Taiwan Trip (Part 2)

Well, for part 2 of the entry, i simply wish to jot down where i went during the 6 day trip. Strictly speaking, its a 5 day trip lah, cos last day was nothing, i think juz queueing up for S.H.E qian chang hui, then went to this v nice restaurant called Coke Forest, ie. Coca Cola Forest lah, serving food equivalent to Swensen's or Breko etc.

So lets start from Day 1

After reaching Taipei and settling at the hotel, it was already night time. So we took there Kuai Tie (our MRT equi) to Shi Da Night Market. Had lots of food there, something worth mentioning is the Dessert there, yup the ice kachang kinda dessert. Fen Yuan Dou Hua (AKA Bubble Tea Pearls + Dou Hua) is something u gotta try, =) though i had even better deserts at i think Rao He Jie Night Market (siao liao, start to forget liao) better jot down everything b4 i suffer from STM.....

Day 2

Wah, shiong this day is damn shiong.... Went to Yang Ming Shan National Park. In the end becos we took a diff bus and landed on the other side of the hill, we went up from west to the sub-peak (note: is sub-peak hor, didnt even go to peak, cos too shiong) and came down from the east... End up like Chiong Sua, back to army days... Haha, was a great exp, but i think no more next time... hahaha.... really lah, the feeling like army, gotta water break, take rest etc. cannot one shot finish the whole trip... Shiong =p

Aft tt, we went Dan Shui & Yu ren Harbour, haha... That was where i got my most prized item in this whole trip... All my doraemon soft toys, not available in Singapore one... Hahaha, bought so many of them... Haha and now tt im back, i kinda regret didnt buy more.. Was afraid kanna scolded by parents 4 spending on these type of things, but in the end, Haha, they loved toys so much, they ask me why nv buy More? hahaha, so happy....
Oh then at Yu ren Harbour, it was v nice & romantic, too bad no girlfriend, if not it would have served a v meaningful memory. Went to the Lovers' bridge, scenery is so nice....

Lastly went over to Shi Lin Night Market... Wah piang, come to think of it, we so zai lor, one day go 4 places.... Hahaha... Shi Lin Night market was good, got so many shops and food, but we didnt haf enough time, so in end we went back there again on i think the 4th day... Haha

Day 3

Haha damn shiok, this was the best day/ best place i went this time... Went to Jiu Fen and Ji Long Miao Kou. Haha Jiu Fen was really fun & peaceful & calming... We went there walked ard, and most imptly, we went to Chinese Tea House, the tea, ambience, scenery was totally perfect. & i muz emphasize: The Yu Yuan (Yam Balls) Dessert is like so nice lor... Haha, thinking of it makes me hungry again =p
After a long day, we ended up at Ji Long Miao Kou... Wahaha, dun ask me what i had for dinner.. All i can say is tt its a sumptous meal much cheaper than in Singapore, but still its a little unappetitizing... =p

Day 4

Day 4 nothing special, was a shopping day. Went to the CKS Memorial Hall but aft tt it was all shopping. like i said, me & frenz went back to Shi Lin to shop, and we finally got to try the XL size Chicken Cutlet for only S$2.50. So damn cheap & nice.... Delicious Sia....

Day 5

We ended up at Wu Fen Pu & Rao He Jie Night Market... Wu Fen Pu is the Bugis Street of Singapore? The fashion sense there is quite zai, even if u dun buy anything (highly unlikely though) u really get to learn how to match ur clothes (if u dunno how to play mix & match), juz by looking at the shops' displays. Even for dancer like me, i get to learn how to design clothings for stage purposes, not only everyday dressing... This simply shows tt Taiwanese dress more elaborately than Singaporeans, the fashion there is much more interesting... =)
Rao He Jie Night Market, whats worth mentioning is again Dessert & one more Zai shop than our Singapore $1 shop.
Dessert serving is scary lor, i had Glass Jelly+Dou Hua+Yu Yuan. In the end, i think the auntie used half a cube of ICE for my bowl... Siao, damn big ah... Hahaha....
Oh then shop, pls lah, what is $1 shop man? There the shop is selling off all things such as bigs, wallets and other misc stuff like what u see in Singapore $1 shop for juz $10 NT which equates to S$0.50. Madness right? Me & frenz see liao oso stunned... =p

Okie written so much, i think readers oso sian, so i shall not indulge in my Taiwan trip thingy. Jotted all these down juz to remind myself where i went... Aft all the events i did, i can recall with the help of all those photos taken, so yup, tt's all... =)

Next entry i may then add my comments/feelings/thots/interesting events on taiwan trip =)

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Taiwan Trip (part 1)

Time is 31 July 2006, i returned from taiwan yesterday, first trip overseas with frenz. Its oso my first trip to taiwan. Within the 6 day 5 night trip, its a rush hence we only limited our tour to Taipei, hence to be strictly specific, i only toured Taipei, but its really great.

For a bumpkin like me, who nv went for backpac tours b4, this was a good exp. I managed to see how things were like in Taiwan, how others live their lives, how that w/o luxury goods, a life could still be fulfiling. I think what i gained most from this trip is tt i now can view things in a more different way, and thereby live a more fulfiling life w/o too much unhappiness. Looking ard Taiwan, i realize tt life is simply L.I.F.E, Living Is Fruitful Enough, i came up with tt on my own. It doesn't sound stupid to me, becos cost of living and style of life is so diff in other countries, i got to realize & exp that life in Singapore is too complicated, a simple life may be interesting as well.... Thereby, Living Is Fruitful Enough, as long as there is life, then it is already a fruitful journey.

Life is such, i am really happy for this taiwan trip, cos i somehow get to understand and get over some things which i all along couldnt in the past. Of cos in the near future, i believe those dead knots in my life will keep recurring and make me think thru again & again, but i m sure, with this entry, it can remind me of what i saw in Taiwan, {the lifestyle, the culture etc}, so tt i will be more appreciative and satisfied with my life. =)

With tt, i end off this entry with special thanx to Teddy, Weiming & Huifang. Thanx for making this trip possible though it started out as a joke/ casual remark. =)

End of Part 1

Nice & True song

Well, readers, long time nv blog liao, this is the first time i m blogging ever since my PA ended.
Time has passed, these 10 weeks i oso dunno how i survive them. Back to my entries, i shall blog more often now.

Time is 20 July 2006, few days b4 i leaving for taiwan, abit moody recently, heard this song from the radio, found the lyrics v meaningful & true, most impt, its so real! For my colleague in Bensyl, Alex; he juz broke up with his gf, immediately after he returned from a Hongkong overseas trip. Its really a tragedy to me, go company holiday trip, come back girlfriend say break off..... =( Whats more the trip was only 4 days only, over the weekends only, and this type of things can happen....
Really sad for him =(

So i listen to this song, and i found it so true, so real, so nice...
Touching....
Why things so sian? Ppl ard me all got relationship problems recently =( Its so depressing to see everyone so sorrowful... Life seems like no meaning.....

