一些由衷的感言
时间是27-10-08。其实我过得有点累。在面临自己的将来，我不知所措，很犹豫，很挣扎。经过了一个又一个的挫折，我虽没有完全放弃，却不得不承认我筋疲力尽。
值得一提的是最近遇见了他们。因为这一群年轻人，我的生活多了一些比数字更有意义的东西。谢谢你们！=）是你们让我有机会做自己真正想做的东西。我其实懂得很多工作以外的事，却从来只有少许机会一展所长。常跟朋友说，其实星期一至五，我是一个活死人。周末的时候，生命注入了生气，到了周日，一切又恢复往常。所以在一个星期里，我只活两天。
对于一直以来支持我的人，认同我在做的事情的人，以及承认我另一方面成就的人，我在此由衷地感谢你们。有几个人想在这里特别感谢他们；Kah Hon, Kenneth, Teddy, 老爸，老妈, 谢谢你们没有用世俗的眼光来评论我这一生的成就。Kah Hon, thanx for telling me everytime tt u respect me for my undying passion aft 12 years (to date), though i know u are then the really successful person in terms of financial position. Kenneth, thanx for giving me pointers everytime i face a delinma whether to proceed on with anything in my line. Though we are not in the same industry, but we can still claim tt its all creative work we are doing..... Thanx to Teddy, though u always say tt im zai but i know for sure, u are actually the zai person. I know u will definitely sore high someday in the corporate world.
老爸，老妈，谢谢你们没有因为我赚的钱不多而觉得我是没用的儿子。（或许你们有那么觉得，但我还是感谢你们没有阻止我做自己想做的事。）
至于你们这一群年轻人，真的很高兴遇见你们，也其实珍惜与你们度过的时光。你们在不知不觉中其实在我的生命中有留下一些脚印，不论未来如何，我会记得你们。 =）
Monday, October 27, 2008
Monday, October 06, 2008
Wedding at Marriot Hotel - 4-Oct-08
Concept of Multi - Intelligence
Time is 6-Oct-08. Just attended Samantha's Wedding on Sat. It was a nice experience. Finally my task is done, her wedding is over, i completed the dance =D. Well, though she nv visits this blog but all the Best wishes to her in her next phase of life..... =)
Having done the dance item for her at her wedding, it somehow reminded me of the concept of Multi-intelligence, a concept learnt during NTU times from the Module OB. Came back and looked thru my txtbk regarding this concept and felt like jotting everything down in this diary.
Under the framework of MI, there are 10 types of intelligence, as opposed to the orignal intelligence of only IQ (Which consists of Logical/Mathematical Int, and Verbal/Linguistic Int) and EQ (Emotional Int).
The 10 types are as follows with specific characteristics and some examples:
1) Logical/Mathematical Int - Processes thots thru Analytical, calculations etc - Albert Einstein
2) Verbal/Linguistic Int - Processes thru Language/ Words - Consultant Tom Peters
3) Interpersonal Int - Processes thru interaction, humour etc - Entertainer/ Magician
4) Intrapersonal Int- Thinks in quiet, goal orientated, independent - Business Tycoon Howard Hughes
5) Visual/ Spatical Int - Uses mental models, thinks 3D, pictures & visualizes - Architects
6) Musical Int - Sensitivity to pitch, melody, rhythm - Composers
7) Bodily & Kinesthetic Int - Physical movement, cycle-motor, processes by motion - Michael Jordan
8) Naturalist - Needs to be with/ survive in nature - Singer John Denver
9) Existential - (Nothing to do with religion) Knows why he/she is here in this world - Civil Rights Leader Martin Luther King
10) Emotional Int - Emotionally mature, reacts to emotions of self & others - Pacifist Leader Mohandas Gandhi
And most imptly, the concept of MI acknowledges that Int is not inborn and decided at birth but can be nutured....=)
So why after Sam's Wedding i will be reminded of the MI concept? Cos at the Wedding on Sat, the guests were impressed by the dance the bride & bridegroom danced to tt they asked who choreo the dance for them... So of cos, effectively the person is me la. The interesting thing to note abt is tt On tt night, When i saw them dance, I had the sense of achievement. Being to able to convert 2 adults from non-dancers with no musicality to Dancers who can actually perform in front of a huge audience, i really had a great sense of achievement. It reminded me of things such as Job Satisfaction. In my current job, im like a zombie with no job satisfaction everyday. But then it really surprised myself tt such a short item on a wedding can give me satisfaction. Its not a concert /watsoever, but then I still had tt feeling...
Its Amazing, issit it? The job tt feeds me & my family, dun get any satisfaction, but the activity tt doesnt generate any income for me gives me the most satisfaction... Diaozz right?
Actually if the concept of MI holds for human beings, then actually though i dun haf high IQ, my other level of Int are perhaps rather high... Perhaps a person's Int or even self-worth shldnt be decided on absolute things such as IQ. This brings me further to think, in current society, ppl judge status/achievement based on Financial position, issit v superficial? Eg. Wah he v successful leh, 30 yrs old can earn his 1st $1mil etc.
Actually, there is more to e evaluation of a person's Self-worthiness, aint it?
Sometimes i cant help but think, am i living in a screwed-up world? Cant the society be more adapting to ppl from diff professions, and yet give recognition? Haizz.....
Concept of Multi - Intelligence
Time is 6-Oct-08. Just attended Samantha's Wedding on Sat. It was a nice experience. Finally my task is done, her wedding is over, i completed the dance =D. Well, though she nv visits this blog but all the Best wishes to her in her next phase of life..... =)
Having done the dance item for her at her wedding, it somehow reminded me of the concept of Multi-intelligence, a concept learnt during NTU times from the Module OB. Came back and looked thru my txtbk regarding this concept and felt like jotting everything down in this diary.
Under the framework of MI, there are 10 types of intelligence, as opposed to the orignal intelligence of only IQ (Which consists of Logical/Mathematical Int, and Verbal/Linguistic Int) and EQ (Emotional Int).
The 10 types are as follows with specific characteristics and some examples:
1) Logical/Mathematical Int - Processes thots thru Analytical, calculations etc - Albert Einstein
2) Verbal/Linguistic Int - Processes thru Language/ Words - Consultant Tom Peters
3) Interpersonal Int - Processes thru interaction, humour etc - Entertainer/ Magician
4) Intrapersonal Int- Thinks in quiet, goal orientated, independent - Business Tycoon Howard Hughes
5) Visual/ Spatical Int - Uses mental models, thinks 3D, pictures & visualizes - Architects
6) Musical Int - Sensitivity to pitch, melody, rhythm - Composers
7) Bodily & Kinesthetic Int - Physical movement, cycle-motor, processes by motion - Michael Jordan
8) Naturalist - Needs to be with/ survive in nature - Singer John Denver
9) Existential - (Nothing to do with religion) Knows why he/she is here in this world - Civil Rights Leader Martin Luther King
10) Emotional Int - Emotionally mature, reacts to emotions of self & others - Pacifist Leader Mohandas Gandhi
And most imptly, the concept of MI acknowledges that Int is not inborn and decided at birth but can be nutured....=)
So why after Sam's Wedding i will be reminded of the MI concept? Cos at the Wedding on Sat, the guests were impressed by the dance the bride & bridegroom danced to tt they asked who choreo the dance for them... So of cos, effectively the person is me la. The interesting thing to note abt is tt On tt night, When i saw them dance, I had the sense of achievement. Being to able to convert 2 adults from non-dancers with no musicality to Dancers who can actually perform in front of a huge audience, i really had a great sense of achievement. It reminded me of things such as Job Satisfaction. In my current job, im like a zombie with no job satisfaction everyday. But then it really surprised myself tt such a short item on a wedding can give me satisfaction. Its not a concert /watsoever, but then I still had tt feeling...
