's hard. I got my first pay and alas!! It was pro-rated and i got a v little amt, which i dunno how im gonna survive for this following month. Frenz out there who still owe me $$, pls return me this time, cos i really really need it. Every single dollar now seems helpful.

Honestly, for this month tt has passed, it wasnt a happy month. All the more, i begining to miss my frenz, all the outings we haf etc. All the dance pracs etc. Dancetitude 07 has ended and i have some personal comments on it. Basically, it can be summarized in juz a sentence. Dance is not all abt Hip Hop only, and i seriously symphathize those ppl who really think tt as long as they know Hip hop, they are good dancers. Hahaha, after dancing for so long, all the more i feel tt i dunno how to dance. Its like what they say: The more u know, the more u realize u dunno.

Hence, i sincerely feel so sad for those MJ ppl who really gets stuck in Hip hop only. After a trip to Sarawak, Kuching, for the dance festival, now that im back, i really realize how much i dunno abt dance. Its so Wah piang.... =( And the irony is tt when i look back at MJ ppl, i realize how much more they dunno, yet thinking tt they do know; Which is the most comical part abt this irony. Honestly Dancetitude in Mitran's item was quite fun, at least the bare minimum there is no politics, no back-stabbing, no bitching ard. We juz dance, and yup even if i cant dance well, I still enjoy the "process" of dancing. That's the enjoyable part. Anyway enough abt MJ, shall move on to another topic.

Dance with the de-funtc Dance Inspiration always turns out to be v tiring. The political issues are killing me and i gotta help sort out the things ya? It's tiring. Worse still, This year's Anyhow Arts at PA which is org by CDAA, Guess what? I kanna arrowed to be the overall Program Planner. Congrats! I gotta write proposals send to ask for funding, coordinate among all the choreographers' items and eventually settle the logistic issue. Dun need ask me ask for help from anyone, becos in the CDAA committee, I am the freaking most junior person. Who to task? Diaozz, i cant possibly task all the senior teachers to do things for me right... Haiz...

Ok, gotta rush back to do my work liao, brought work from office to home to complete. So shall blog again the next time when i free.

Not v happy recently

Work is not fun