2010 Thoughts (Pre-Chingay, Pre-AHA)



Time is 22 Nov 2010. This year has been a turmoil year, think it will go even more so next year. When was the last time I ever smiled or had a happy day? Think these days wont come anytime soon. Life is going rough n i guess I have to bide my time....



Much has happened in the past yr & in summary, I kinda suck at it... haiz.... =(



Just some thots on the "DANCE Life" i have. Recently things werent smooth for the troupe and for the events DI is involved in. So in summary, Its hard to maintain a troupe. So wat can really be done is a real headache. But having watched a number of performances this yr by diff arts groups in SG, I realized a few things. (Though I already did, but let's pen it down this time).



Apparently, or Actually, Many of the ppl in SG, they simply wish to work with willing parties. I believe many of the Directors / Choreographers, will haf an ideal team which they wanna work with. But end of the day, I believe they will rather work with some1 less capable but More Willing than some1 who is more capable but less Willing & less Commited.



Sometimes I wonder why DI is always the troupe tt ends up in a half-past-six manner? Is it cos Lao Shi is too nice? Or issit becos Its too easy to join this troupe? There r no barriers to entry?

Next, talking abt LIFE itself, my life is in a mess n im still swimming, haven reach any shore yet... Dunno what lies ahead, n haf to hang on by myself w/o any support, n storms & waves will keep coming at ME from time to time. Tt's the painful thing. All those comparisons nv fail to kill me once in a while..... =(

Im Dumbfounded for this entry, let it end here....

ENDLESS PAIN

Learning & Enhancing all the way

Well, time is 14 Oct 2010, which is sometime since I stepped on the new journey... Think things are really going tough for me and All i can really really say is: Thank you to both of u for being supportive n didnt give me a dressing down though i know u all aren't really feeling good abt this.

But I guess fate & destiny plays a part? I will work hard and push on and ensure that I can answer back to you both.... Well, i guess at the end of the day, its also the lifestyle im looking at? So if tt's the case, I reall cant blame any1 when i step into my own future.... I guess I will really haf to walk this alone into the Wild, into the Unknown.......


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Have the drive & determination, But can tt suffice??

Im such an idiot....

WITH THANKS TO ALL I HAVE

Time is 10 Aug 2010, life is hard. I just caught the movie - Street Dance. Well, after so long / so much of hardship in my life so far, I hereby Thank every1 and every single Almighty being up there for all the gifts I have so far in my life. I know my life is damn hard, But I sincerely thank for what I haf.

Till date, I have a bunch of friends, a bunch of dance mates, v good Dance teachers/Mentors who gave me opportunities, taught me lots, guidance and alot alot alot more... Last but not least, thank you to this pair of Parents who though dislike what Im doing now, but Thank you for NOT stopping me... Regardless of what happens in the future, I vow that I will Nv nv nv nv ever blame u both. I understand tt its your Love & Heartache for me that resulted in this, I am really grateful and thankful for it. Thank you for being so tolerant even though u both really dislike it alot deep down in ur heart.

I would like to apologise for making u both disappointed and Im really kinda sorry tt u both haf raised such CMI sons. I sincerely hope to make u both proud someday, whereby u both can in the eyes of the Society, finally manage to "be proud" of your son, i.e. ME.

Having watched Street Dance today has made me once again be thankful for what i currently can enjoy / have. Thank u Lao Shi for giving me so much guidance and opportunities in Dance. Thank you for doing so much such that we dont even have to worry abt issues such as rehearsal space.

Life is abt hardship and I sincerely dunno why I am heading towards now, But haiz...... Still thank every1 who has appeared in my life and made a difference. Thanks lots =)

Half-Alive, Half Dead

DANCE CLASS - DANCE FLOW

Time is 6-Jun-2010, ytd was the 1st lesson with an extended class. Many came to join in the fun. Its really great to see many ppl interested in dancing and honing their skills. Something worth mentioning last night was tt I recorded down e dance steps for Last Night for documentation purposes. I did e routine with Vanessa, took a look at e video, was really Happy how much she grew over the years.
The level of satisfaction I think no one can understand except those being dance teachers. =)
Can really see her improvements and tt she starting to shine & glow n is independent liao. There is e level of assurance I can get where I know IF i work with her in the future, I can dun need worry abt her, she can definitely master e steps to a certain satisfaction level for performance.

