Tattoo 2 Foreword

Juz completed another essay.. I enjoyed the process alot.. Didnt know tt essays could be completed in such a way as well.. Dear readers, pls take a look at the 'new' essay Tattoo2. If u haf read the previous work(Tattoo), u shld realize something by now (similar yet different). Well, i really enjoyed the process cos i didnt know an essay can be completed in such a way like i did.

It was experimental, i dunno how my readers will react so friends pls feel free to comment, this idea flashed past my mind when i was on my way home alone on the bus. nothing to do so let my mind run wild, suddenly thot of trying an interesting experiment. =) It shows tt an essay doesn't haf to be written from top to bottom.

Well, the same issue applies, if u dun understand my essay, pls refer to the previous foreword (entry dtd 4th Apr) for the original work 'Tattoo'. Tt foreword mentions how this particualr essay may be read/ interpreted.

Haha, so happy, juz like as though i re-choreographed a dance, old yet new... Didnt know it can apply to writing essays as well... =)

End of foreword

刺青 (续集)

孤寂的夜晚，寒风不停地吹，我踏进冷清清的房子，卸下一天的疲惫。走进这看似熟悉却又陌生的客厅，在你最喜欢的沙发坐了下来。随着便播放了你最喜爱的那一首歌。房间里还摆放着你最喜欢的白玫瑰。过往那些零零碎碎的片段亦逐渐一一浮现在我眼前。。。

画面中的我们充满著甜蜜、洋溢着幸福。画面里有欢笑，有泪水，有快乐，有悲伤，有着我们的点点滴滴。无奈已经时过境迁，此景不再，假如这一切都能重演的话。。。

在路上行驶，景色迅速从眼前晃过，树叶簌簌飘落，你仿佛就坐在我身边。夜景那么迷人，既可以慰藉孤寂的心，却也令人更容易染上孤寂之感。我怀念那段你常依偎在我怀里的日子。。。

独自漫步在海滩上，阵阵海风迎面吹来。今夜的星空单调暗淡，与我的步伐不谋而合。走在沙滩上，只听见浪声频频。。。

对你的想念从来没间断，看着房子的每一个角落，都遗留着你的香味，你的残影。即使我再怎么努力，我都没法将你忘掉，为甚么？是否因为我们彼此之间的距离不会因时间的流逝而有所改变？我忘不了你。。。

此时孤影无人相依偎，没有乘客的巴士显得冷清，空调格外地冷。你不在身边，已无人挽着我的手。我身边的坐位空了，人影消失了。一排一排的街灯照亮着马路，却照亮不着我心中的旅途。路上没有行人也没有其他车辆，我仿佛处于一座孤城，在这个悲情城市里来来回回。。。

浪声频频，海风阵阵，不知你现在是否在颤抖 ？在这冰冷的夜晚，不停颤抖的你是否需要我在身旁？还记得当一切开始时，就是你让我心里泛起涟漪，像是海上那绵绵不断的浪涛。我一直想与你在海滩上漫步，因为海洋似乎能够洗涤心灵，希望面对着海洋时，你那疲惫不堪的身心能够得到平静。。。

在这繁忙拥挤的都市里，若我不小心遇见了你，我大概会笑着对你说，你好我很忙；但这一切其实都只是表面话而已。我真的没有把握，万一眼泪不自觉地流下，落在那早已凋谢的白玫瑰，万一泪珠在白玫瑰上凝结。。。

此时你是否也在某辆车上，单独地踏上归途？ 你身边的坐位是否也空着？在这漫长的路途中，你是否想起了从前？从前常坐在身旁的那个人？欲哭无泪，仍然心疼你。。。
在房子里徘徊，漫无目的徘徊着，一份莫名的悲伤在空中弥漫着，我也不知心中是何滋味？我只是清晰地感受到心中一阵阵的绞痛，这一份绞结似乎将心给绞碎了，一种麻麻而又酸酸的感觉，让我呼吸不顺畅，仿佛缺氧快要窒息。那遗留下来的香味，搁浅着的照片，未删除的简讯，都是一些忘不了的记忆。。。

繁忙的都市，庸庸碌碌的生活，淡如水的交情，面对着最熟悉的陌生人，你好我很忙。我真的没有把握，万一我真的恨你恨得说不出话，万一心仍在淌着血，血珠滴落在那早已凋谢的白玫瑰，染红那纯白的花瓣；心好痛。。。

在黑夜的这个旅程我不知道会在哪里下车，也不知终点在哪里。途中会否有人上车填满我身边的坐位，我亦不知晓。漫长的黑夜，毫无终止的车程，一排排的街灯陆续从身边晃过，显得越来越渺小；一切仍持续着，你已远去。。。