Its Amazing, issit it? The job tt feeds me & my family, dun get any satisfaction, but the activity tt doesnt generate any income for me gives me the most satisfaction... Diaozz right?
Actually if the concept of MI holds for human beings, then actually though i dun haf high IQ, my other level of Int are perhaps rather high... Perhaps a person's Int or even self-worth shldnt be decided on absolute things such as IQ. This brings me further to think, in current society, ppl judge status/achievement based on Financial position, issit v superficial? Eg. Wah he v successful leh, 30 yrs old can earn his 1st $1mil etc.
Actually, there is more to e evaluation of a person's Self-worthiness, aint it?
Sometimes i cant help but think, am i living in a screwed-up world? Cant the society be more adapting to ppl from diff professions, and yet give recognition? Haizz.....
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Interesting Insight to the "Real" me
Did the quiz below and the results were as follows.. Well, all i could say is that its really quite interesting to know that im actually still ME, and not devoured by the society as at Today.. Perhaps many years later, i'll be devoured by Society but tt's all in the future, i'll nv know...
I recall the 2 months (Jun-Jul 07) where i did full-time dance, i was really HAPPY. Genuinely happy. Everyday v tired but then really happy. Also recall when i did the Dance project with Georgia earlier this year in May-08, Mum looked at me when i was having breakfast, and said: U seemed really Happy & Relaxed... To think tt u took Leave from work not to rest but u seemed really happy huh?
I guess that was really the genuine happiness i felt in Life ba....... I mean i really felt Alive then, and not doing work cos i had to do. I did what i really felt like & work was enjoyment at the same time... Of cos, i let it pass cos eventually i have to take care of family, contribute to family income etc. Nvtheless, i knew that was the "Real" me, and surprisingly, Mum noticed that too, during subtle times like "having breakfast"? I guess it was really shown on my face that Happiness is in my life and i enjoyed my work then.....
Having taken this test, i somehow feel that im really Still the "ME" that i all along thot i m... Im happy that im not yet devoured by the works of Society & harshness of life...
* Note: If readers intend to take this test, the best way is to ans the qtn by Instinct. Dun stop for a sec to use the brain to think.... My colleagues haf taken this test, some say its not accurate, i guess it really depends on what our sub-conscious think, and not our brain....
Did the quiz below and the results were as follows.. Well, all i could say is that its really quite interesting to know that im actually still ME, and not devoured by the society as at Today.. Perhaps many years later, i'll be devoured by Society but tt's all in the future, i'll nv know...
I recall the 2 months (Jun-Jul 07) where i did full-time dance, i was really HAPPY. Genuinely happy. Everyday v tired but then really happy. Also recall when i did the Dance project with Georgia earlier this year in May-08, Mum looked at me when i was having breakfast, and said: U seemed really Happy & Relaxed... To think tt u took Leave from work not to rest but u seemed really happy huh?
I guess that was really the genuine happiness i felt in Life ba....... I mean i really felt Alive then, and not doing work cos i had to do. I did what i really felt like & work was enjoyment at the same time... Of cos, i let it pass cos eventually i have to take care of family, contribute to family income etc. Nvtheless, i knew that was the "Real" me, and surprisingly, Mum noticed that too, during subtle times like "having breakfast"? I guess it was really shown on my face that Happiness is in my life and i enjoyed my work then.....
Having taken this test, i somehow feel that im really Still the "ME" that i all along thot i m... Im happy that im not yet devoured by the works of Society & harshness of life...
* Note: If readers intend to take this test, the best way is to ans the qtn by Instinct. Dun stop for a sec to use the brain to think.... My colleagues haf taken this test, some say its not accurate, i guess it really depends on what our sub-conscious think, and not our brain....
Still tt very Same Old Zhongyi 10 yrs ago
Interesting Insight to the "Real" me.....
Introduction
The Dewey Color System® is the world's first and only validated, color-based personality career testing instrument.
Based on our experience and your interests, your best suited occupations are listed below.
Best Occupational Category
You're a CREATOR
Key Words:Nonconforming, Impulsive, Expressive, Romantic, Intuitive, Sensitive, and Emotional
These original types place a high value on aesthetic qualities and have a great need for self-expression. They enjoy working independently, being creative, using their imagination, and constantly learning something new. Fields of interest are art, drama, music, and writing or places where they can express, assemble, or implement creative ideas.
CREATOR OCCUPATIONS
Suggested careers are Advertising Executive, Architect, Web Designer, Creative Director, Public Relations, Fine or Commercial Artist, Interior Decorator, Lawyer, Librarian, Musician, Reporter, Art Teacher, Broadcaster, Technical Writer, English Teacher, Architect, Photographer, Medical Illustrator, Corporate Trainer, Author, Editor, Landscape Architect, Exhibit Builder, and Package Designer.
CREATOR WORKPLACES
Consider workplaces where you can create and improve beauty and aesthetic qualities. Unstructured, flexible organizations that allow self-expression work best with your free-spirited nature.
Suggested Creator workplaces are advertising, public relations, and interior decorating firms; artistic studios, theaters and concert halls; institutions that teach crafts, universities, music, and dance schools. Other workplaces to consider are art institutes, museums, libraries, and galleries.
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You're a SOCIAL MANAGER
Key Words:Tactful, Cooperative, Generous, Understanding, Insightful, Friendly, and Cheerful
This very social type enjoys working in groups, sharing responsibilities, and being the center of attention. Fields of interest are instructing, helping, nurturing, care giving and instructing-especially young people. They discuss and consider feelings in order to solve problems, lead, direct, persuade, guide, organize and enlighten others.
http://www.careerpath.com/career-tests/colorcareercounselor.aspx
Introduction
The Dewey Color System® is the world's first and only validated, color-based personality career testing instrument.
Based on our experience and your interests, your best suited occupations are listed below.
Best Occupational Category
You're a CREATOR
Key Words:Nonconforming, Impulsive, Expressive, Romantic, Intuitive, Sensitive, and Emotional
These original types place a high value on aesthetic qualities and have a great need for self-expression. They enjoy working independently, being creative, using their imagination, and constantly learning something new. Fields of interest are art, drama, music, and writing or places where they can express, assemble, or implement creative ideas.