Actually to my honest feelings, other than Vanessa, Vivian is the other person whom I would like to see her glow & shine de. Unfortuantely, she wont be joining in the lessons so its really a pity. I cant deny the fact tt I have a lost feeling tt a team will haf 1 less dancer, but since there's nothing I can do abt it, I can only keep on searching for new unpolished diamonds from other sch and start the process of polishing them all over again. I do hope by EOY or Mar-2011, I will be able to form a Cast tt is capable of handling a choreography which even I will find challenging myself de.... =)

As at what I haf at hand today, I can only hope tt more ppl in e class will improve to e level of Vanessa for my item to be staged.
My probable list of shortlisted cast as at now stays at: Alyssa, Pei Xuan, Yueli, Yiyang, Joanne, Jinghui, Celia, Vanessa, Xinyu.
For Modern dance, hopefully these ppl can make e list by EOY: Vivian, Lina, Joey, Siqi, Xuezhen.

Honestly, it wont be easy to stage e item if I cant find the correct ppl.
千里马固然需要伯乐, 但是伯乐何尝不想遇到千里马?

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重新出发

Time is 6 Jun 2010, things haf changed alot during the past 3 months. Im re-looking at the route I will take once again in my life. Things look unstable and I m fighting on in life. Just wanna jot down those few things in my life that happened over the past 3 months.

1) Choreographer with Lao Shi @ Resort World Sentosa for Voyage De La Vie
Feel v honoured to be part of this world-class production where I get the chance to direct and work with International stars from the world including acrobats from Cirque du Soleil. This has been the highest level of honour so far in my life that I get to choreograph/ direct artists. Alot of thanks to Lao Shi who gave me this opportunity.

2) Fok Kah Hon's wedding
My 1st time being a Brother for friend's wedding. Fun experience and got to meet up with lots of sec sch days. Well, this has been an electrifying experience. Why? Cos I managed to know how every1 is getting along in their life and really, every1 is going on with the "Routine" life. No offence to the "Routine" life but its really "duh!!!!"... This particular circle of frenz now weekends stay home sleep, even if go out, oso dun stay out late cos of Midnight cab charges etc. So Im like, wah sian, go out oso early go home sleep, the vibe is not there... =(

Sometimes though I wonder is it I too immature, tt's y keep on hanging ard young kids, like I CMI, but actually to be honest with my feelings, its really more fun to be hanging out with these young ppl. I sincerely would love to hang out with ppl of my age since e conversation topics r less kiddish, but there r no such available "frenz" who still lead this kind of life. Once caught in the routine life, its damn sian.... KH's wedding has given me another insight to how I want my life to be.... Its really v scary to know tt One's life will be changed like tt....

Some thoughts to be recorded in Memory

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男歌女唱 女歌男唱

Recently ever since Yang Zong Wei sang the male version of Xin Bu Liao Qing, this phenomenon has been ongoing. I kinda like this trend cos a different interpretation by the opposite sex will always bring a Different feel.

I hereby bring 2 MVs today, same song, diff version for passer-by of my blog.

Do feel free to comment. I personally prefer the female version.

Life recollection - 1

Time is March 2010. Recently haf been taking a break and haf some more free time on my hand.
Its really interesting tt I haf been going ard seeing all these things. Kinda lost / unknown in life now but then again, enjoying every single day and moment where I still can breathe the fresh air.

Watching the dancers ard learning how to dance, I once again acknowledge that coaching dance is really a fun & meaningful thing to do. =)

On a side note, last night met up with the clique again. Haha long time nv see every1 together at the same time le. Zhenyu, Zhiyan, Sam, Chee Hao, Daryl, Michelle, Celia, Vivian. Wei Hong, Kai wei and me joined them later. Was really in a surprised mode. Noted that the clique is really interesting. Standing from far away and while walking towards them, can really segment into a few categories: Poly/ JC students, Uni students, Dance instructors, Tai Tai.
Haha i sincerely noted 1 person who stands out among our whole clique. In terms of dress code (living standards / style), it was really outstanding amongst the rest. Haha, guess tt is wat i term as Difference in Class ba.... Really simialr to ancient times where peasants, scholars, aristocrats etc were divided....