Well Ppl, enough said, all i can say abt relationships is that: Do cherish whatever u haf at that point of time... Enjoy this song, the lyrics are below... A song by Lin JJ

歌曲：原来

词:张思尔 林秋离曲:林俊杰

街灯绊住我眼前
下一步
拉长的影子
嘲弄的回顾
电话亭仍留着你的话
一句话掉一滴泪
今晚的我会是如何入睡

原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语
我不懂得如何更爱你
影子讽刺地跟着我难分难离

原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己
你收的干净
我也会不留一点痕迹

说故事也要像是真的
可是别触动那些回忆
今夜你说了最后一句
一句话掉一滴泪
看来今晚的我很难入睡

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一个人生活 (Foreword)

A short essay has been produced =) This essay maybe not so well-done but becos i dun wanna repeat too much things tt haf already appeared in my previous essays, so yup, i omitted quite lots of stuff in this new essay. But the new thing abt this essay is the inclusion of the english words. Yup the words aren't meant to be read like a story, in fact, it should be read in the form of a Rap. Yes!! Rap.... Haha, didnt know i could oso come up with such stuff....=p

Dear readers, u all can try out the rap, but pls adjust ur Tempo, this is not the kind of rap u hear in hard-core hip hop songs. An adjustable tempo would be something like tt of Jay Chou's Fa Ru Xue, the part where the song abt to end, yup tt kind of a tempo... Another suitable tempo may be tt of Energy's Mou Nian Mou Yue Mou Yi Tian.

Dunno how the rap sounds to u ppl, but it seems okay to me lah, when i tried out a little, got rhythm lei, but anyway first try, so yup, do give a little comments, Thanks lots to all =)

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一个人生活

凌晨时分，疲惫的身躯拖着沉重的脚步，一步步走向那熟悉的房子。一栋被开启的房子，飘逸着某人遗留下的香味。卸下沉重的包袱，我躺在沙发上，回想起那甜美的笑容，聆听着正在播放的演奏曲；Canon. 这首曲子依然继续播放着，我解开领带，脱掉长袖上衣。真可笑，我其实不适合穿长袖上衣、打领带，却还是选择了一份必须如此穿着的工作。人生想必就是如此无奈吧！就象不论思念有多深，在远方的某一个人亦不会感应到吧？

走进浴室，看到镜子里的我，我却认不出那就是我。热水的蒸气在镜子上凝结成水，随着地心吸引力往下流，在白茫茫的朦胧中，我仿佛见到那熟悉的身影。后知后觉，我知道那个人是不会出现的。没有她的日子，这间被开启的房子显得很空洞，我的生活亦失去了色彩。镜子里的那个人仿佛就像个折翼的堕落天使。。。

原来要从天堂坠落是这么一回事。在这孤寂的夜里，陪伴着我的只有那架点唱机。穿着白色衬衫，懒散地躺在沙发上，疲惫却毫无睡意。手里的那杯红酒还没喝完，音乐也还没停止。繁忙的工作只为了填满内心深处的孤寂，单独地活着，仿佛天地间再也没有任何事和我有关。思念能否飞越海洋？杯子被倒翻，杯里的红酒流了出来，渗透了白色衬衫，看起来就像是性命垂危的伤者，奄奄一息；就让我沉沦于深海，犹如堕落天使沉沦于地狱。。。

凌晨即将结束，曙光渐显时，又将会是忙碌的一天，而当我回到这间房子时，一切都会重复，直至她回来，而那时候到底。。。

Every night i stay up in the lonely night,
looking into the sky, wishing u were by my side.
Baby, will u please come back, my love.....

Where are u tonight? I really wish to hold u tight.
The days without you, i start to breakdown and cry....

Every night i've been living without a heart,
hoping that Heaven don't tear us apart,
Till the end of time, Loving you isn't a crime...

An entry Tribute to my fellow frenz

Time is June 06, time has passed lots, its been 3 yrs ever since Shin-13 ppl grad from NHSS. Time really pass damn fast huh, I can really look back to the time when we ppl worry for NHDS in SYF 05, then we were at WestCoast Park till 4 am discussing abt how NHDS shld proceed in the future.... Haha, now come to think of it, we were really so concerned... a bunch of NHSS grads staying up late on fri night aft dance prac, go makan, then go talk cock, in the end talk abt NHDS can talk till 4 am... haha, siao one....

Well, at least i say i m not as concerned for NHDS now, cos i find it rather hopeless, i feel i cant help much liao, I m too old 4 them, the task pass on the Weihong & gang go do ba...

Time flies, i cant do anything to stop it, all i can say is tt time makes human beings seem so small, so helpless, so insignificant...

Well, this entry is to u guys out there, who juz entered NS. now the bulk of u except the poly studs, haf entered NS, latest being Zhenyu who juz did so on Fri =) Well, the past 3 yrs its fun getting to know u all. Enjoy ur 2 yrs of break from all the academic studies' demand. enjoy life ba... Any probs feel free to come ask me abt it... =)

All the best to u frenz out there; Zhiyan, Zhenyu, Sam, Maorong.... Despite all the fatigue u all may encounter in NS, still hope tt some days we can meet for a decent dinner, not those hastily arranged ones... =)

Cheers!

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Tattoo 2 Foreword

Juz completed another essay.. I enjoyed the process alot.. Didnt know tt essays could be completed in such a way as well.. Dear readers, pls take a look at the 'new' essay Tattoo2. If u haf read the previous work(Tattoo), u shld realize something by now (similar yet different). Well, i really enjoyed the process cos i didnt know an essay can be completed in such a way like i did.

It was experimental, i dunno how my readers will react so friends pls feel free to comment, this idea flashed past my mind when i was on my way home alone on the bus. nothing to do so let my mind run wild, suddenly thot of trying an interesting experiment. =) It shows tt an essay doesn't haf to be written from top to bottom.

Well, the same issue applies, if u dun understand my essay, pls refer to the previous foreword (entry dtd 4th Apr) for the original work 'Tattoo'. Tt foreword mentions how this particualr essay may be read/ interpreted.

Haha, so happy, juz like as though i re-choreographed a dance, old yet new... Didnt know it can apply to writing essays as well... =)

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刺青 (续集)

孤寂的夜晚，寒风不停地吹，我踏进冷清清的房子，卸下一天的疲惫。走进这看似熟悉却又陌生的客厅，在你最喜欢的沙发坐了下来。随着便播放了你最喜爱的那一首歌。房间里还摆放着你最喜欢的白玫瑰。过往那些零零碎碎的片段亦逐渐一一浮现在我眼前。。。

画面中的我们充满著甜蜜、洋溢着幸福。画面里有欢笑，有泪水，有快乐，有悲伤，有着我们的点点滴滴。无奈已经时过境迁，此景不再，假如这一切都能重演的话。。。

在路上行驶，景色迅速从眼前晃过，树叶簌簌飘落，你仿佛就坐在我身边。夜景那么迷人，既可以慰藉孤寂的心，却也令人更容易染上孤寂之感。我怀念那段你常依偎在我怀里的日子。。。