CREATOR OCCUPATIONS
Suggested careers are Advertising Executive, Architect, Web Designer, Creative Director, Public Relations, Fine or Commercial Artist, Interior Decorator, Lawyer, Librarian, Musician, Reporter, Art Teacher, Broadcaster, Technical Writer, English Teacher, Architect, Photographer, Medical Illustrator, Corporate Trainer, Author, Editor, Landscape Architect, Exhibit Builder, and Package Designer.
CREATOR WORKPLACES
Consider workplaces where you can create and improve beauty and aesthetic qualities. Unstructured, flexible organizations that allow self-expression work best with your free-spirited nature.
Suggested Creator workplaces are advertising, public relations, and interior decorating firms; artistic studios, theaters and concert halls; institutions that teach crafts, universities, music, and dance schools. Other workplaces to consider are art institutes, museums, libraries, and galleries.
2nd Best Occupational Category
You're a SOCIAL MANAGER
Key Words:Tactful, Cooperative, Generous, Understanding, Insightful, Friendly, and Cheerful
This very social type enjoys working in groups, sharing responsibilities, and being the center of attention. Fields of interest are instructing, helping, nurturing, care giving and instructing-especially young people. They discuss and consider feelings in order to solve problems, lead, direct, persuade, guide, organize and enlighten others.
http://www.careerpath.com/career-tests/colorcareercounselor.aspx
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Sunday, August 24, 2008
星光二班 - 魏如昀 - 音乐的热忱
喜欢一样东西是因为有过人的成就，有人给予recognition，还是纯粹的热爱？
时间是2008年8月24日。今天在YOUTUBE游览了一下，忽然去看一看超级星光大道第二季。有一名参赛者引起了我的注意。她是魏如昀。看了她几次的比赛，我真的有一种莫名的感动。因此决定写这一篇entry，更决定以她的名字来命名。
从预赛到前六强在她被淘汰之前，她大多数在PK时都是演唱自己创作的歌曲。她的词曲都作得不错。的确，她的声音不是绝无仅有的，也不是星光二班里最出类拔萃的。她在前六强的时候被淘汰了，而之后她也自动从败部复活赛中抽离，不愿再进入冠军赛。
让我感动的是她的辛路历程，她从来没有放弃创作，也一直持续地创作，即使没被星探挖掘，她的热忱还是没有退减。即使比赛没有得奖，没有成为超级星光大道的前三名，但这些都没有影响她个人对音乐的热忱。这是让我最感动的。。。这真的是纯粹对音乐的热爱，对于有没有外在的赞赏，还是一直努力不懈。我真的很感动，其实看着她的辛路历程，我除了说感动，我找不到更好的形容词。因为身为一名歌手，她的声音或许不够特别，但也就因为这样，我才感受到她的热忱。她不是因为在音乐有很高的成就/得过很多奖，才爱上音乐的。相反的，她没得到什么奖，但还是不停地创作，作自己喜欢的东西，这才是纯真的热忱。
很多人喜欢一样东西是因为他们在方面有成就/有外在的赞赏。但试想想，若没有这一切成就，人是否还会喜欢那个活动？多少人还会像魏如昀一样，做自己喜欢的事，根本不管有没有外在的recognition？ 喜欢舞蹈的人是因为自己会跳舞才喜欢舞蹈，还是纯粹喜欢“正在跳舞”的那个过程/感觉？我清楚地知道我为什么喜欢舞蹈。
正因为如此，我在DI已经很久没有十足地开心过了。。。我已很久没有跳舞跳到一身疲惫，一身是汗。最后一次那么感觉到是2007年，《你我他》和Jeffrey一起跳舞，那个时候就真的辛苦，真的努力过，奋斗过。。。
看着魏如昀对音乐的热爱，我会引以为榜样。我会持续这一段路，即使会一个人走下去，我都会一直坚持着。要学会懂得不要在乎别人的眼光，不要在乎是否有外在的赞赏，即使自己的舞蹈作品没有被发布的机会，我都会坚持创作下去。。。
喜欢一样东西是因为有过人的成就，有人给予recognition，还是纯粹的热爱？
时间是2008年8月24日。今天在YOUTUBE游览了一下，忽然去看一看超级星光大道第二季。有一名参赛者引起了我的注意。她是魏如昀。看了她几次的比赛，我真的有一种莫名的感动。因此决定写这一篇entry，更决定以她的名字来命名。
从预赛到前六强在她被淘汰之前，她大多数在PK时都是演唱自己创作的歌曲。她的词曲都作得不错。的确，她的声音不是绝无仅有的，也不是星光二班里最出类拔萃的。她在前六强的时候被淘汰了，而之后她也自动从败部复活赛中抽离，不愿再进入冠军赛。
让我感动的是她的辛路历程，她从来没有放弃创作，也一直持续地创作，即使没被星探挖掘，她的热忱还是没有退减。即使比赛没有得奖，没有成为超级星光大道的前三名，但这些都没有影响她个人对音乐的热忱。这是让我最感动的。。。这真的是纯粹对音乐的热爱，对于有没有外在的赞赏，还是一直努力不懈。我真的很感动，其实看着她的辛路历程，我除了说感动，我找不到更好的形容词。因为身为一名歌手，她的声音或许不够特别，但也就因为这样，我才感受到她的热忱。她不是因为在音乐有很高的成就/得过很多奖，才爱上音乐的。相反的，她没得到什么奖，但还是不停地创作，作自己喜欢的东西，这才是纯真的热忱。
很多人喜欢一样东西是因为他们在方面有成就/有外在的赞赏。但试想想，若没有这一切成就，人是否还会喜欢那个活动？多少人还会像魏如昀一样，做自己喜欢的事，根本不管有没有外在的recognition？ 喜欢舞蹈的人是因为自己会跳舞才喜欢舞蹈，还是纯粹喜欢“正在跳舞”的那个过程/感觉？我清楚地知道我为什么喜欢舞蹈。
正因为如此，我在DI已经很久没有十足地开心过了。。。我已很久没有跳舞跳到一身疲惫，一身是汗。最后一次那么感觉到是2007年，《你我他》和Jeffrey一起跳舞，那个时候就真的辛苦，真的努力过，奋斗过。。。
看着魏如昀对音乐的热爱，我会引以为榜样。我会持续这一段路，即使会一个人走下去，我都会一直坚持着。要学会懂得不要在乎别人的眼光，不要在乎是否有外在的赞赏，即使自己的舞蹈作品没有被发布的机会，我都会坚持创作下去。。。
感动
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Time, Tasks, Friends & Fate
Time is 19-Aug-08, Recently every night when im alone, i start to feel tt time is passing by me damn freaking fast, almost at lightning speed... I got really not enough of time to match all the tasks at hand.... Tasks come in all forms & patterns, for instance, my room has been piled up with "chicken" files from audit and its so freakin messy. Didnt haf time to clean up my room & table, didnt have time to do a dance properly for Anyhow art, not to mention the other dance. Plus, no time to look for other career options in life. So many tasks to do, yet time is not enough.
Friends & Fate? Recently due to busy schedules betw all circles of frenz, I didnt get to meet up with them for quite a long time le. Passed by Sam's blog and the song "Tian Gao Di Hou" was played on his blog. Really brings back lots of memories with my diff groups of frenz. Now, all these frenz have entered diff phases of their lives and we are almost all mutually exclusive le. Not blaming anything, this is juz Fate. Time passes, Life goes on, and Frenz move on, all controlled/ influenced by Fate.