From last night, it hit upon me that perhaps coming this May when I once again meet up with 4E2 NHSS students, I most probably will be the odd one out. Tt will be such a diff class where I most probably will see every1 as the "Corporate Class" and I am the "Free & Easy Class"... I guess living standards can also be segmented in this coming May's gathering ba.
Haha, every1 at the gathering will be at that "particular stage of life", but not me.... I will be perhaps just faraway....

Takes the hard knock again, Haiz....

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Rounds of training

Time is March 2010. Unknowingly, AHA has passed by for 4 years running. For 2010, if it will still be held, it will be the 5th year. Time has passed, I have been at it for 3 years? 1 with Juncheng & Joanna, 2nd with Xinyu, Van, Vivian, Ivy & CCHY dancers. 3rd with Yiyang, Joanne, Pei Xuan, Yueli, Alyssa, Celia, Van, Vivian, Yisong.

This year feel like coming back performance hence i started a training prog early for the ppl so tt eventually hopefully i will haf a pool of ppl to choose from for the YE event. Over these few rounds of training, I really got a bit worried... Haiz.... Is it cos the age gap too big? Hence they dun understand what im trying to get at? Really hope this year the cast will be super super GOOD!!! Then we can haf a fun year =) Hope some things will work out amidst all these training.

Time has passed, Life has gone on. Friends haf moved on to a next phase in life. Im still holding on.... I m the final one standing on tt road liao..... Can I really stage this item in the near future with an ideal cast?? Dunno......

Unfinished

1st Entry of 2010
(New insights to Life, New goals, new aims, new meaning in Life)

Time is 25 Feb 2010. The first entry of 2010 =) Cant believe i didnt post for so long. I guess work has made me quite sian over the past few months. So now tt everything is over, yeah!

Looking forward to a new start, a new beginning.

Well, Chingay 2010 is over, Edward Lam Dance Theatre's latest production : Man & Woman; War & Peace is also over. I had an enjoyable CNY. Now finally can settle down with my some time for myself to blog. =)

Wont blog abt Edward Lam's production simply becos it was too GOOD. Its so good i cant explain in words or summarise what are the interesting parts of the play. Cos the whole play consists of too many interesting things. But comparing this one to last yr's production: Design for Living. I prefer Design for Living cos i guess its more meaningful to me ba... Nvtheless, its still a v well done production. Look forward to next yr's one =)

Chingay 2010 was alright, a good experience. =)

Ok, now for the new beginning, as usual I will like to touch on DANCE. My fav topic. =)

Actually im really behaving like a kid, haiz... Dunno is good or not?????? My circle of frenz of my age are now all busy earning $$, getting married, buying houses & cars, landing themselves in debt, while Im still in touch with what is the latest in Kpop, How is Edward Lam's production, how to make UNI 2011 better etc..... Perhaps Im still not grown up, still always on DANCE....

Ok, recently i guess every1 who is in touch with e Entertainment world knows tt nowadays Dance steps for MVs shld be iconic and simple as possible. The craze started from Wonder Girls' Nobody, followed by SuJu - Sorry Sorry, then aft tt All Hell break loose. Every1 is doing it, regardless whether the artistes can dance or not. Brown Eyed Girls, Aft Sch, Girls Generation (SNSD), Shinee, and all the new kpop groups tt popped out from nowhere suddenly all follw suit. Sigh....

So, in my youtubing process, I have found 2 videos which I would like to share. These are the few artistes who know how to dance well + their MVs is the "old" kind of dance where steps r rather complicated compared to the current "ICONIC & SIMPLE" trend. Apparently these 2 artistes are doing quite well in Kpop now.
Wish to touch on 1 of the artistes - Son Dam Bi. Son Dam Bi has moved with e new trend, this MV is her 1st Single when she joined the industry, so it still followed e "old" trend. Managed to chance upon it, was taken back by her skills. =)

Apart from BoA, Stephanie from CSJH, Son Dam Bi is the 3rd female kpop artiste who has amazed me with her versatile skills.