独自漫步在海滩上，阵阵海风迎面吹来。今夜的星空单调暗淡，与我的步伐不谋而合。走在沙滩上，只听见浪声频频。。。

对你的想念从来没间断，看着房子的每一个角落，都遗留着你的香味，你的残影。即使我再怎么努力，我都没法将你忘掉，为甚么？是否因为我们彼此之间的距离不会因时间的流逝而有所改变？我忘不了你。。。

此时孤影无人相依偎，没有乘客的巴士显得冷清，空调格外地冷。你不在身边，已无人挽着我的手。我身边的坐位空了，人影消失了。一排一排的街灯照亮着马路，却照亮不着我心中的旅途。路上没有行人也没有其他车辆，我仿佛处于一座孤城，在这个悲情城市里来来回回。。。

浪声频频，海风阵阵，不知你现在是否在颤抖 ？在这冰冷的夜晚，不停颤抖的你是否需要我在身旁？还记得当一切开始时，就是你让我心里泛起涟漪，像是海上那绵绵不断的浪涛。我一直想与你在海滩上漫步，因为海洋似乎能够洗涤心灵，希望面对着海洋时，你那疲惫不堪的身心能够得到平静。。。

在这繁忙拥挤的都市里，若我不小心遇见了你，我大概会笑着对你说，你好我很忙；但这一切其实都只是表面话而已。我真的没有把握，万一眼泪不自觉地流下，落在那早已凋谢的白玫瑰，万一泪珠在白玫瑰上凝结。。。

此时你是否也在某辆车上，单独地踏上归途？ 你身边的坐位是否也空着？在这漫长的路途中，你是否想起了从前？从前常坐在身旁的那个人？欲哭无泪，仍然心疼你。。。
在房子里徘徊，漫无目的徘徊着，一份莫名的悲伤在空中弥漫着，我也不知心中是何滋味？我只是清晰地感受到心中一阵阵的绞痛，这一份绞结似乎将心给绞碎了，一种麻麻而又酸酸的感觉，让我呼吸不顺畅，仿佛缺氧快要窒息。那遗留下来的香味，搁浅着的照片，未删除的简讯，都是一些忘不了的记忆。。。

繁忙的都市，庸庸碌碌的生活，淡如水的交情，面对着最熟悉的陌生人，你好我很忙。我真的没有把握，万一我真的恨你恨得说不出话，万一心仍在淌着血，血珠滴落在那早已凋谢的白玫瑰，染红那纯白的花瓣；心好痛。。。

在黑夜的这个旅程我不知道会在哪里下车，也不知终点在哪里。途中会否有人上车填满我身边的坐位，我亦不知晓。漫长的黑夜，毫无终止的车程，一排排的街灯陆续从身边晃过，显得越来越渺小；一切仍持续着，你已远去。。。

在厨房泡了一杯咖啡，记得怕苦的你总会加上许多的白糖。为什么我还记得？你犹如刺青，像我的另一半，无法割舍；无论我今后和谁在一起，都无法忘记你。我不怕离开你，只是不知离开你是否能使我忘了你？

早已远去的你，我已无法在这片情海里寻觅 。即使我再怎么用心，再怎么舍不得你，一切都已消失于情海之中；就让我沉溺于无边无际的深海里，沉溺于过去的记忆，沉溺于你的温柔，永远不再醒来，永远~~~~~~~~~~~

在这个都市，人来人往，所有人都与我擦肩而过。你犹如刺青，像我的另一半，无法割舍；即使我今后和别人在一起，都无法忘记你。看着你忧郁重重的双眼，心中的绞痛更是挥之不去。为何你离开了我却没有得到幸福？心疼你离去之后没有得到幸福，离去之后仍没找到理想的天堂。请你过得比我幸福好吗？日子一天一天地过去，眼泪一直不停地流，心痛的感觉依然持续不断。。。

在浴室里面对着镜子，我仿佛又看到了你的影子。你呢？是否也常透过玻璃窗看到我？我好怕，真的好害怕。你犹如刺青，像我的另一半，无法割舍；害怕纵使你今后和别人在一起，都无法忘记我。。。若能减轻你内心的痛，减轻那份麻麻而又酸酸的感觉，我情愿你失去这个刺青。

你犹如刺青，像我的另一半，无法割舍、无法舍弃、无法装做不存在；即使我今后和别人在一起，都无法忘记你。。。
若你真的爱过我，不妨在夜阑人静的时候，看着窗外的绵绵细雨，偶尔想想我。。。

Thots aft viewing I NotStupid 2

Continued from part1, the next thing the movie over-simplifies is the fact tt living alone is diff from living together. What i mean is: it emphasizes so much on individuals, tt teenagers empthasize with e character in the movie as it is so 'real' a replication of themselves. Hence they may become so happy and involved in themselves, they neglect what is ard them. Many of the teenagers today cannot live in grps. Take NHDS for eg. so many of them dun come for practice simply becos they 'today no mood to dance' which is so inconsiderate. Cant they juz understand tt every absentee brings about so much implications for every1?

Next, they cant work with one another simply becos they bu shuang. Unable to put aside their differences, they fail to excel as a grp. Only work with ppl whom they like, or can click. This movie has the tendency (not absolute though) to make teenagers even more self-centred, as they now r more aware of their own situation/ status in the society. Every1 in the edu systm is commenting on: how to treat students better, how to make facilities better, make life better for them, less stressful etc. Well, i dun comment on whether tt is e correct direction we shld head towards, but undeniable fact is tt all our teenagaers will continue to live in their own world, and eventually may be unable to live in a grp which consists of many diff types of ppl.

In the army, workplace, clubs/ societies, there bound to be differences among ppl who r trying to accomplish a similar goal via their own methods. If teenagers are unable to put aside all those vitiating factors, they cannot work as a grp. The above sentence esp applies to the current NHDS and i believe the future NHDS as well.... =(

Okie, enough of all these... Lastly i wish to end by saying tt, hopefully i brought out another viewpt to all audiences of INS2 so tt every1 does not get swayed by the movie which is in a certain way, too commercialized with "ulterior" motives. Well, though i studied theatre & cinema studies in Uni, i dun wish to bore all readers with the technical stuff. Next time when i more free, maybe i will post another entry simply on technical stuff =)

Meanwhile, pls feel free to continue comment on my entry. wanna blast me down oso can...
Lets haf an active discussion =)

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Thots aft viewing I NotStupid 2

Juz watched INS2 directed byJack Neo. As claimed by the media, it is a touching movie. Well, but to me, its not tt a good movie aft all... I m not criticising the movie, but my opinion of the movie is tt it is over-simplified, neglects many factors, over-emphasizes on unnecessary things and even exploits the human softness for e so-called pitiful ppl. Dun believe? juz read on...

The show touches many hearts on the part tt many teenagers feel they do not get their parents' understanding, and the part on teachers looking down on students wif poor grades. Therefore teenagers end up being lonely etc. DO u all start to see that the movie is directed in such a way, it makes u, the audience, start to empthaize with the teenagers? This is what i mean by exploiting the audience's hearts. A similar eg would be the showcase of Patients' life during NKF charity shows. Those video clips touch our hearts, but eventually it is disappointing to know tt our $$ went to unnecessary things like the Golden Tap.