So its really kinda saddening, esp when im typing this every entry, the song by Shin - Tian Gao Di Hou is being played....
Careerwise, some frenz are leaving the firm soon/ intending to leave within next few mths, im like...... a little sad? Cos in a way, im happy for them tt they leave this place in search of a better life that they deserve. Really happy that they are leaving for better prospects, but at the same time, i get a tinch of sourness in my heart. Its like....... I dun really know alot of ppl in the firm now.... as in really know, not hi-bye only, then now these ppl leaving only leaves me knowing less ppl in my firm.... =(
Then at e same time seeing these frenz leave, i wonder how i will be like in 1 yr's time? Cos i really dun haf much time left le, and e career options are damn limited, which is oso a task actually, to look for alternative careers.
Back to Sq 1, lost at crossroads as to where to go, what to do......
Amidst all these, i haf not even brought in DI's O/S issues to settle. Though i know DI's issues cannot settle one, and its not worth it oso, but then diaozz.... Im still the Chairman anyway, though i think aft this yr, i can pass on le...
So ya, the pt is : So many tasks, so little time, so many frenz no longer there, all part of Fate?
Even tired cannot describe the current me, perhaps overwhelmed & flooded is more appropriate, to the extent im a little disorientated and blur now........ =(
Time is 19-Aug-08, Recently every night when im alone, i start to feel tt time is passing by me damn freaking fast, almost at lightning speed... I got really not enough of time to match all the tasks at hand.... Tasks come in all forms & patterns, for instance, my room has been piled up with "chicken" files from audit and its so freakin messy. Didnt haf time to clean up my room & table, didnt have time to do a dance properly for Anyhow art, not to mention the other dance. Plus, no time to look for other career options in life. So many tasks to do, yet time is not enough.
Friends & Fate? Recently due to busy schedules betw all circles of frenz, I didnt get to meet up with them for quite a long time le. Passed by Sam's blog and the song "Tian Gao Di Hou" was played on his blog. Really brings back lots of memories with my diff groups of frenz. Now, all these frenz have entered diff phases of their lives and we are almost all mutually exclusive le. Not blaming anything, this is juz Fate. Time passes, Life goes on, and Frenz move on, all controlled/ influenced by Fate.
So its really kinda saddening, esp when im typing this every entry, the song by Shin - Tian Gao Di Hou is being played....
Careerwise, some frenz are leaving the firm soon/ intending to leave within next few mths, im like...... a little sad? Cos in a way, im happy for them tt they leave this place in search of a better life that they deserve. Really happy that they are leaving for better prospects, but at the same time, i get a tinch of sourness in my heart. Its like....... I dun really know alot of ppl in the firm now.... as in really know, not hi-bye only, then now these ppl leaving only leaves me knowing less ppl in my firm.... =(
Then at e same time seeing these frenz leave, i wonder how i will be like in 1 yr's time? Cos i really dun haf much time left le, and e career options are damn limited, which is oso a task actually, to look for alternative careers.
Back to Sq 1, lost at crossroads as to where to go, what to do......
Amidst all these, i haf not even brought in DI's O/S issues to settle. Though i know DI's issues cannot settle one, and its not worth it oso, but then diaozz.... Im still the Chairman anyway, though i think aft this yr, i can pass on le...
So ya, the pt is : So many tasks, so little time, so many frenz no longer there, all part of Fate?
Even tired cannot describe the current me, perhaps overwhelmed & flooded is more appropriate, to the extent im a little disorientated and blur now........ =(
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
你我他
今天是七月三十日2008年，晴。
晚上在家没什么事做，思考年底《随艺》的表演，我应该编些什么？灵感都不在，结果选择拿《2007你我他》的录影来看。这还是我第一次以观众的角色来观看自己的作品。时间过去了，其实连我也不记得自己编了什么。结果今夜以观众的角色来看自己的作品，真的别有一番风味。
我第一次这么看这个作品才觉得：喔！这个作品真的是有深度，是经过深思设计的。。。
有这种感觉，连我自己都感到兴奋开心。因为以编导的角色来看自己的作品，当然知道自己的作品在讲什么。但是，过了一年，连我自己都忘了时，再来看这作品，仍发现这作品有深度，那种兴奋的感觉非笔墨可形容。
其中的舞蹈动作以及我编排的手语，我已经忘了那个MESSAGE 了，但还是感受到作品的深度及内涵，我真的对这作品感到满意。没有满分，因为我觉得自己的音乐手法还是算粗糙，但对于作品的构思以及编排，还算满意。
值得一提的是，当我作品中的舞蹈员在诠释那个MESSAGE时，他们出奇地整齐，给我这个观众一种很庄严，淡淡哀伤，一点愤世嫉俗的感觉----一种无声的反抗。那个感觉HIT到了！当然，舞蹈方面不整齐，但无所谓，因为我知道在窄小的空间跳舞，他们不习惯，亦不自然，所以没关系。
由于到了最后我仍想不起MESSAGE到底是什么，结果去翻查自己的文件，幸好我有储存在电脑里。哈哈！终于让我找到了。这个作品我真的觉得不错，有深度，有内涵，有讯息，结构也不错。
在这里，想对那些替这作品当舞蹈员的朋友说：“谢谢你们所有人！希望你们在过程中有所收获，亦希望你们仍喜欢（或有喜欢过）这作品。希望这作品在你们的回忆中留下脚步。因为，我忘了那个MESSAGE的手语了，我想我或许再排不出同样的作品了。这是我舞蹈生涯中，有别于我过往的作品。”
今天的心情还不错。。。。。。
今天是七月三十日2008年，晴。
晚上在家没什么事做，思考年底《随艺》的表演，我应该编些什么？灵感都不在，结果选择拿《2007你我他》的录影来看。这还是我第一次以观众的角色来观看自己的作品。时间过去了，其实连我也不记得自己编了什么。结果今夜以观众的角色来看自己的作品，真的别有一番风味。
我第一次这么看这个作品才觉得：喔！这个作品真的是有深度，是经过深思设计的。。。
有这种感觉，连我自己都感到兴奋开心。因为以编导的角色来看自己的作品，当然知道自己的作品在讲什么。但是，过了一年，连我自己都忘了时，再来看这作品，仍发现这作品有深度，那种兴奋的感觉非笔墨可形容。
其中的舞蹈动作以及我编排的手语，我已经忘了那个MESSAGE 了，但还是感受到作品的深度及内涵，我真的对这作品感到满意。没有满分，因为我觉得自己的音乐手法还是算粗糙，但对于作品的构思以及编排，还算满意。
值得一提的是，当我作品中的舞蹈员在诠释那个MESSAGE时，他们出奇地整齐，给我这个观众一种很庄严，淡淡哀伤，一点愤世嫉俗的感觉----一种无声的反抗。那个感觉HIT到了！当然，舞蹈方面不整齐，但无所谓，因为我知道在窄小的空间跳舞，他们不习惯，亦不自然，所以没关系。
由于到了最后我仍想不起MESSAGE到底是什么，结果去翻查自己的文件，幸好我有储存在电脑里。哈哈！终于让我找到了。这个作品我真的觉得不错，有深度，有内涵，有讯息，结构也不错。
在这里，想对那些替这作品当舞蹈员的朋友说：“谢谢你们所有人！希望你们在过程中有所收获，亦希望你们仍喜欢（或有喜欢过）这作品。希望这作品在你们的回忆中留下脚步。因为，我忘了那个MESSAGE的手语了，我想我或许再排不出同样的作品了。这是我舞蹈生涯中，有别于我过往的作品。”
今天的心情还不错。。。。。。
Sunday, July 27, 2008
执迷不悔
词/王菲 曲/袁惟仁
这一次我执著面对 任性地沉醉
我并不在乎 这是错还是对
就算是深陷 我不顾一切
就算是执迷~ 我也执迷不悔
别说我应该放弃 应该睁开眼
我用我的心 去看~去感觉
你并不是我 又怎能了解
就算是执迷~ 就让我执迷不悔
我不是你们想得如此完美
我承认有时也会辨不清真伪
并非我不愿意走出迷堆
只是这一次这次是我自己而不是谁
(Chorus)
要我用谁的心去体会
真真切切的感受周围
就算痛苦 就算是泪
也是属於我的伤悲
我还能用谁的心去体会
真真切切地感受周围
就算疲倦 就算是累只能执迷~而不悔
Dedicated to all the Ppl in the world who are in dilemma...
