Some Ppl remain unchanged deep down inside

Well, today went to Shi Jian Ju Chang(Theatre Practice) with Mr Low.. Saw the full-time professionals practise, had a practise session with them, interacted a little here & there... Still as entered previously, this collaboration with Shi Jian is 4 the opening of the new drama centre.. The perf is at Nov'05 & yup, many ppl in DI nv participate... So today me & Mr Low there seeing them, we talked a little here & there...

Thru tonight's conversation, i m v glad to know tt Mr Low was still the instructor i knew when i was a sec student... Yes, when i returned to DI/NHDS to help in 2003, i got kinda shocked by Mr Low's deviation in acceptance of students' standard... (Refer to entry titled One of my likes: dancing) And came SYF 2005, he again didnt put the students thru e similar hell-training i went thru as a sec student.. I was surprized, though i could understand why he didnt.. Yes, simply becos nowadays the students r diff from the days when i was a student.. So teaching method muz vary, treatment oso muz vary...
So in all these highlights, i can accept this situation juz tt i m still surprized...
However, after tonight i will not be surprized anymore...
The content of our conversation is approximately as follows:

I had problems looking 4 ppl to participate in this Nov'05 perf with Shi Jian.. Mr Low said tt he long knew tt this would be the case.. He knew the character of his students v well, their pattern..
So he knew tt he would get such a poor response from his students.. He thinks tt this is oso a golden opportunity for us to learn as much as possible from all these full-time professionals.. Hence, he encourages/hopes his students would participate actively but yeah, he already knew this wouldnt be e case.. So eventually, he ended off our conversation with this phrase, it's so familiar, i long time nv hear him say liao, ever since i graduated..
"Whatever they benefit from all these exp/teachings/skills, its theirs to keep 4 life, not mine.. If they dun appreciate it, so be it..."
In Chinese, " Lian Cheng/ Xue Dao de dong xi shi ta men de, bu shi wo de"

Wooh... I really missed this phrase from Mr Low man... He long time nv say this type of words liao... Moreover, simply becos he knew the current students' pattern, tt's y he changed his teaching methods/ standard deviation.. However, deep down inside, he is still the teacher i knew in the past... So basically the reason why there was a deviation in acceptance of standard was becos e students were not as enthu/ passionate/ hardworking.. He would push for them to reach their potential if they themselves wanted to maximise their potential too.. But since they relac here relac there, okie lor, then like tt will do...
So, actually this is how Mr Low has changed/modified his attitude towards students over the years ever since i graduated, not tt he has changed/ tt he lower his own expectations..
I got to know tt actually b4 DI, he had already started a dance troupe (so-called DI Generation 1 maybe) in his younger dayz... But becos of his members oso like present ones, wanna come dun come, always late, so he disbanded it... Few years later when he met HanQiang/Guang Ming/ Yong Hao/ Zhizhong, then he decided to restart a new troupe again.. I'll nv know, maybe even b4 tt, his expectations were higher? Then after this disband incident, he already had lowered his expectations of members a little? Till my batch, he lower somemore? Then till today, he juz let it be? But deep inside, his very OWN expectations nv change at all?

I'll nv know but at least i can assure myself I tried my very best... Wonder how NHDS ppl will respond to this news if they knew e history of DI? Maybe they juz cant be bothered..
Anyway, this conversation tonight really made me realize tt some ppl juz remain unchanged deep down inside...
Well, i sincerely oso wish to remain 'myself' when i grow old & mix into the society.. I now learnt tt i can modify the way i do things but as long as deep down inside i dun change, it's alright, i still remain true to myself.. Seems easy, but i shall know how hard it is to remain true when i step into society few yrs later from now...

Bottomline: Things may change, ppl ard me may change, environment may change, but some ppl remained unchanged deep down inside.. Till today, i m still fortunately the same Zhongyi since 1999 deep down inside, even though some may not be able to see it on the surface... I may or may not change (regardless willingly/ unwillingly) in the future, but i know tt today, as of now, i m happy with my current personality...

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