许久的一个笔录
时间是三月十九日2007，我决定在这一天把生命中重要的决定写下来。距离毕业还有两个月左右，而我始终一事无成，对于前途事业感到迷惘。那天，老爸的好友忽然间去世了，三天前才刚和老爸聚会，三天后竟远离人世。妈听到这个消息也吓了一跳。那天晚上，他们对我说：人生无常，所以要做什么赶快去做，要不然没有机会了。
听了我就不知道做什么了。其实，我对舞蹈真的没有天分，我是否真的应该全心全意投入舞蹈工作？还是安安稳稳地当Deloitte的Auditor? 一个有稳定的收入，一个没有。一个是只要肯值夜班，熬通宵，过了五年，一定会有金钱回报。另一个则不知是否能养活自己，更不要说养活家庭。其实，我到底该如何抉择？我不想选择，因为我知道两个选择都会严重影响我接下来会过什么样的生活。常言道：男怕入错行，女怕嫁错郎。
我真的不知如何是好。。。。。舞蹈虽然使我常常很开心很充实，但同样的，它也造成了我许多的不快。我不是出类拔萃的舞蹈家，我是否该投身于舞蹈工作呢？
Monday, March 19, 2007
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Huayi Festival 07/ Movies / Music
(Countdown of 4 mths to worklife)
Time is 6 Mar 07. Recently spent alot of time on performances, movies, music etc. Last yr at Huayi Festival, i went to watch Fei Chang Ma Jiang (Mahjong), Cursive by Cloud Gate DT. This yr i went to watch An Lian Tao Hua Yuan and B.O.B The Final Cut.... Movies & DVD wise, i watched quite alot, did some catching up with the current/ past movies; Dreamgirls, Take The Lead, BoA Best of Soul concert, Luna Sea Final Act concert, Coyote Ugly. Did not watch The Protege by Andy Lau, Follow Law by Jack Neo, sianz....
But recently life is abit siao, kinda lost of direction liao, dunno what to do.... Last sem coming to an end, work life gonna start, i oso dunno now can do what... juz keep playing & playing but nothing concrete seems to be done.... Am i living my life the way it shld be? What exactly did i miss out?
Recently went to attend GE courses, realized tt i continue to learn alot, but OTOH, all these knowledge dunno got use or not lei.. Im happy learning it, but apparently its such a pity i got no opportunity to put these knowledge into use.... Shld i juz carry on like a clown, enjoying every moment & day of my life, but nothing concrete comes out of it, OR shld i go do something concrete out, but yet may not be enjoying the process though...?
How shld i live my life for the next coming 4 mths?
Time is early Mar, July start work.... Dance is coming to an end....
(Countdown of 4 mths to worklife)
Time is 6 Mar 07. Recently spent alot of time on performances, movies, music etc. Last yr at Huayi Festival, i went to watch Fei Chang Ma Jiang (Mahjong), Cursive by Cloud Gate DT. This yr i went to watch An Lian Tao Hua Yuan and B.O.B The Final Cut.... Movies & DVD wise, i watched quite alot, did some catching up with the current/ past movies; Dreamgirls, Take The Lead, BoA Best of Soul concert, Luna Sea Final Act concert, Coyote Ugly. Did not watch The Protege by Andy Lau, Follow Law by Jack Neo, sianz....
But recently life is abit siao, kinda lost of direction liao, dunno what to do.... Last sem coming to an end, work life gonna start, i oso dunno now can do what... juz keep playing & playing but nothing concrete seems to be done.... Am i living my life the way it shld be? What exactly did i miss out?
Recently went to attend GE courses, realized tt i continue to learn alot, but OTOH, all these knowledge dunno got use or not lei.. Im happy learning it, but apparently its such a pity i got no opportunity to put these knowledge into use.... Shld i juz carry on like a clown, enjoying every moment & day of my life, but nothing concrete comes out of it, OR shld i go do something concrete out, but yet may not be enjoying the process though...?
How shld i live my life for the next coming 4 mths?
Time is early Mar, July start work.... Dance is coming to an end....
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