在厨房泡了一杯咖啡，记得怕苦的你总会加上许多的白糖。为什么我还记得？你犹如刺青，像我的另一半，无法割舍；无论我今后和谁在一起，都无法忘记你。我不怕离开你，只是不知离开你是否能使我忘了你？

早已远去的你，我已无法在这片情海里寻觅 。即使我再怎么用心，再怎么舍不得你，一切都已消失于情海之中；就让我沉溺于无边无际的深海里，沉溺于过去的记忆，沉溺于你的温柔，永远不再醒来，永远~~~~~~~~~~~

在这个都市，人来人往，所有人都与我擦肩而过。你犹如刺青，像我的另一半，无法割舍；即使我今后和别人在一起，都无法忘记你。看着你忧郁重重的双眼，心中的绞痛更是挥之不去。为何你离开了我却没有得到幸福？心疼你离去之后没有得到幸福，离去之后仍没找到理想的天堂。请你过得比我幸福好吗？日子一天一天地过去，眼泪一直不停地流，心痛的感觉依然持续不断。。。

在浴室里面对着镜子，我仿佛又看到了你的影子。你呢？是否也常透过玻璃窗看到我？我好怕，真的好害怕。你犹如刺青，像我的另一半，无法割舍；害怕纵使你今后和别人在一起，都无法忘记我。。。若能减轻你内心的痛，减轻那份麻麻而又酸酸的感觉，我情愿你失去这个刺青。

你犹如刺青，像我的另一半，无法割舍、无法舍弃、无法装做不存在；即使我今后和别人在一起，都无法忘记你。。。
若你真的爱过我，不妨在夜阑人静的时候，看着窗外的绵绵细雨，偶尔想想我。。。

Thots aft viewing I NotStupid 2

Continued from part1, the next thing the movie over-simplifies is the fact tt living alone is diff from living together. What i mean is: it emphasizes so much on individuals, tt teenagers empthasize with e character in the movie as it is so 'real' a replication of themselves. Hence they may become so happy and involved in themselves, they neglect what is ard them. Many of the teenagers today cannot live in grps. Take NHDS for eg. so many of them dun come for practice simply becos they 'today no mood to dance' which is so inconsiderate. Cant they juz understand tt every absentee brings about so much implications for every1?

Next, they cant work with one another simply becos they bu shuang. Unable to put aside their differences, they fail to excel as a grp. Only work with ppl whom they like, or can click. This movie has the tendency (not absolute though) to make teenagers even more self-centred, as they now r more aware of their own situation/ status in the society. Every1 in the edu systm is commenting on: how to treat students better, how to make facilities better, make life better for them, less stressful etc. Well, i dun comment on whether tt is e correct direction we shld head towards, but undeniable fact is tt all our teenagaers will continue to live in their own world, and eventually may be unable to live in a grp which consists of many diff types of ppl.

In the army, workplace, clubs/ societies, there bound to be differences among ppl who r trying to accomplish a similar goal via their own methods. If teenagers are unable to put aside all those vitiating factors, they cannot work as a grp. The above sentence esp applies to the current NHDS and i believe the future NHDS as well.... =(

Okie, enough of all these... Lastly i wish to end by saying tt, hopefully i brought out another viewpt to all audiences of INS2 so tt every1 does not get swayed by the movie which is in a certain way, too commercialized with "ulterior" motives. Well, though i studied theatre & cinema studies in Uni, i dun wish to bore all readers with the technical stuff. Next time when i more free, maybe i will post another entry simply on technical stuff =)

Meanwhile, pls feel free to continue comment on my entry. wanna blast me down oso can...
Lets haf an active discussion =)

End of part 2

Thots aft viewing I NotStupid 2

Juz watched INS2 directed byJack Neo. As claimed by the media, it is a touching movie. Well, but to me, its not tt a good movie aft all... I m not criticising the movie, but my opinion of the movie is tt it is over-simplified, neglects many factors, over-emphasizes on unnecessary things and even exploits the human softness for e so-called pitiful ppl. Dun believe? juz read on...

The show touches many hearts on the part tt many teenagers feel they do not get their parents' understanding, and the part on teachers looking down on students wif poor grades. Therefore teenagers end up being lonely etc. DO u all start to see that the movie is directed in such a way, it makes u, the audience, start to empthaize with the teenagers? This is what i mean by exploiting the audience's hearts. A similar eg would be the showcase of Patients' life during NKF charity shows. Those video clips touch our hearts, but eventually it is disappointing to know tt our $$ went to unnecessary things like the Golden Tap.

Dear readers, pls take a neutral look at INS2 again. U will realize many of the things tt r portraited in the movie are over-simplified, over-emphasized. For instance, INS2 talk so much abt parents working and neglecting children. well, look on the other side of the coin. Teenagers nowadays have so much luxury goods tt they become a necessity. They have iPods, New Hp every now & then, New bags, new clothes. And mind u, all these r bought within a time period of few weeks...(not like CNY need to buy new clothes etc) If parents dun work till mad, how to afford all these luxury goods? Dun believe me? Go Visit blogs of many sec sch kids and take a look at their wishlist/ blog entries. U realize they go shopping almost every week (not window shopping hor). They exclaim that they juz bought how many new tops or bags again. So now, tell me, is it parents' fault?