SO here goes the video. Readers who chance upon my blog, do comment ya? =)

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因为我没有哭

以下的篇章是从 赖雅妍 的部落格 成篇拷贝过来, 并非我个人的作品。

一直都觉得自己很像大人
跌到了很痛但是我没有哭
直到转身后痛得掉了眼泪，
才发现。。。
我一点都不喜欢当大人。

大人常常被孩子不谅解，
因为直线看过去的世界，
不会了解弯弯曲曲的结，
想画一个拐弯抹角的圆,
只因为这样好像比较完美。

屁。。。
那弄得大人都好累好累

小时候妈妈说我哭得好丑,
从此觉得眼泪不是好东西。
再难过似乎都比丑好,
因此我不哭，也忍着不难过。
这样应该就会比较漂亮了。

长大以后发现会哭好像比较得意
女人哭了有人帮你拿东西
男人哭了被称做铁汉柔情
小孩哭了爸妈给你买玩具
老天哭了所有人都不快乐
眼泪变成一种说话的工具
也变成另一种战争的武器

等我老了眼泪就不再有价值,
何不把握当下现在就学会哭,
掉了眼泪心里就会比较舒服，
哭完好入睡,
哭了比较楚楚可怜，
哭了,心里的重量就不会多,
可放下它, 也可吃掉它。

但可惜了,
因为我没有哭。
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我想赖雅妍的这篇，倒与我不谋而合。想想，我已有许久没落泪了，更别说哭。。。
日子久了，连哭的感觉都没有，何来的泪呢？
记得以前自己曾写过: 人，只会越来越麻木，最后到了欲哭无泪的地步。。。

其实，能哭的人是幸福的

终

Anyhow Arts 2009

YES!!! Time is 25 Dec 2009, Anyhow Arts 2009 has ended on 19 / 20 Dec at PA. This yr was a shiong yr. I did the programming all by myself, programme booklet with Zixiang, ticketing by myself, and I choreo 2 items, more than the usual. I even have to source for new concepts. I brought in a guitar duet this year, Genin & Chun Yong. 1 comment---> super shiong...


But now tt its over, Im really happy =) Special thanks here to Xi Ying Lao Shi & Mr Low, my 2 beloved teachers who have guided me and gave me so much room to grow. This year I was invited by Xi Ying Lao Shi to choreo a dance for the Southern Arts Society dance troupe. Thank you Xi Ying Lao Shi for giving me this opportunity. =) Then as usual, I choreo 1 dance for DI members, those who are willing to work with me, those who answered my Facebook "call" for dancers.



This year, my item is lyrical hip hop using Bleeding Love, with some other segments in between. Thanks to the dancers who danced in my item, Yiyang, Celia, Alyssa, Yueli, Peixuan, Yi Song, Joanne (who joined last min --- Haha, but still glad u could make it), and my last 2 dancers from previous year, Vanessa & Vivian. Thank you for your hard work, hope u all like the item, there's alot of details in the choreography to try to match every single word of the song. I hope u guys or even the audience was able to appreciate the beauty of this compatible matching choreography.



My item for Southern Arts is on Beauty. I picked up the idea from Perfect Cut, Channel U drama, and let the girls dance to the theme song by Shi Xin Hui. The dance piece is abt Beauty, Self-confidence, and other people's view / gaze.... To match to the meaning of the song, I had Hui wen wearing a mask, signifying her inferior complex, different from the norm of "Beauty" in society's eyes. Then there was this part where every1 freezed, and she walked ard them in envy, hoping to be like them. Then I added 1 part of lifting (which the audience is free to interpret in anyway), and ended off with Hui Wen taking off the Mask, and dancing again. This time, with her real appearance, and I used sign languages in the choreography, hoping to bring out a silent msg to the audience.

As per my dance synopsis; What is beauty? Self-confidence is then a Lady's best accessories. Beauty is decided by the Society, and any1 can nv catch up with Society's view of beauty. In ancient Greece, Ladies who are overweight & plump are considered beauty. In today's society, the hour-glass shape tt a lady shld haf is simply a norm set by society. Thus, beauty is nv ever defined. Self-confidence is then the best accessory any lady can have.