Dear readers, pls take a neutral look at INS2 again. U will realize many of the things tt r portraited in the movie are over-simplified, over-emphasized. For instance, INS2 talk so much abt parents working and neglecting children. well, look on the other side of the coin. Teenagers nowadays have so much luxury goods tt they become a necessity. They have iPods, New Hp every now & then, New bags, new clothes. And mind u, all these r bought within a time period of few weeks...(not like CNY need to buy new clothes etc) If parents dun work till mad, how to afford all these luxury goods? Dun believe me? Go Visit blogs of many sec sch kids and take a look at their wishlist/ blog entries. U realize they go shopping almost every week (not window shopping hor). They exclaim that they juz bought how many new tops or bags again. So now, tell me, is it parents' fault?

Hello, close frenz ard me know tt i recently then buy mp3 player, & i still using Discman. All these luxury goods were bought using my own $$. so there is a diff. And i dun deny the fact, tt got ppl even poor till discman oso cannot buy. Yup, so what r those kids in INS2 complaining abt? Haf they ever think in the shoes of their parents?

U may be thinking tt I m speaking too much on behalf of parents, Yes i am, becos the movie is too skewed towards the teenagers, i m bringing in another viewpt to hope tt audience dun get swayed in your views regarding the truth in our teenagers today. The movie overemphasizes too much liao.

Next, over-simplification of facts. In the movie, u see so much of public canning issue, the dialogues of the movie all stand in the side of teenagers. Well, let me tell u some of the events i seen in sec sch nowadays. Not ABSOLUTE tt those canned will live with shame. Nowadays, i DUNNO the word 'shame' has how much weightage in teenagers' hearts. Frenz ard me, esp NH dancers, do u agree with me tt how come recently 2 yrs NH dancers AS IF frequently get canned publicly in sch? NHDS kanna whacked by almost all teachers in NHSS for discipline issues? Why? Arent they sad/ ashamed tt NHDS 's reputation is going down the drain? Not ashamed tt a dancer no longer has standing status in NHSS? Yet they can still continue their nonsense. Is the society not giving them 2nd chance? Is it the sch's fault? well, no abosolute ans, think again, and of cos, watch INS2 again...

By now, u may haf realized tt there r many issues tt r hanging with no abosolute ans. I trying to balance the whole issue cos INS2 is too one-sided.. why not think again? So many ppl see liao say they r touched, adults interviewed say they will reflect on their own actions, while teenagers interviewed simply expressed their happiness tt some1 is finally speaking up 4 them.. Then who will speak up for the adults? (ie. Teachers, parents, etc) Pls lah, forget all ur Fila/ Adidas Bags, Clothes, iPods, Laptops etc lah b4 u try to play down ur parents again.... =(

I wish to write alot more but this entry is getting long so may be i continue as a separate entry another day....
Dear frenz, pls leave ur comments, i appreciate a discussion on this =)

End of part 1

MY inner thots regarding NHDS '06 batch

Time is May 1 '06, read lots of entries in the Nhds blog regarding their speech day perf and all the issues that happened. Got lots of thots, actually wanted to post an entry there one, but decided to update my own blog instead... =(

Its damn siao lor... Well, anyway i v sian abt what is happening in nhds liao. actually oso v sian abt things in DI, all the dancers tt go there no longer haf passion abt dancing liao... dunno they go there for what, in the end go there piss mr low off only, make him more disappointed as the days pass by...

Jeffrey jio me choreograph a dance together, so well, i dunno how many ppl interested to join us but i extend the invitation here, anyone interested can just declare.. =)

So why did i bring in Jeffrey? simple, cos the issue here is its so freaking difficult to find ppl who r of the same interests as u.. Recently heard from Sam and zhenyu, ppl from the shin-13 oso not as close liao, its v saddening to hear all these.. take a look at those Superband contestants, i m so envy of them, not envy of their skills or what, but their ability to manage to find ppl who r as enthu as them... U see in NTU, DI, or even NHDS, how to find ppl who r as enthu (not necessary in dance but in things like wilingness to attend outings etc) as u?

The issue here is v sian cos nhds ppl dun cherish their abundant choice in sch... In such a big society, u can find ppl of similar interests more easily than in other places. (assuming citeris paribus) They got such a big grp, if they can act together, they can be a formidable opponent in SYF 07. Like what so many ppl commented b4, i oso say again, NHDS is really collapsing, damn demoralising.. The place i grew up in was not like this, and ain't supposed to like this anyway, ( since the instructor didnt change). His methods of teaching/educating students into dancers is still the same...

Dancing isnt supposed to be lidat... Its supposed to be something which u put ur heart into by rehearsing, pracising over & over again, showcase whatever talent/ creativity u haf, try to connect to ur audience and touch their hearts... tt is really how i think it should be... If dun achieve any of the points mentioned above, then might as well dun perform? Go dance at home in bathroom lah, or go disco pubs dance can attract attention somemore.. =( Dancing in a grp can really foster good friendships one, why cant nhds ppl buy that point? Dancing solo has a diff connotation, so it doesnt apply in this case.

Argh.... Sianz.. Siao liao, dun feel like writing anymore, oso dunno what i writing... =(

Tattoo - Foreword

Juz completed an essay.. started doing it this afternoon. This essay is titled Tattoo. I like this title v much. Y tattoo? is it becos tattoo is something tt is originally not part of us but suddenly gels into our lives juz like ppl special in our lives? Ppl originally did not know each other, but becos of fate or destiny, they get to meet and get along, eventually gel into each other's lives and become an integral part of it... Rings a bell? does tt apply to u as well?

Dear readers, feel free to comment on this essay. This essay is extremely diff in nature as compared to my previous works, so readers may find it hard to understand what i writing if u read it the conventional way. For readers who r not used to reading/ interpreting abstract art, i offer a little guidance as to how u can read my essay if u EAGER to know what the hell i m toking abt... Juz take note of the alternate paragraphs, breakdown them alternately to read what is going on, and piece them back together later. U will then understand it..

For other readers interested in watching a movie/film instead, read my essay in terms of Camera Cuts. Take every paragraph as a camera cut and shift of scene, then u will be able to link the story urself... =)

but of course, whichever approach u take in interpreting my story, u will still realize tt much is left unsaid. well, tt is for u to fill it in becos by filling in ur own story into the skeleton i haf set up, u may be able to feel more for this essay... =)

so, enjoy reading, and pls leave ur comments, thank u

End of entry

It rained today........