词/王菲 曲/袁惟仁
这一次我执著面对 任性地沉醉
我并不在乎 这是错还是对
就算是深陷 我不顾一切
就算是执迷~ 我也执迷不悔
别说我应该放弃 应该睁开眼
我用我的心 去看~去感觉
你并不是我 又怎能了解
就算是执迷~ 就让我执迷不悔
我不是你们想得如此完美
我承认有时也会辨不清真伪
并非我不愿意走出迷堆
只是这一次这次是我自己而不是谁
(Chorus)
要我用谁的心去体会
真真切切的感受周围
就算痛苦 就算是泪
也是属於我的伤悲
我还能用谁的心去体会
真真切切地感受周围
就算疲倦 就算是累只能执迷~而不悔
Dedicated to all the Ppl in the world who are in dilemma...
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
无题
今天突然心血来潮，突如其来想写一些东西。甚至想任性地牺牲自己的睡眠时间，只不过为了写一些看似没意义的篇章。
天空开始下起雨来，在一切空荡荡的生活里，时间继续流失。星空不再耀眼。
钢琴上的键盘，一黑一白，虽衬托了彼此，却无法融合在一起。
落叶飘落在残秋，淡淡萧索。秋风徐徐吹过，寒冷的冬天即将来临。
钢琴上的白玫瑰依然冷艳，却包含了浓浓的爱意。
在冬天里，雪花纷飞，在早晨的阳光下瞬间溶化。。。
当杯里的酒洒了出来，染红了白玫瑰
在过去的每一个季节里，我仍然没有忘记。。。
酒能消愁？借酒消愁，愁更愁。抽刀断水，水更流。
每个季节陆续过去，我仍在远处等待，等待一个不会出现的倩影。。。
泪水流向海，形成一片泪海
在等待的日子里，孤独寂寞不断在生命中徘徊。。。
泪海传来一波一波的旋律，形成悲哀恋歌
泪海传来一波一波的旋律，形成悲哀恋歌
徘徊在过去的记忆里，即使到了曲终人散的时候，我仍独自在街头。。。
岁月无情地流逝，事过境迁，我却仍留在煎熬的旋涡中。。。
耳边响起一首熟悉的歌：“爱是女尔眼里的一首情歌，轻扬着飘于旋律。。。。”
Sunday, July 13, 2008
前浪，后浪，中流砥柱
时间过得真快，转眼已是2008年，其实我也老大不小了。在过去的岁月里，我花了很多时间在舞蹈上，无奈因环境和生活的经济关系，我在舞蹈方面到今时今日还是一事无成。最近几年，我加倍的努力，却总是不得要领。或许真如KENNETH 所说，因为别人还年轻，所以他们不认真对待 “自己的兴趣”- “舞蹈，音乐等”，但是像我和他这种“老人”，要追求自己的兴趣的时间已所剩无几。他这几年来也是勤奋努力，而他的乐团的专辑也即将完成。而与他比较，我本人，在舞蹈界翻番滚滚了这么多年，始终一事无成。心寒。。。
最近，知道几个好朋友，也是越来越累，以往对舞蹈的热诚也逐渐褪去，究竟有什么可以让朋友再组织起来？或许这样东西已不存在，或许只剩下我这个老人，在用剩余的时间去追求自己的兴趣。。。但是，放弃是可悲的，我的人生已经够悲哀了，不想连追求兴趣的权利都没有。
从现在算起，我应该还剩五年的时间，亦是最后的挣扎了，因为我知道再过五年，环境会比现在更残，机会也会比现在少。
回顾过去，我一直是一个人，走在这舞蹈道路上。在2003年，机遇巧合之下，遇上了一批年轻人，舞蹈的道路还OK，但五年后的今天，大家都越来越忙，所以一切都不了了之。前浪已将逐渐退去，却不见后浪接踵而来。在过去的岁月里，犹如中流砥柱的我，跟不少代的舞者一起合作过，然而，这一次真的是“当前浪退去后，已再也见不到后浪”。人数，技巧，合作关系，团结性，对舞蹈的执着，一切都大不如前。。。连人数都已寥寥可数，其余更不足为论。
其实跟KENNETH比起来，我真的是毫无成就，仿佛这几年来都在原地踏步。。。
在剩余的岁月里，我应该做些什么呢？时间仿佛如流沙般从我手中流走。。。
时间过得真快，转眼已是2008年，其实我也老大不小了。在过去的岁月里，我花了很多时间在舞蹈上，无奈因环境和生活的经济关系，我在舞蹈方面到今时今日还是一事无成。最近几年，我加倍的努力，却总是不得要领。或许真如KENNETH 所说，因为别人还年轻，所以他们不认真对待 “自己的兴趣”- “舞蹈，音乐等”，但是像我和他这种“老人”，要追求自己的兴趣的时间已所剩无几。他这几年来也是勤奋努力，而他的乐团的专辑也即将完成。而与他比较，我本人，在舞蹈界翻番滚滚了这么多年，始终一事无成。心寒。。。
最近，知道几个好朋友，也是越来越累，以往对舞蹈的热诚也逐渐褪去，究竟有什么可以让朋友再组织起来？或许这样东西已不存在，或许只剩下我这个老人，在用剩余的时间去追求自己的兴趣。。。但是，放弃是可悲的，我的人生已经够悲哀了，不想连追求兴趣的权利都没有。
从现在算起，我应该还剩五年的时间，亦是最后的挣扎了，因为我知道再过五年，环境会比现在更残，机会也会比现在少。
回顾过去，我一直是一个人，走在这舞蹈道路上。在2003年，机遇巧合之下，遇上了一批年轻人，舞蹈的道路还OK，但五年后的今天，大家都越来越忙，所以一切都不了了之。前浪已将逐渐退去，却不见后浪接踵而来。在过去的岁月里，犹如中流砥柱的我，跟不少代的舞者一起合作过，然而，这一次真的是“当前浪退去后，已再也见不到后浪”。人数，技巧，合作关系，团结性，对舞蹈的执着，一切都大不如前。。。连人数都已寥寥可数，其余更不足为论。
其实跟KENNETH比起来，我真的是毫无成就，仿佛这几年来都在原地踏步。。。
在剩余的岁月里，我应该做些什么呢？时间仿佛如流沙般从我手中流走。。。
不知所措 等待
Sunday, July 06, 2008
A Fresh Start
Well, 1 year has passed and due to all the happenings in NDP 08, everything takes a new beginning.... Let's have a fresh start again, in Dance, and in Life/ Career....