Well, for this year's AHA, my personal opinion what would be e best dance of e night would be tt dance by Crescent Girls dancers, dancing to Lao Shi's item. It was really well-choreo, and v site specific. It matched the evening, the ambience, the lighting. It was simply beautiful, practically Art in Motion. Saw alot of photographers taking photos during the dance, I guess the visual image of the dancers within the surrounding background is really a captivating image to capture.
Well done Girls.....=) Impressive is the word....

Next, as for my item, Love like Dust, Thank you the 9 dancers who danced in this item. I sincerely hope tt it was a nice collaboration and u all loved this item. Tt would be my most ultimate objective. =) Dance education is aft all what im looking at all along....

This year, Im really happy that I did so much, worked with so many diff ppl, and see so many new faces. I even managed to feature Genin & ChunYong for the pre-show segment, and many told me tt it was a good move to bring music into AHA 2009, giving it a new lease of life =).

Once again, Thank you Yiyang, Celia, Alyssa, Yueli, Peixuan, Yi Song, Joanne, Vanessa & Vivian. Like I said tt day, U guys did a great job and really Love u ppl. Esp the last encore dance for Yiyang w/o the audience, i think u all suddenly become stress-free and danced so well. Thank you Xi Ying Lao Shi, Mr Low for the wonderful opportunities.
To every1 who has worked along / with me for AHA 2009, thank you so much, you have given me memories to take along with when I grow old...

Zhongyi is still the same old Zhongyi.

This year marks the 10th anniversary since I graduated from NHSS.

Getting Re-started

Time is 25 Dec 09, I finally have the time to sit down and rest and spring-clean my room. The feeling of "cleaning" everything up is really good.... IT gives me a refreshing feeling, something like falling down and standing up again to re-start.

For not blogging so long (abt 6 months), is becos i was confused, re-thinking over the process whether I took the wrong step in life. Tt step i took.... It was brave, courageous u can say, but on the other hand, it can be viewed as Dumb, impractical, young & rash, not mature...

So how do YOU view it?? If there's an audience watching my life as a movie, how would they have viewed tt step i took? For the past 6 months i was confused... But aft AHA 09, aft talking to Lao Shi, I m all ready to go again...

Perhaps I am a person who is supposed to meet with setbacks & failures all the way, and to know how to handle them again & again is my destiny?? Resilience & Perseverenace is what i am named anyway. 仲毅, 取意自-----> 所有人之中 : 仲， 最有毅力的：毅

Anyway, Im enlightened by AHA 09, and Lao Shi, so once again (and I freaking mean AGAIN, so u can imagine how many times i FAILED in life already), Im starting out from zero and on a new path again. 我又再一次跌到了，我又必须再一次重新站起来。现在已有很多人跑在我的前面，我只有重新再起步。或许真的已比很多人迟，但是我还是会一步一步地一直往前走。。。

重新出发

A Catalogue of My essays:

Dear readers, those interested to read my essays, pls refer to the datelines and search thru my archieves to read them... Suggestion is to read from the oldest essays which i find are better done generally ...

Hope u all read when u are free, and do give comments everytime, i do come up with new essays every now and then, depends on whether i got ling gan or not.... =D

Date & Title:
12/07/05 - 钢琴与她
18/07/05 - 思念
23/07/05 - 孤单起飞
08/08/05 - 痛、苦、悲、绝
22/11/05 - 窗外雨滴
29/11/05 - 冰天雪地 - 心的接触
07/12/05 - 瞬间の永恒
26/12/05 - 无法习惯
18/02/06 - It's been raining since u left me
23/05/06 - 刺青
24/06/06 - 一个人生活
21/12/06 - When did your heart stop loving me?
28/12/07 - 遥远的她

*B4 every essay, there is a foreword, so if interested do read tt as well, it states how i got the ideas =)

JUMP - Korean Comic Martial Arts Perf

Woah! Time is 16 Sep 09. It has been 2 months since i last updated. Too busy to settle down and haf some time to myself. I think other than busy, i would say its also partly becos there is nothing WORTHY for me to blog abt. The recent feelings / thoughts i haf, ain't worth leaving them in my memories. I wouldnt want to have memories of those stuff when i re-read this blog yrs down the road.

But here i am, blogging again due to the perf i watched earlier last week. It was truly enjoyable. It was so much more enjoyable, then i begin to dislike many Singapore arts groups.
Watched JUMP at Esplanade on 13-Sep-09 with Xinyu, Jieling, Augustine etc. Lao Shi, Mei Man, Connie & Kai wei went too.