刺青

孤寂的夜晚，寒风不停地吹，我踏进冷清清的房子，卸下一天的疲惫。走进这看似熟悉却又陌生的客厅，在你最喜欢的沙发坐了下来。随着便播放了你最喜爱的那一首歌。房间里还摆放着你最喜欢的白玫瑰。过往那些零零碎碎的片段亦逐渐一一浮现在我眼前。。。

画面中的我们充满著甜蜜、洋溢着幸福。画面里有欢笑，有泪水，有快乐，有悲伤，有着我们的点点滴滴。无奈已经时过境迁，此景不再，假如这一切都能重演的话。。。

对你的想念从来没间断，看着房子的每一个角落，都遗留着你的香味，你的残影。即使我再怎么努力，我都没法将你忘掉，为甚么？是否因为我们彼此之间的距离不会因时间的流逝而有所改变？我忘不了你。。。

在这繁忙拥挤的都市里，若我不小心遇见了你，我大概会笑着对你说，你好我很忙；但这一切其实都只是表面话而已。我真的没有把握，万一眼泪不自觉地流下，落在那早已凋谢的白玫瑰，万一泪珠在白玫瑰上凝结。。。

在房子里徘徊，漫无目的徘徊着，一份莫名的悲伤在空中弥漫着，我也不知心中是何滋味？我只是清晰地感受到心中一阵阵的绞痛，这一份绞结似乎将心给绞碎了，一种麻麻而又酸酸的感觉，让我呼吸不顺畅，仿佛缺氧快要窒息。那遗留下来的香味，搁浅着的照片，未删除的简讯，都是一些忘不了的记忆。。。

繁忙的都市，庸庸碌碌的生活，淡如水的交情，我很忙。我真的没有把握，万一我真的恨你恨得说不出话，万一心仍在淌着血，血珠滴落在那早已凋谢的白玫瑰，染红那纯白的花瓣；心好痛。。。

在厨房泡了一杯咖啡，记得怕苦的你总会加上许多的白糖。为什么我还记得？你犹如刺青，像我的另一半，无法割舍；无论我今后和谁在一起，都无法忘记你。我不怕离开你，只是不知离开你是否能使我忘了你？

在这个都市，人来人往，所有人都与我擦肩而过。你犹如刺青，像我的另一半，无法割舍；即使我今后和别人在一起，都无法忘记你。看着你忧郁重重的双眼，心中的绞痛更是挥之不去。为何你离开了我却没有得到幸福？心疼你离去之后没有得到幸福，离去之后仍没找到理想的天堂。请你过得比我幸福好吗？日子一天一天地过去，眼泪一直不停地流，心痛的感觉依然持续不断。。。

在浴室里面对着镜子，我仿佛又看到了你的影子。你呢？是否也常透过玻璃窗看到我？我好怕，真的好害怕。你犹如刺青，像我的另一半，无法割舍；害怕纵使你今后和别人在一起，都无法忘记我。。。若能减轻你内心的痛，减轻那份麻麻而又酸酸的感觉，我情愿你失去这个刺青。

你犹如刺青，像我的另一半，无法割舍、无法舍弃、无法装做不存在；即使我今后和别人在一起，都无法忘记你。。。
若你真的爱过我，不妨在夜阑人静的时候，看着窗外的绵绵细雨，偶尔想想我。。。

Read lots of blogs from other sources
How come dancing become like tt?

Time is 12 Mar '06, I supposed to be doing tutorials & rushing proj but i end up blogging... Maybe becos too stressed, so found ways to de-stress a little... As usual visit all the blogs which i can find...

Read interesting things or rather, NOT so interesting things abt dance.. From many ppl's blogs, i gather info/ feedback tt they v happy to participate in Dance in Unity 2006 AKA He Wu Gong Ming. Well, on one hand, the entries expressed their self-proclaimed passion and interest for dance, on the other hand, they mentioned tt they didnt enjoy it due to the politics involved in DI. Maybe they r referring to me, maybe to others, i dunno. But i really think its kinda ironic; If u all proclaim to be passionate in dance, den it shouldnt hurt to practise ur dance steps, turn up for practices punctually, listen to instructions to help make the completion of tasks more efficient... If all these were done willingly & automatically with initiatives, there wont be any unhappiness.. By right, u dun need any supervisor eg. like me to go ard telling u to prac ur steps, it shouldnt be e case where dancers come to DI den juz sit/sleep ard, chit chat w/o any contribution at all... Mind you, u r preparing for a perf..

Dancing is a simple thing, why complicate it? I reckon tt ppl spread malicious remarks abt those who give out instructions. Pls lah, dun be childish, every1 can help in DI as long as u want. nobody is bringing in any politics. If u simply yearn to be the person giving out instructions, volunteer to be leader for the perf lah, aft all DI appoints leaders on event basis. If u dun wish to help, then be kind to those who volunteer to help, stop spreading malicious remarks abt them. It's on ur part tt u dun wish to cooperate, dun malign others to be guilty of bringing in politics into DI. Wah kau, anyone unhappy can simply go verify with Mr Low, c what kind of comments he give u? ask him DI gt politics or not? Bottomline, if u dislike the situation in DI so much, why come?

Maybe i m old, i seriously wonder what kind of thots students nowadays haf? Nowadays, volunteering to help becomes equivalent to 'trying to act big' or 'Playing politics again'. Sigh, all these comments are so childish =( if u unhappy wif the instructions, challenge him lah, then discuss and decide on a way to complete the task most efficiently...
This is the case in NHDS now lor. Nobody volunteers to do anything becos of e malicious remarks tt may surface, therefore nothing gets done. Everyone withdraws from completing tasks, everything is in a mess. Those holding leadership posts do nothing, the rest dun volunteer to assist for fear of losing friends.... What kind of friendship exists nowdays? The moment u step up as the exco committee, u lose friends... WTH? those also called friends meh?

Tired of writing... Got lots more to say but damn sianz liao.... DI lidat, NHDS oso lidat...

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NYJC Drama Perf 我们的白云岗 06

Well, time is 5 Mar Midnight, i juz returned from NYJC. Went there to watch their drama concert called 我们的白云岗, the equivalent of SAJC's 阳光幼苗, which is actually plays put up by students from their sch's respective Chinese societies. Its a yearly event in their sch and apparently Yiting is in NYJC involved in this production, so she asked me, den i say okie lor, aft all the tickets $8 only.

I went there and watched the 2 plays put up. Sorry to all readers, if u r not interested in Theatre & Drama, u will find the following content v boring cos i m going to critique and analyze the NYJC works. So if its not ur interests, u may stop reading, sorry abt it... =)
Cos its my interests to critique plays/dances/movies etc whenever i finish watching a perf.
N/B: Is critique & analyze, NOT criticise, its diff, pls get this clear...

There r two plays: 很狠爱、身边
The 1st play is relatively poor and has commited some common mistakes in Drama. Becos 1st one was not so good, the 2nd one aft the intermission, lifted the audiences' moods, and i felt my $4 well-spent aft watching the 2nd play. =)

A common mistake tt all school plays commit is tt students tend to revolve ONLY ard family, studies & BGR issues, having watched so many plays in my life, i felt a little bored... Honestly, tt was my personal opinion but sch plays always like tt.. Take note of my point the next time U step into a school drama perf & u will really notice it. Next, they r always staging plays of the Naturalistic Theatre aka Theatre of Realism (these r technical terms). This is so even in NTU & NUS. =( I dun expect students in sch to stage Avant-Garde plays but at least can try some alternatives like Poor Theatre/ Forum Theatre/ Absurd Theatre? Esp genres like Poor and Forum are v popular in Singapore now, why dun students try? Why dun teachers encourage as well? Juz try, aft all, theatre is a place for creativity. Cut off the Naturalistic Theatre, i mean every sch is putting up the same type of theatres, dun u wanna differentiate urself?