After so much talk with Mr Low and others, decided to let it go, and let things have a new fresh start... Shall move on loh....
Let's carry on from here.... Time is 06-Jul-08, the last few weeks b4 NDP, and aft tt, all will end... =) Then shall resume the busy schedule i had along... Its fun planning for Samantha's Wedding...
This week although i on TOIL, but super lots of things to do ah...
To draft up the outline for Georgia & Mann Weng and still got to pass the disc to Sabrina, hopefully i can fork out time to meet her, that is....
To format my super lag laptop, i think muz revamp the whole laptop... Haizz...
Then the NDP Media Preview already take up 2 days of my time le,
not to mention on Wed i still gotta go back with Diana to client's place to work... Diaozz, can u imagine? Working when on TOIL? But bo bian, better do it this week if not next week when im back to work, i will have super lots of backlogs to clear... Nbz....
All in All, everything is a fresh start.... Let's finish all the stuff this week.... =)
Well, 1 year has passed and due to all the happenings in NDP 08, everything takes a new beginning.... Let's have a fresh start again, in Dance, and in Life/ Career....
After so much talk with Mr Low and others, decided to let it go, and let things have a new fresh start... Shall move on loh....
Let's carry on from here.... Time is 06-Jul-08, the last few weeks b4 NDP, and aft tt, all will end... =) Then shall resume the busy schedule i had along... Its fun planning for Samantha's Wedding...
This week although i on TOIL, but super lots of things to do ah...
To draft up the outline for Georgia & Mann Weng and still got to pass the disc to Sabrina, hopefully i can fork out time to meet her, that is....
To format my super lag laptop, i think muz revamp the whole laptop... Haizz...
Then the NDP Media Preview already take up 2 days of my time le,
not to mention on Wed i still gotta go back with Diana to client's place to work... Diaozz, can u imagine? Working when on TOIL? But bo bian, better do it this week if not next week when im back to work, i will have super lots of backlogs to clear... Nbz....
All in All, everything is a fresh start.... Let's finish all the stuff this week.... =)
Monday, June 02, 2008
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Dancing with Heart
Time is 25 May 2008. Well, this 1 week was really fruitful for me. If there is really Destiny, i thank you for giving me this opportunity for this 1 week of happenings. Im really happy this week, enjoyed myself alot, oso satisfied with myself for the end result. =)
Finally finished the dance project (16 May - 23 May 2008) with Mann Weng & Georgia, it was a fruitful project and i truly enjoyed myself. I oso dunno how this chance came abt but i sincerely thank Destiny for letting me meet this rare opportunity. =)
Actually it was really tiring for me thru out this wk to have to sweat it out for 5 hrs everyday but its really enjoyable. To be able to dance with them, its really damn fun. I have learnt much and understood even more than previously abt how things really work in the dance arena...
Contrary to what i saw outside regarding the enthusiasm of other dancers, whenever i look back at DIY, i feel really sad..... Ever since DI changed to DIY, nothing has improved much. Not tt we are not trying hard enough, juz tt cos ppl are all part-timers, yes i do understand. But then, its still disappointing actually but then unless we undergo an overhaul, i seriously dunno how to handle this appropriately yet. I definitely have my own methods & ideals but then DIY is not my troupe, so i shant fall into this pitfall and do everything i want. I shall juz play by ear and assist and help whoever needs my help. The rest of the ppl, is deemed non-existent.
Nvtheless, i will try my very best to continue dancing.... =)
I sincerely hope, wish, pray that more dance projects of similar nature will come along my way... Dancing with Heart.....
Frenz/ Readers out there who guessed or knew what dilemma i was in previously, this is it... Whether to take leave to do dance =) For frenz who really supported me thru out the entire course of action, thanx lots!!! Really thank you!!!
Time is 25 May 2008. Well, this 1 week was really fruitful for me. If there is really Destiny, i thank you for giving me this opportunity for this 1 week of happenings. Im really happy this week, enjoyed myself alot, oso satisfied with myself for the end result. =)
Finally finished the dance project (16 May - 23 May 2008) with Mann Weng & Georgia, it was a fruitful project and i truly enjoyed myself. I oso dunno how this chance came abt but i sincerely thank Destiny for letting me meet this rare opportunity. =)
Actually it was really tiring for me thru out this wk to have to sweat it out for 5 hrs everyday but its really enjoyable. To be able to dance with them, its really damn fun. I have learnt much and understood even more than previously abt how things really work in the dance arena...
Contrary to what i saw outside regarding the enthusiasm of other dancers, whenever i look back at DIY, i feel really sad..... Ever since DI changed to DIY, nothing has improved much. Not tt we are not trying hard enough, juz tt cos ppl are all part-timers, yes i do understand. But then, its still disappointing actually but then unless we undergo an overhaul, i seriously dunno how to handle this appropriately yet. I definitely have my own methods & ideals but then DIY is not my troupe, so i shant fall into this pitfall and do everything i want. I shall juz play by ear and assist and help whoever needs my help. The rest of the ppl, is deemed non-existent.
Nvtheless, i will try my very best to continue dancing.... =)
I sincerely hope, wish, pray that more dance projects of similar nature will come along my way... Dancing with Heart.....
Frenz/ Readers out there who guessed or knew what dilemma i was in previously, this is it... Whether to take leave to do dance =) For frenz who really supported me thru out the entire course of action, thanx lots!!! Really thank you!!!
