Communication is IMPT

Actually language is used to communicate with each other. However, the irony seems tt as more is being spoken, more MIS-communication is caused. So is it best not to speak at all? Till today, then i found out tt the "UNI saga" has not ended and yet even elevated to a next level. Things are going way off. Actually, its really a BIG misunderstanding.

Its hurtful & disheartening to see a 14-yr old troupe juz go like tt, and a long partnership torn. Who caused this? I dunno, i know tt miscommunication caused it. The interesting thing is tt msg/info gets distorted everything it is transferred from one person to another. Original msg may be a whole deal diff from what eventually reaches the intended receiptant. Amidst the transfer of info, there may be malicious parties trying to benefit from the misunderstanding. Hence, it escalates the level of miscommunication. Above all, when the msg finally reaches the receiptant, its v subjective of how it is interpreted. Having studied Drama & Theatre b4, i know its really a whole deal how diff interpretations can be.

Dance seems so dangerous now, i dun even dare to talk to anyone, except for Sam & Zhenyu they all, whom i treat as close frenz. The rest juz seem so dangerous. Everything tt gets out of my mouth now is subjected to all distortions. As long as some1 hears it and decides to upscale it, Tt's e end. And worse still, keeping quiet doesnt help too, cos keeping quiet can be subjected to interpretation as well. It may be interpreted as "He's guilty, ashamed, tt's y dun dare to speak up", or "He trying to act blur only, actually he is the $%^&* person" etc.

This makes me v upset actually. I honestly know tt in the Real Working World ouside there, everything is like tt. Imagine if some1 badmouths u in front of Boss, (not once but many times), gradually Boss will tend to believe tt maybe there is Some truth in the person's remarks. Inevitably, ur yr-end performance appraisal will be affected. Imagine me go to work need to guard against these stuff, now in DANCE, oso haf to like tt? Its so tiring for me. =(
Dance shldnt be this way but I simply dun understand why there r ppl who enjoy creating choas out of nothing. I know tt i go to work need to face such stuff & there's no escaping but in my interest, i oso haf to face these stuff??

Some ppl are juz too dangerous, yet e most scary part is tt nobody realizes they are dangerous, except me. Thereby, even if i do voice out they are malicious, its unlikely tt any1 will believe. Hence, the way i can opt is only to distance myself from them. Hopefully, when they realize tt im not obstructing their path of **"Success & Glory", i can be abstained from being MISUNDERSTOOD.

**The irony is this - what success is there in becoming a troupe's most senior person or tt equivalent? A dance troupe is always non-profitable, hence there is actually no success to mention at all. If u r looking for authority & power, mind u, every1 basically only listens to Mr Low, nobody has authority over anybody, becos this is no longer an ECA back in sch days. So, if power is e objective, then u r oso in the wrong place.

So the issue is - Why back-stab any1 at all? Dance is juz an interest. Pulling down some1 from grace and EVEN replacing tt person eventually, there is no success at all, why go thru all the trouble? So funny, so comical......

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Super Tired

Towards the End

Dance Inspiration was established in 1993 by Mr Low, it was meant to let students with passion in dance have a place to express their interests & hone up their skills, as well as provide a platform for them to showcase their talents. Over the years, different batches have come & go, students have changed, the passion has worn off. But it has nv come close to a halt.

This time however, I sincerely think tt the troupe is in crisis, has gone towards the End. I was talking to Wan Ling today and being the 1st Gen gen of members for DI, (I belong to the 2nd Gen), we talked alot abt the past. I mention alot abt the current status of the troupe. It's not optimistic. Lets take a step back into History.