Next, the pitfall of Naturalistic Theatre. If u wish to put up a play of Naturalistic genre, Get the fundamentals and critical success factors (CSF) right. A play of such genre requires CSFs such as an FULLY-dveloped plot, well-written sentences with high literature value. Well, sad to say but the 1st play didn't get these factors. It's plot was half-developed and left audiences guessing to the extent tt they didnt even know the play ended... The dialogue was not impressive. It was too verbal with little/ no literature value.

Yes, it can be argued tt the playwirght wanted audience to haf freedom in their interpretation hence deliberately didnt want to develop the plot. But tt is where the pitfall is: U r not staging Avant Garde theatres, u haf to take care of the CSFs if u want to stage such a play genre. Develop the dialogues, dun leave audience guessing.. U can reveal e plot via a more subtle way but no guessing... For this pt, 2nd play did better than 1st play. There were so many audiences who were thrown off the 1st play tt they starting talking among themselves. (a rude thing to do during perf anyway, not respecting e performers at all)
The lessons here: Be sure what genre u are staging, what u wish to achieve out of this perf.
CSFs are CSFs, they cannot be ignored. Eg. if u r staging Poor Theatre, ensure tt ur actors r well-trained in movement and body expressions, cos Movement is the CSF of PT.

Next pitfall of both plays, there is too much scene cuts. House lights switch off/on too frequently, bringing too much disruptions to the advance of the plays. Each lightout is approx 20sec which is actually v long for a lightout. On top of tt, these lightouts are not due to the exchange of props/ change of costumes. Which means the lightouts can be done away with. (Esp more so if it was just to signify a change from Act1 to Act2) In Naturalistic Theatre, lightouts are minimal as they r considered disruptive.

Lastly one of the fatal pitfalls, Actors' usage of stage space is too limited and constraint. The decor of the stage occupied half the stage, and actors only act in e other half, didn't effectively explore the space on stage. For this pt, 2nd play did better than 1st play.
eg. Forestage Left is home, centre back is sch, forestage right is home dining table. Thereby when the actor leaves home from the left, he walks to centre back to attend sch, comes back home and walks to forestage Right to haf dinner. There is more utilization of space.

The lesson here: Actors dun juz act in the frontal stage, realize tt the entire stage is a 3-D space for u to explore. The tools for an Actor in Drama & Theatre is his body, his voice, his senses, his stage. Make full use of the stage.

Overall it was a commendable effort but can be improved. Sch plays usually make these similar mistakes so its not exclusive to NYJC only. I sincerely hope to see more theatres of other genres put up during sch performances......

Wah piang this entry took me 2 hrs =p

End of Entry

It's been raining since u left me

终于完成了这个作品！虽然作品出来了，但过程实在痛苦，特别是这部作品。这部作品依旧让所有读者自己诠释以及解读，但我特别想要提到的是为什么会有这部作品。为何过程又如此痛苦？读者们绝对有自由诠释我到底要表达什么，不过为了以后让我自己回想起这部作品的灵感，请容许我将作品来源写出来。

这部作品我要表达的是“既悲且无力”。其灵感来自我现在的生活。现实社会的资本主义、现实主义、金钱衡量成就的系统让我透不过气。在无可奈何、垂死挣扎、无助的痛苦情形下，这部作品有了主题，但仍未成形。之后，我觉得长篇大论地讨论人生大道理过于俗气，因此为作品抹上一层糖衣，将其布置成一个爱情故事/ 音乐录影。若读者们仔细揣摩，能够发现作品的各种比喻可以与现实生活挂钩。

但此话到此为止，因为我认为将我呕心沥血的文学作品与现实生活挂钩其实是一件非常没有美感的事。若不是被逼至临界点，我不愿这么做；实在有欠美感，甚至玷污了我自己。=(

我还是欢迎且恳请各位以自己的角度去观赏这部作品，也欢迎你们留下观后感。

It's been raining since u left me

天空一片白茫茫，寒气透骨的风阵阵吹过，一滴雨水从天而落，滴落在我身上，随着手臂缓缓流下，这时一股冰冷彻骨的感觉随即涌上心头，流遍全身。。。心灵深处的创伤隐隐作痛，我缓缓而行，在这永无止境的路上走着、走着、走着。。。

感觉到有什么东西一直在折腾我，却仿佛什么也没有。空荡荡的躯壳一路走着，意识中所有美好的回忆渐渐地随着雨滴从我的身上流逝，残留下来的只有那没有灵魂的躯壳和这无法复元的伤。冰冷的雨倾盆而下，淋湿了我的身躯，似乎试图将那些快乐与悲伤的日子尽数洗去。视觉的记忆最容易被遗忘，记忆中的画面将会随着时间的蹉跎而变得模糊不清。从今而起，我或许再也没有机会倾听你的声音，聆听你的心事。。。

我不愿记忆离我而去，不愿失去所有与你有关的一切！！！I don't wanna lose you now! 那熟悉的味道，那柔情似水的双眼，那双温柔、柔软如绵的巧手，都将逐渐从脑海中褪去，我不愿如此，无奈记忆却对我无情。心伤，心碎，即使心恨，都无可奈何，只因我无力挣扎于现实中。现实的洪流就像这场大雨，无情地捶打着我，无论我怎么挣扎，都无法躲避被袭卷的命运。。。

早已疲惫不堪的身躯，在雨中飘荡，我的心在淌着血。血红的心仿佛在燃烧着，一直燃烧，直至它变成黯然的死灰色；仿佛火焰已燃烧殆尽。心，依然还在跳动，眼睛依然可看到七彩彩虹，鼻子依然可嗅到白玫瑰的花香，耳边依然可听到连绵不断的雨滴声，但生命已无声无息地终结了。失去原动力，在人海茫茫的都市里荡漾着，犹如白云在这白茫茫的天空中漫无目的地飘着。。。

白茫茫的天空看起来朦朦胧胧，仿佛前头已无路，雨仍然下着。时间会随着雨水一起流逝，一切都会焕然一新，每样事物都会演奏起新的生命之曲，死亡的旋律也逐渐会被遗忘。当忘却的旋律不再响起，当雨水不再倾盆而下，当辽阔的天空划上了七彩彩虹，当生命旅途翻开了一个新的篇章，我的心却还。。。。。。

'Cursive' by Cloud Gate Dance Theatre Part II

I believe there is really much more to learn about Dance & Performance. The interesting thing in the sharing session with Mr Lin is tt i get to see the ugly side of Singaporeans. Tt day's audience are ppl largely from the Dance arena, Education arena & Drama arena. Many Singaporeans perhaps wish to display their sophistication as arts consumers, so during the session, instead of Q&A, many ended up giving their comments & critics on Cursive.