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Sunday, April 27, 2008
黑白之恋
白, 纯洁的象征,天使的代表色彩,具有光明的代表性。
黑，充满神秘感的色彩，黑暗使者/魔鬼的代表色彩，具有黑暗的代表性。
偏偏人类喜欢黑暗的一面，或许因为黑的神秘，黑的诱惑，黑带来的一种叛逆，与白的一种与众不同。
然而，我觉得黑与白搭配时却是世上最美的颜色（也可算完美的结合），亦是我个人的最爱。钢琴的黑白键盘，白色衬衫配搭黑色领带，黑色衬衫配搭白色领带，白纸黑字，甚至连太极图阴阳都有黑白的搭配。
白色的雪飘落在雪原上，遇到阳光随即溶化，让人感到温馨，一丝的遗憾美。
黑暗的苍穹，使得繁星点点的夜晚分外迷人。
雪白亮丽的肌肤，秀长柔顺的头发。
冰冷的双唇，一双漆黑却又亮如寒星的眼睛。
纯洁的爱情，随着不同层次的欲望以及不满足，逐渐染上黑色污点。
原本的罪恶，因一时的善念，黑色的纸张点染上白色的纯真。
充满愤世嫉俗的音乐，因钢琴声的洗涤，音调虽还是黯然，却变得柔和，带着惆怅哀伤，催人泪下。。。
黑暗的人会因某人所带来的光明，而照亮整个世界。
一杯纯净的水，若加了黑色染料，随即成了漆黑一团
黑色卡片，用白色字眼，总显得特别突出。
纯白之恋，会是我这辈子的最爱。。。。
天使与魔鬼，光明与黑暗，纯洁与神秘，我偏向哪一方呢？
白, 纯洁的象征,天使的代表色彩,具有光明的代表性。
黑，充满神秘感的色彩，黑暗使者/魔鬼的代表色彩，具有黑暗的代表性。
偏偏人类喜欢黑暗的一面，或许因为黑的神秘，黑的诱惑，黑带来的一种叛逆，与白的一种与众不同。
然而，我觉得黑与白搭配时却是世上最美的颜色（也可算完美的结合），亦是我个人的最爱。钢琴的黑白键盘，白色衬衫配搭黑色领带，黑色衬衫配搭白色领带，白纸黑字，甚至连太极图阴阳都有黑白的搭配。
白色的雪飘落在雪原上，遇到阳光随即溶化，让人感到温馨，一丝的遗憾美。
黑暗的苍穹，使得繁星点点的夜晚分外迷人。
雪白亮丽的肌肤，秀长柔顺的头发。
冰冷的双唇，一双漆黑却又亮如寒星的眼睛。
纯洁的爱情，随着不同层次的欲望以及不满足，逐渐染上黑色污点。
原本的罪恶，因一时的善念，黑色的纸张点染上白色的纯真。
充满愤世嫉俗的音乐，因钢琴声的洗涤，音调虽还是黯然，却变得柔和，带着惆怅哀伤，催人泪下。。。
黑暗的人会因某人所带来的光明，而照亮整个世界。
一杯纯净的水，若加了黑色染料，随即成了漆黑一团
黑色卡片，用白色字眼，总显得特别突出。
纯白之恋，会是我这辈子的最爱。。。。
天使与魔鬼，光明与黑暗，纯洁与神秘，我偏向哪一方呢？
Monday, April 14, 2008
Life in Singapore - Low period in My Life
Time now is 14-apr-08, on the low period in my life.... Had a talk with mother today, then she complained & cried abt Bro how come still doing tt MLM, and tt family income is at a real low now, lowest ever since the family started... And tt Father is an old man living on his remaining CPF for the next 30 yrs to come, so family savings is going rock bottom.
Was thinking thru all these and concluded, life in Singapore is getting F*** tough... My life has now hit a low period. Though one of the frenz (Yiming) has texted me, saying that we gotta hang on when its the low period, well honestly, my life has been in the low period since 2003, and is still there now. It has met with freaking many setbacks and here i am, still hanging in there.
Really tired, but will nv give up hanging there, cos giving up means i commit suicide to end my life. But then, I will nv commit suicide....
The quote from Takashi Sorimachi's GTO: To commit suicide is a coward's action, it takes more courage and strength to carry on living and go thru the setbacks. Hencewise, i F***ing will nv commit suicide. I only hope (everyday) tt I meet up with a car accident and suffer a fatal death. Not a partial paralyzed person pls... Anyway, all these are crap la...
Come to think of it, i oso dunno how i survived thru out the years. Since 2003, my life has hit a low and everytime i thought that it was the lowest, it nv was. It juz kept going on, and i keep pushing myself to carry on "on the pretext" that this is the worst le, nothing can be worst. And yet something worse comes along =(
After my enlightment trip from Taiwan in 06 with Weiming & Teddy, I came back a happy person. Even tt, it flunctuates ard a level slightly above depression level from 06-08, until NOW, when my company and me is at a standstill. So now Im risking all i have. Actually from a 3rd person's POV, im being too silly and unrealistic. But then, like i mentioned to Kenneth, In Singapore, there is 2 type of ppl; The ppl who choose the secure route; the ppl who choose the "deemed unrealistic" route by the society. So Im not making a "correct" decision, Im juz making my decision. In the end, may I be the one who suffer all the consequences.
Been mentally preparing myself for the disastrous consequences these days, i think life is such tt i cannot click with those secure ppl lah...
On a side note, Marcus Foo is leaving for America le, going there for auditions to enter US Dance Companies i think... but anyway all the best to him, afterall he is from a well-to-do family, so no harm trying when young, besides, he has the talent.
Many years have passed and i know many ppl in this world have given up their passion/interests in some way or another juz to secure life in Singapore. Han Qiang, Yonghao & gang, All my seniors from DI / NHSS, Mr Low (who is the best, managed to achieve a well-balanced 50%-50%), Even ppl like Weiyang's father. His father is a SWO in Armour, but who actually knows, he was ex-national team gymnast? U see, so many ppl ard gave up, which is the one stuborn reason why i dun want to fully give up. Im not going into it fully, juz wanna maintain a healthy % of tt in my life. Why is my job making it so F***ing hard for me?
My Life is so hard to control....
Dear frenz/ readers out there, if u are one of those who standby my decision no matter what i do; then this msg below is addressed to you =)
Thank you so much for believing in me, and choosing to ignore those "norm views" by the Society. Thanks to those who believe in my other talents, those who know tt i not only simply know Auditing & numbers....
Time now is 14-apr-08, on the low period in my life.... Had a talk with mother today, then she complained & cried abt Bro how come still doing tt MLM, and tt family income is at a real low now, lowest ever since the family started... And tt Father is an old man living on his remaining CPF for the next 30 yrs to come, so family savings is going rock bottom.
Was thinking thru all these and concluded, life in Singapore is getting F*** tough... My life has now hit a low period. Though one of the frenz (Yiming) has texted me, saying that we gotta hang on when its the low period, well honestly, my life has been in the low period since 2003, and is still there now. It has met with freaking many setbacks and here i am, still hanging in there.
Really tired, but will nv give up hanging there, cos giving up means i commit suicide to end my life. But then, I will nv commit suicide....
The quote from Takashi Sorimachi's GTO: To commit suicide is a coward's action, it takes more courage and strength to carry on living and go thru the setbacks. Hencewise, i F***ing will nv commit suicide. I only hope (everyday) tt I meet up with a car accident and suffer a fatal death. Not a partial paralyzed person pls... Anyway, all these are crap la...