1st Gen - Wanling, Han Qiang, Yong Hao, Guang Ming etc
2nd Gen - Myself, Zixiang, Zhou Xiu, Angeline, Shan Bao etc
3rd Gen - Hui Ting, Connie, Thresa, Claire etc
4th Gen - Kai wei, Sam, Daryl etc
5th Gen - Xiao Sam tt batch + Wei Hong, Yi Long, Khoon hui etc
6th Gen & above - Kee Lui, Hann Bin, and the younger rest

Things dun look optimistic. In the past, we used to do lots of shows, in fact i dare say even till the 4th Gen, i was still doing shows with them, though i was over-aged in their batch. =P But things took a downturn when 5th Gen onwards ppl came along. That was also when we moved from BVCC to Kallang PA, if there are 4th Gen readers out there, i believe u all will know. How we used to talk cock in Holland V Breko after dance pracs. =D

The issue is this: It's an egg & chicken scenario. When students dun commit to take part in performances, Mr Low will not dare to undertake show requests. {Eg. I always remember becos those idiots nv commit (even when free), tt's why in 2005 Lao Jiu, Mr Low originally promised TTP 8 dancers, in the end only 4 - me, kw, yx, kenrick. Then he kanna upside down from TTP. =( }When there are no platforms for performing, students MAY (not absolute) see no pt in practising, cos no need perform. So coming for practices is not as impt. Hang out with frenz better.

So the cycle goes on and now in DI, everywk, many dun come for practices. Even if they appear, they dun practise at all. Then standard becomes lower & lower. Of course i do agree tt the INTENTION OF COMING is diff. I used to come cos i wanna hone my skills, improve etc. Now, the kids come becos of companions. But the issue is this, This troupe belongs to MR Low, he gets so disappointed & tired tt he oso dun feel like coming. HOW? I can really understand his stand, if i had a family, my Sundays will be precious to my family, why shld i come to spend time with the UNAPPRECIATIVE students at all? He spends time here, only to be disappointed to see ppl talking cock, fooling ard, nv practise anything.

Recently, he keeps telling me; "Zhongyi, i dun belong to this troupe anymore, u all like to do what u all do lor.." I seriously dunno how to react. i Always keep my mouth shut. Any readers out there can teach me? =(
There is nobody organizing the troupe. Nobody gives warmup at all, nobody pushes for anything, nobody turns up. This troupe was a free & easy troupe origianlly from 1st GEN. But back then, things still got some control. There were still some shows every yr, and approximately always got some ppl will wanna perform. Now, the ppl dun even perform, they juz come here for fun. Which they freaking forget one thing: Mr Low can easily ask u to pay $$ for using the tramp, the studio, the mattress etc. By right, there is no free lunch in this world. I daringly say: By right, we nv give Mr Low any $$ at all for all he has taught us, so rightfully, we could help him out by offering to perform for those shows so tt he doesnt haf to turn down requests. (Esp those shows which r becos of Ren Qing 人情)

But UNAPPRECIATIVE kids juz never commit. Diaozz, i was a student b4, if u cant commit when u in sec & JC/Poly, then Army liao all the more cannot commit what....

Bottomline is simple, IF all dun wanna commit, PLS juz dun come at all, then NOBODY comes at all, i dare say Mr Low at least can spend his Sundays with family. Now the troupe is neither here nor there, everywk, he oso dunno wanna come or not. He come, then he see things tt disappoint him again. He dun come, he feel tt like MAYBE there are still some enthu ones who will turn up, and being the nice teacher he is, he feels like shld treat us better etc.

This is getting nowhere lah. Talked to Wanling this morning, we talked so much tt i felt so apologetic taking up her work time =p

THE above mentioned is all my personal analysis from all the information I have. Perhaps there are some readers out there got more updated info than me, so things may be different. But back to topic, readers out there with abundant info, esp abt the "UNI saga", U tell me honestly, how to react to Mr Low's comment above? He mentions it so often, I everytime oso stumped, nv react. Ask him to stay and re-org the troupe, he may rebut : "Whats the pt?" Ask him to disband the troupe, then i become the BAD Guy who initiates the closure of a 14 yr old dance Troupe. DI -1993 -2007. And even IF i be bad guy, then HOW to disband? Send mass email to YahooGrps, tell every1 dun come anymore from now onwards? And DI will adopt another name? Then what if the new-born troupe, still got those ppl coming back, wont everything return back to sq one?


Totally sianz diao these days

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