Hey, this is extremely shameful, esp when the comments turned out to be very superficial. One of those Eg. "Mr Lin, I feel tt Cursive is a good perf but i find the black costumes too plain, I think U SHOULD add some colors to ur costumes." Wah pls leh, the idea came from the Dance Choreographer himself, he definitely has his reasons for designing his costumes in black only. Ever seen Chinese Caligraphy in colored ink? Pls lah, understand the intentions behind the dance piece b4 u comment. Next, even though dance is open to interpretation, pls phrase ur questions/comments in a better way, Its rude to dictate the Choreographer what he SHOULD/ SHOULD NOT do...

Another eg. "I think this production is very similar to Water Moon, haf u reached a bottleneck in ur Ling Gan? I haf watched many perf by Cloud Gate, i realize e dance pieces r getting more & more similar." Wah piang, pls be more courteous can? Every single production is unique, even if u think its similar, dun shoot it straight to the Choreographer lah, so rude, act as if u very sophisticated. Music diff, costume diff, dance theme diff, everything oso diff, Even if movements a little similar, Internal Feelings of the dancers may be diff as well, How can u juz judge on the surface? Wah piang, e shameful issue is the attitude of trying to act 'sophisticated' but end up giving superficial comments.... =(

Sigh, Singaporeans huh.... =(

'Cursive' by Cloud Gate Dance Theatre Part I

Time is 3rd Feb, finished watching the perf 'Cursive' by Cloud Gate Dance Theatre at Esplanade. Learnt alot from this performance, shall not dwell on the dance piece, in fact shall blog down some interesting Comments by Mr Lin Huai-Min so as for my future references.

Comments:
1) I didn't come up with any idea for Cursive, everything is open to interpretation by audience"
2) Dance is open to any form of interpretation. There is no Ling Gan to start off with, It started with Adhoc techniques, after which we refine the movements into dance steps"
3) I choreograph simply becos I need a platform for my dancers to perform. The end result of the perf is not impt, the process of choreographing is where the joy lies."
4) Dunno what lies in the future for Cloud Gate, just proceed with every single day; the joy & passion is in uncovering something new & unknown everyday"
5) Evolution is a process tt a dance piece will go thru, thus the existence of the trilogy Cursive, CursiveII & Wild Cursive"

Many much more comments made by him, but these few are the ones i wish to record down. Link point 5) with 3), therefore, should understand tt there is no perfect dance piece in this world. Every single piece of dance goes thru evolution, thereby the process should be more enjoyable than the end product becos the end product will simply evolve into another product. The process is where the growing exists.

What is mentioned by Mr Lin is actually v similar to what was taught by Jeff Tan. Performing, is/should be open to interpretation. Process > End Product, Learn to respect & appreciate products put up by others, crucial point is whether the idea is solid & actualized, performers got perf with their heart & soul.

Interests/Passion Vs. Occupation

Haha, nothing to do now in sch. Wah piang wait for 6 hrs of break leh.. Can u imagine it? In the end i end up doing lots of quizs from quizfarm.com. Got this website from wei hong's blog. Ended up doing many of them but eventually chose 3 to publish in my blog.. =)

V happy with the quiz on Which is ur Perfect Major. As mentioned by wei hong in his blog, its easy to score dance as ur major as long as u answer Strongly agree to all those qtn regarding body movements. But what i m happy abt is not tt i scored dance for my Major. Nope, take a look at my other 'scorings'. The thing i m happy abt is tt i scored ties for 4 subjects, namely Dance, Theatre, Journalism, Psychology. Eventually when u score ties, the quiz will ask u one final qtn as a tie breaker. Of course, i chose the option which i know relates to dance. Hence, in a certain way, one may argue tt i mainipulated my own results. But tt is not e issue i m concerned with. The happy thing abt this quiz is tt I m now convinced tt I haf other career options in life. =)

FYI, Frenz reading this entry, I m going to be on Attachment to companies doing Accounting work soon. After a yr plus, I will be graduating and may be stuck with Acc work once & for all. Thus, it's really comforting to know tt actually there r other options in life. (Some readers by now may think tt i m childish juz basing my thots on an online quiz) Well, someday, u all may understand the tragedy when interests do not align with occupation.

At least aft i haf done this quiz, I am VERY SURE tt my interests lies in where I thot it would be. Which means I m not avoiding Acc juz becos my grades r poor, & tt I like those subjects mentioned above not becos I do well in them, but simply becos I haf a TRUE PASSION for them. Eg. I not doing any journalism at all in Uni, but I simply love writing essays & blogging entries. The happy thing I can say to myself is tt I m glad I HAF BEEN TRUE TO MYSELF all along; I didnt blame my poor grades on any external factors, I always know what i m doing, I go DI or NHDS not becos I didnt wanna study or act 'big boss' etc.

I did all i did simply becos I have interests & passion in what i chose to do.
Sometimes as we grow up, we might tend to lie to ourselves SUB-CONSCIOUSLY maybe to cover up for our failure, save our own ego etc. I m happy today becos I confirmed tt I didnt lie to myself or escape from reality sub-consciously... The feeling is juz so true & real. =)

Attachment coming soon, will last for 10 weeks from May to July, I still dunno whether I can get thru job interviews and in addition, deliver good results on-the-job or not... All attachment programs all seem so hard to me... =( I feel helpless in this kind of situations cos like in this quiz, I once again confirmed tt actually i dun belong to the Corporate Business Industry, I m not those 'everyday in Shenton Way CBD area trying to make more $$' kind of ppl.

Accountancy.........

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You scored as Dance. You should be a Dance major! Like a lithe ballerina, you dance because you believe there is beauty in expressing the physical form. Dance 100% Theater 100% Journalism 100% Psychology 100% Sociology 83% Philosophy 83% Engineering 75% Art 75% English 75% Mathematics 75% Anthropology 67% Linguistics 67% Biology 42% Chemistry 33% What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3) created with QuizFarm.com

What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!)
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You scored as Mermaid. Mermaid: Mermaids are also known as Sirens. These creatures were beautiful women who tricked sailors into becoming completely entranced by their haunting voices and found death soon after. Not all stories of Mermaids are about gentle loving sea people. They are mystical, magical, and extremely dangerous. They have a way about them that brings anyone they are around to seem enchanted. They are very mysterious creatures and to meet one... Would mean certain Death. Let the song of the Sea fill your soul, for you are a Mermaid. Mermaid 92% Angel 67% Faerie 67% Dragon 59% Demon 50% WereWolf 42% What Mythological Creature are you? (Cool Pics!) created with QuizFarm.com

What ancient breed are you?
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You scored as Wolf. you are a wolf, the second oldest but the strongest of all ancient breeds. your quick to anger but otherwise very frindly. you would do anything for your family and friends. Wolf 92% Vampyre 92% Elf 83% Drow 83% Sorceress 75% Faerie 67% Dragon 50% Shadow Spirit 50% Godess 50% Zombie 33% What ancient breed are you? created with QuizFarm.com

Reasons to keep me ongoing in teaching DANCE

Time is Jan 2006, a yr has past since 2005, (a yr i taught at Tanglin SS), as of today I can declare tt i think i haf done a great job last yr..
Becos of commitments this yr, I can only teach on Tues & Fri at Tanglin, & becos of school politics which now involve dance instructors from other dance companies, the situation has worsened & become more complicated...