Come to think of it, i oso dunno how i survived thru out the years. Since 2003, my life has hit a low and everytime i thought that it was the lowest, it nv was. It juz kept going on, and i keep pushing myself to carry on "on the pretext" that this is the worst le, nothing can be worst. And yet something worse comes along =(
After my enlightment trip from Taiwan in 06 with Weiming & Teddy, I came back a happy person. Even tt, it flunctuates ard a level slightly above depression level from 06-08, until NOW, when my company and me is at a standstill. So now Im risking all i have. Actually from a 3rd person's POV, im being too silly and unrealistic. But then, like i mentioned to Kenneth, In Singapore, there is 2 type of ppl; The ppl who choose the secure route; the ppl who choose the "deemed unrealistic" route by the society. So Im not making a "correct" decision, Im juz making my decision. In the end, may I be the one who suffer all the consequences.
Been mentally preparing myself for the disastrous consequences these days, i think life is such tt i cannot click with those secure ppl lah...
On a side note, Marcus Foo is leaving for America le, going there for auditions to enter US Dance Companies i think... but anyway all the best to him, afterall he is from a well-to-do family, so no harm trying when young, besides, he has the talent.
Many years have passed and i know many ppl in this world have given up their passion/interests in some way or another juz to secure life in Singapore. Han Qiang, Yonghao & gang, All my seniors from DI / NHSS, Mr Low (who is the best, managed to achieve a well-balanced 50%-50%), Even ppl like Weiyang's father. His father is a SWO in Armour, but who actually knows, he was ex-national team gymnast? U see, so many ppl ard gave up, which is the one stuborn reason why i dun want to fully give up. Im not going into it fully, juz wanna maintain a healthy % of tt in my life. Why is my job making it so F***ing hard for me?
My Life is so hard to control....
Dear frenz/ readers out there, if u are one of those who standby my decision no matter what i do; then this msg below is addressed to you =)
Thank you so much for believing in me, and choosing to ignore those "norm views" by the Society. Thanks to those who believe in my other talents, those who know tt i not only simply know Auditing & numbers....
End of Entry
Monday, April 07, 2008
Funeral Wake
Back from a Funeral Wake. Actually is Bao Shun Lao Shi's dad who passed away. Then almost the CDAA committee was there juz now, had a short chat, got to update some stuff regarding the Finance of CDAA, and any outstanding matters. After that, ppl left le...
Hence wise, here back i m at home, update some of my work. All i wish to say is: Tired & Fatigue.. Usually i dun blog abt everyday stuff in my blog cos i said, this is a paperless collection of my memories, so tt when im old and read back, i can relive my memories. I dun like to blog abt everyday trival stuff which has no meaning....
But i chose to blog today/ right now becos... The 2 things i wish to blog in this entry is juz:
1) Fatigue and Tiredness... If there are frenz out there, pls continue to support me, there is a need to carry on. Though NDP really take up too much time and resources, admin etc....
2) I Miss You.................
Im so tired, i wish to fall.....
Back from a Funeral Wake. Actually is Bao Shun Lao Shi's dad who passed away. Then almost the CDAA committee was there juz now, had a short chat, got to update some stuff regarding the Finance of CDAA, and any outstanding matters. After that, ppl left le...
Hence wise, here back i m at home, update some of my work. All i wish to say is: Tired & Fatigue.. Usually i dun blog abt everyday stuff in my blog cos i said, this is a paperless collection of my memories, so tt when im old and read back, i can relive my memories. I dun like to blog abt everyday trival stuff which has no meaning....
But i chose to blog today/ right now becos... The 2 things i wish to blog in this entry is juz:
1) Fatigue and Tiredness... If there are frenz out there, pls continue to support me, there is a need to carry on. Though NDP really take up too much time and resources, admin etc....
2) I Miss You.................
Im so tired, i wish to fall.....
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Busy Weekend
This weekend was the one with Good-Fri, so i had a long weekend. It was really busy and enjoyable. Thanx so much Sam for everything u organized. Well, i think Zhenyu/Sam mentioned tt we are getting old, hence less happening? Hmmm, i think it may be true but then less happening doesnt mean less enjoyable? i Still kinda enjoyed myself, the quietness, the clamness and most of all, the chance to get away from work.... (partially only la, in the end still end up working for a short while).
Juz returned from PA- DIY not long ago, wah piang the pracitice is really shiong.. shall continue this type of prac till we get back the stamina & skill. Then again, i wish tt the ppl there can work on their showmanship leh... but all these push back till the opportunity is right ba.... Ok, tml still gotta work so i shall stop blogging le, v tired..
But i still wish to say: This weekend was an enjoyable one for me..... Both the fri, sat & sun...
Thank you frenz out there, u all are really great!!!!
This weekend was the one with Good-Fri, so i had a long weekend. It was really busy and enjoyable. Thanx so much Sam for everything u organized. Well, i think Zhenyu/Sam mentioned tt we are getting old, hence less happening? Hmmm, i think it may be true but then less happening doesnt mean less enjoyable? i Still kinda enjoyed myself, the quietness, the clamness and most of all, the chance to get away from work.... (partially only la, in the end still end up working for a short while).
Juz returned from PA- DIY not long ago, wah piang the pracitice is really shiong.. shall continue this type of prac till we get back the stamina & skill. Then again, i wish tt the ppl there can work on their showmanship leh... but all these push back till the opportunity is right ba.... Ok, tml still gotta work so i shall stop blogging le, v tired..
But i still wish to say: This weekend was an enjoyable one for me..... Both the fri, sat & sun...
Thank you frenz out there, u all are really great!!!!
End of entry (1)
Thursday, March 06, 2008
Audit Peak...
Ha, guess what's the time now? N i just reached home, finished bathing... didnt feel like sleeping anyway abt 3 hrs later i gotta wake up go work again... This is life of an auditor la.... Though i not everyday work till this late but yup, this is the type of life i'll have to live with for the next few years....=(
So quiet at this moment, the wind breezes pass my room, im listening to my blog song... Everything seems so peaceful... Its really nice, too bad it gonna end in 3 hrs where i gotta work again, and the working life starts once again, with no rest for ppl till u drop sick.. Which i really saw so many of my colleagues take sick leave and try to siam the peak. Anyway, its no use la, the best is to use Reservist to siam the peak... Confirmed can one, cos private sector dun dare to go against government anyway... =p
Life's hard but then again, cos i work so late, i return home late, i witness the quietness and peace of the midnight... So cold, i yearn for a hug....
Ha, guess what's the time now? N i just reached home, finished bathing... didnt feel like sleeping anyway abt 3 hrs later i gotta wake up go work again... This is life of an auditor la.... Though i not everyday work till this late but yup, this is the type of life i'll have to live with for the next few years....=(
So quiet at this moment, the wind breezes pass my room, im listening to my blog song... Everything seems so peaceful... Its really nice, too bad it gonna end in 3 hrs where i gotta work again, and the working life starts once again, with no rest for ppl till u drop sick.. Which i really saw so many of my colleagues take sick leave and try to siam the peak. Anyway, its no use la, the best is to use Reservist to siam the peak... Confirmed can one, cos private sector dun dare to go against government anyway... =p
Life's hard but then again, cos i work so late, i return home late, i witness the quietness and peace of the midnight... So cold, i yearn for a hug....
Late night
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