It was really a great show. Simple, straightforward, no frills, yet entertaining and engaging. Able to capture and lock in the attention of the audience. The martial arts part on using weapons werent that impressive, but the acrobatics part was superb. =) Though still fall short of my expectations cos i saw trailers before, some stuns in the trailer werent performed in SG tt day. I believe it is the original show in Korea would be much better.

Nvtheless, it was really still a great show. I believe it is my fortune to haf watched such a performance. After watching this performance, it once again made me refreshed myself, and clearly understood my objectives in dancing. =) It's good to haf such refresher course i would say, once in a while, whenever i get down.....

JUMP - the reassurance once again of why im doing what im doing all along.... Will continue to strive... In this world of ever-changing trends, one muz be clear of what one really likes, and really wanna do...

意犹未尽

Emperor's New Clothes @ Victoria Theatre 10-12 Jul'09

Time is 12-Jul-09, I just ended this 3 day concert with Singapore Hokkien Huay Kuan and my 4 month rehearsals with them...

This time this production really gave me another feeling of working with young ppl all over again.. Long time didnt feel this way le... =)

每次和热情的学生合作时，我其实真的很开心，也庆幸自己有这个机会认识他们。谢谢刘老师给我这个机会和这么棒的艺术工作者合作。《皇帝的新衣》所给我的回忆将会一直陪伴着我，真的很高兴认识其他充满热忱的艺术工作者。这次的演出又充实了我的生活。

心中的感动其实已非笔墨可形容，希望这次的体验会给我一个很好的冲刺。向创作之路前进，好好地构思，好好地策划，好好地编排，不忘临场变化，随机应变，创造新的东西。。。

待续

Even if the rain......

Even if the rain, even if the rain falls down...
Life is full of memories, we won't let them wash away
Even if the rain falls, even if the rain falls down...
The sun will always shine on you and me,
Even, even if the rain....


今天经过那个妳我曾经一起常去的地方，整个地方已和过往不一样 ,在那里我真的有事过境迁，人事已非的感觉。在回家的归途中, 熟悉的路途使我百感交集，回味无穷。一切一切的回忆或许妳已渐渐淡忘，但凄美的点点滴滴依然遗留在我内心世界的某一角落。

经过熟悉的地方,踏上熟悉的路途回家，这份感觉似曾相识。望着街灯与树木的飞逝，在苍穹底下，回忆陆陆续续地闪过我的脑海，凄美的过去遗留下的一丝甜蜜，淡淡的遗憾美。

我在那里随处逛逛，与无数陌生的身影擦肩而过, 没有任何一个熟悉的身影。
那地方已不再像从前，却仍然给我一丝丝的温暖。。。

回忆如今是我至今还执有的东西, 在未来漫长的岁月里, 不知是否会经得起时间无情的浪涛？？？
在我还没失去回忆之前，让我好好地回味一下吧。。。

Congrats to Crew 3047 - JJC Talentine 2009 Champions



Time is 26 May 2009. On 23 May 2009, JJC had a talentine competition held in NTU. Pei xuan, Alyssa, Hann Qian, Cheri, Chee Yew, Si Ian, Eugene formed a crew and asked me to help them choreo for this item. They call themselves crew 3047. And i was told that they name themselves 3047 in a JJC competition is becos, 3047 is the Sch code of NHHS when u sit for O levels as a NH student.. Haha LOL, diaozz...

Initially they juz practised as per normal, didnt know that they juz cruised through the audition, semi finals all the way till the finals. Then on Sat night when i was out, i received calls that informed me that these dancers not only won the Champions for the Dance Category ($500), they oso won the overall champion for the Talentine Competition ($1k), reapping $1.5k in total.
I was shocked... Haha

Am really happy for them that they won. Through this incident, what really made me happy is the 感动 feeling when i see ppl come together for a common cause and work towards tt cause collectively, and esp so when there is minimal conflict and super high synergy...

Really 感动, and i really like tt feeling...