Hello, close frenz ard me know tt i recently then buy mp3 player, & i still using Discman. All these luxury goods were bought using my own $$. so there is a diff. And i dun deny the fact, tt got ppl even poor till discman oso cannot buy. Yup, so what r those kids in INS2 complaining abt? Haf they ever think in the shoes of their parents?

U may be thinking tt I m speaking too much on behalf of parents, Yes i am, becos the movie is too skewed towards the teenagers, i m bringing in another viewpt to hope tt audience dun get swayed in your views regarding the truth in our teenagers today. The movie overemphasizes too much liao.

Next, over-simplification of facts. In the movie, u see so much of public canning issue, the dialogues of the movie all stand in the side of teenagers. Well, let me tell u some of the events i seen in sec sch nowadays. Not ABSOLUTE tt those canned will live with shame. Nowadays, i DUNNO the word 'shame' has how much weightage in teenagers' hearts. Frenz ard me, esp NH dancers, do u agree with me tt how come recently 2 yrs NH dancers AS IF frequently get canned publicly in sch? NHDS kanna whacked by almost all teachers in NHSS for discipline issues? Why? Arent they sad/ ashamed tt NHDS 's reputation is going down the drain? Not ashamed tt a dancer no longer has standing status in NHSS? Yet they can still continue their nonsense. Is the society not giving them 2nd chance? Is it the sch's fault? well, no abosolute ans, think again, and of cos, watch INS2 again...

By now, u may haf realized tt there r many issues tt r hanging with no abosolute ans. I trying to balance the whole issue cos INS2 is too one-sided.. why not think again? So many ppl see liao say they r touched, adults interviewed say they will reflect on their own actions, while teenagers interviewed simply expressed their happiness tt some1 is finally speaking up 4 them.. Then who will speak up for the adults? (ie. Teachers, parents, etc) Pls lah, forget all ur Fila/ Adidas Bags, Clothes, iPods, Laptops etc lah b4 u try to play down ur parents again.... =(

I wish to write alot more but this entry is getting long so may be i continue as a separate entry another day....
Dear frenz, pls leave ur comments, i appreciate a discussion on this =)

End of part 1

MY inner thots regarding NHDS '06 batch

Time is May 1 '06, read lots of entries in the Nhds blog regarding their speech day perf and all the issues that happened. Got lots of thots, actually wanted to post an entry there one, but decided to update my own blog instead... =(

Its damn siao lor... Well, anyway i v sian abt what is happening in nhds liao. actually oso v sian abt things in DI, all the dancers tt go there no longer haf passion abt dancing liao... dunno they go there for what, in the end go there piss mr low off only, make him more disappointed as the days pass by...

Jeffrey jio me choreograph a dance together, so well, i dunno how many ppl interested to join us but i extend the invitation here, anyone interested can just declare.. =)

So why did i bring in Jeffrey? simple, cos the issue here is its so freaking difficult to find ppl who r of the same interests as u.. Recently heard from Sam and zhenyu, ppl from the shin-13 oso not as close liao, its v saddening to hear all these.. take a look at those Superband contestants, i m so envy of them, not envy of their skills or what, but their ability to manage to find ppl who r as enthu as them... U see in NTU, DI, or even NHDS, how to find ppl who r as enthu (not necessary in dance but in things like wilingness to attend outings etc) as u?

The issue here is v sian cos nhds ppl dun cherish their abundant choice in sch... In such a big society, u can find ppl of similar interests more easily than in other places. (assuming citeris paribus) They got such a big grp, if they can act together, they can be a formidable opponent in SYF 07. Like what so many ppl commented b4, i oso say again, NHDS is really collapsing, damn demoralising.. The place i grew up in was not like this, and ain't supposed to like this anyway, ( since the instructor didnt change). His methods of teaching/educating students into dancers is still the same...

Dancing isnt supposed to be lidat... Its supposed to be something which u put ur heart into by rehearsing, pracising over & over again, showcase whatever talent/ creativity u haf, try to connect to ur audience and touch their hearts... tt is really how i think it should be... If dun achieve any of the points mentioned above, then might as well dun perform? Go dance at home in bathroom lah, or go disco pubs dance can attract attention somemore.. =( Dancing in a grp can really foster good friendships one, why cant nhds ppl buy that point? Dancing solo has a diff connotation, so it doesnt apply in this case.

Argh.... Sianz.. Siao liao, dun feel like writing anymore, oso dunno what i writing... =(