Not easy to reach tt level woh, not only work towards common goal, muz satisfy condition of minimal conflict, super high synergy... I think Rugby and Basketball players can achieve tt. Even soccer i think its not really tt level yet. Dancers, i dunno, depends on who, where & wat event i suppose......................


I like this feeling of always being in touch with Dance. Its also v touching to see ppl still in touch with Dance. Many a times, aft ppl grad from NH, they leave NHDS, they nv look back and they give up dancing totally. It may be forced by circumstances but still its a really sad thing. Tt's y whenever i see ppl not giving up on Dance, i feel so happy. Its juz a kind of feeling though its none of my biz whether ppl carry on dancing or not, but it really strikes my mood (for a moment). I am in high spirits recently becos of you guys, becos of this proj...



On a side note, Eugene has really improved alot in dancing. Im really impressed by him this time rd choreographing this item for them. Back in NH, Eugene dun look enthu in dance, didnt expect him to turn out lidat today. Very impressed. This juz goes to show even more that, Dancing only juz started when those dancers leave NH. For those dancers in NH currrently who think tt they are already there, I feel so 可笑. The nv-ending journey of learning in Dance has only juz begun....

Happy to see ppl dancing, Sad to see ppl leaving dance

Happy to see ppl working hard, Sad to see ppl giving up their potential

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AM REALLY HAPPY FOR U ALL

舞蹈 时间 生命 生活



时间已进入2009年，生命进入另一个阶段。舞蹈的道路越来越难走，目标离我越来越远。自己本身也越来越累。进入2009年就代表我的舞蹈生命又进一步跨进了尾声。这一路走来，心力交瘁，而自己也搞得遍体鳞伤。我的生命之泉似乎快断了。

今年是2009年,刚好距离我生命中最开心的日子十年。整整十年，又是一个九头的年份。真的难以置信自己已经老了那么多。相信在未来的日子里,我会陆陆续续地再次体会这种感受吧！

1999年是特别的一年,也是千禧年的来临，一个很愉快的一年, 距离现在已十年。。。
快乐的时光总是只能在回忆里独自回味。。。

十年如一日

心星的泪光

时间是2009 4月4日。今天没什么事,傍晚才需要到福建会馆去彩排。所以在下午时,我竟然有时间看电视,哈哈。。。毫无目的的我就随意转台,结果看到了这部偶像剧。由关颖和言承旭主演；《心星的泪光》 这部偶像剧还挺不错，依然是爱情剧,但处理手法比较细腻，不会太做作。

如此细腻的手法来诠释爱情，我已许久没有看过了,或许是因为我根本已很久没看电视了。但是，我真的有被这部剧感动到,而我只看了今天一集。如果把整个剧看完,我不知自己会有何感触？

如此细腻的手法来诠释爱情，竟勾起了我对爱情的憧憬，不禁想起过往的种种。以前，一切是多么地单纯，简单的爱。今天的这部偶像剧不自觉地使我想起了妳。。。

爱情时常会变质，我的preference 还是纯真的爱情。因为不喜欢成人式太复杂化的爱情，太多的顾虑,太多的外来因素，太多的人物关系。常常有电视剧这么说道: 爱情是两个人的事,为何要牵扯这么多的人? 虽然这种说法在新加坡是不适当/ 不切实际的, 但我就是单纯地喜欢这种任性的理念。=）

爱情的憧憬
与妳共度的时光
所曾拥有的回忆
妳的离去
爱情的幻灭
再也见不到的身影
无情的雨
漫长的人生
晶莹的泪光
永恒的星星

夜 / 叶

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Time is 22/3/09. Was looking thru my stuff and tidying up my room, happened to see a piece of paper given to me by my GP teacher back in JC days. I remembered i kept it all along with me in my wallet back then. I remember the feeling when i received this piece of paper from my GP tutor. It's juz a encouragement quote which we always see on those posters / signs to motivate ppl moving on. But then i really like it. As the piece of paper now is like almost trash, i was wondering how can i KEEP this quote with me? Then i happened to think of blogging it down. The then almost torn piece of paper can rest in peace while its value is still embedded in my memories =)

Quote from Woodrow Wilson:
We grow great by Dreams. All big men are Dreamers. They see things in the soft haze of a spring day or in the red fire of a long winter's evening. Some of us let these great Dreams die, but others nourish and protect them.

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