Life is not a bed of roses, yup politics exist everywhere BUT sub-consciously i once wished tt politics will not be existent in e Arena of Arts cos Arts is supposed to be driven by passion & not profit since Arts all along is NOP organisations. But of course in reality, politics still exist everywhere lah.. So the issue goes where dance instructors from other dance companies enter Tanglin SS & wish to divide the pie into more pieces, reducing DI's share into a smaller one. (Cos Mr Low not interested in these kind of political struggles, so we juz made do with the current situation lor..)

These type of reasons reminded me of what Jeff Tan said in his lectures (Dun do arts lah, be a arts consumer instead of a arts creator, Arts creators are manupilated by $$ one... Give ppl use $ to pressurize one...) So yup, actually wat Jeff said is correct, Life not a bed of roses. Arts oso have its dark side, juz like every other thing else in this world... So readers, those who wish to Do Dance as a occupation, be ready to face these ugly situations, & oso haf to be cool with it... =)

But, amidst all these unhappy & ugly things tt happen, i realize tt there is something tt give me motivation to go on (juz like what gives Jeff motivation in carrying on what he is doing, is he manage to *unplug* some students every semester.) is tt I managed to intro some students to the Dance Arena & make them haf interest in Dance.

This yr i m taking 2T1, 2N2 & 1E2. Apparently all quite rebellious classes. The motivation i haf is my last yr class 1E3 (now 2E3) now misses me so much, tt they acknowledge i m good teacher & wishes me to go back teach them on Wed.. Haha, unfortunately my class is Tues & Fri. The issue is not tt i haf a BIG ego tt my students muz say i m good. Nope, its the appreciation they show =) Once there is appreciation, at least i know someday in life, there r ppl in life whom r influenced by me in their lifetime.. This is min. sufficient for me as a motivtion to carry on in DANCE... =) Anything more than this i would jolly welcome but yup i treat it a Bonus.. They wish me to go back teach them & oso indicated tt they felt the other instructors from the other companies CMI, Haha.... Tt's y i say lah... No pt Involve in so many politics cos in e end students r still the best indicator of whether i can teach or not...

Sub-ending

*unplug*
This is a v interesting event done by Jeff Tan. What it means is thru lectures & tutorials, he managed to teach Theatre studies & release our creativity + the way we look at issues/ productions. Thru his unplug process, u will look at issues (debate issues, relationships, human behaviour, politics etc) / productions(whether dance, drama, movies etc) in a new & revolutionary way which u would nv haf thot of in life...
Yes, is nv thot of b4... Hence the term *unplug* cos the analogy he used when conducting his lectures is tt he is Neo in Matrix & his job is to unplug students from their *fixed train of thought* & unleash our creativity as well as look at things from a v diff perspective, which hence as if gives them a new life... =) Though ideally is hope to unplug all students but usually he only managed to 'save' some every semester, BUT its already enough to keep him moving on... Yup, so M I... =)

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2006- events during Dec holidays

Well, here to record some events i enjoyed during the Dec holidays.. Basically this holiday is The one i enjoyed most for the past 3 yrs maybe?? Ever since NS? Lets start.. Firstly, there is Zhenyu's b-day celebration at Downtown East chalet. Well, i shall not elaborate much on this event cos there was an entry on this earlier. (interested parties kindly refer to earlier entries)

Next, I gained more exp in Dance instructing as i went over to Ai Tong Pri Sch at Bishan to teach for 5 days. Choreographed a SYF dance for them, introduced by Mr Low one... Next, went on to a dance company called 'Dance on Us' to teach Wushu. Then this was the one i kanna 'complained' to Mr Low, they said tt i wasnt strict enough as a instructor, wasnt able to control the little kids aged 5 to 13. Well, readers if u all know me as a dancer, i guess u all might be laughing at this 'complain' now huh?? Well, i do not wish to touch on this issue anymore cos it was an unpleasant exp anyway..

Den move on to 31 Dec, i spent the night over at Zhenyu's house, Haha i ended up reading comic books (belonging to my era, Dragon-Ball) & i enjoyed them so much tt i laughed at all those comical jokes... Michelle, on the other hand, was so surprised tt Dragon-Ball so funny meh? How come Zhongyi siao one, can laugh till like tt? She gave me a kind of 'u siao ah? or u loser leh' look... Hehe.. But its alright, i explained to her tt when u r in the adult world for too long, kiddish stuff such as comical jokes can actually brighten up my day.... It's the cute cute jokes tt really brighten up my day, make me feel better as an adult...

Now move on to today; 7 Jan 2006 NHSS CCA Extravagenza
Well, NHDS ppl managed to pull it off. I personally give credit to the exco & Wei Hong for making it a success.. NHDS managed to 'pull customers' from other CCAs, well, i believe many students are interested in Dance now as the 'marketing strategy' was a success... Si Aun, Shi Bin can make good salesperson sia... Good public speaking.. Okie, not so bad, my efforts to go there early are not wasted... =)

Okie so far for now, a simple entry to record how i spend my Dec holidays in 2005. To me, its rather eventful, many things happened....

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My 8th Essay in 2005

Wah, shiok, v comfortable aft writing this essay, this one it took me abt 2 days in all. I started abt 3 or 4 days ago but slack ah, so strictly speaking only abt 2 days work.. Readers pls enjoy and as usual, post ur comments or even send me an email..

Next, i shall move on to the origins of my Ling Gan for this essay.. This essay is really shiok. Normal readers who wish to look out for a storyline, i m sorry u will be v disappointed. Cos my Ling Gan came from so many corners, it cant be formed into a story & i intentionally didnt wanna include a storyline, which i'll explain later why.

Origin 1: Sam's Blog song - Jay Chou's Feng (I went to check up on this song cos i liked the music melody from Sam's blog, didnt know it was a song, till some1 told me, i went to listen & check up the lyrics & wah piang, its damn nice)

Origin 2: Juncheng's Blog Wallpaper abt Sin & Forgiveness... (A really nice wallpaper, i guess its Final Fantasy wallpaper? Kinda liked the Sin & Forgiveness idea, so wanted to write something abt it...)

Origin 3: Songs by Rain - Still unfamiliar & Utada Hikaru - First Love (These 2 songs v sentimental & touching so it inspired me =))

Combine all 3 origins together & I have this essay as the final product... Hahaha... Feeling v shiok now. Now, the reason why i obmitted the storyline cos i only wanted to bring out the feelings of my origins, whoever is reading can thus feel free to put urself in the shoes of my essay & include ur own life story. In this way, u may haf a stronger sense of ownership for my essay, able to understand & feel IT in a better way... =)

So readers pls enjoy, & do leave ur comments.... =)

Feeling great now

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无法习惯

北风无情地刮着，大地弥漫着萧索、凄凉的气息。一股莫名的寂寞凄凉浮游于空气中，我独自在百花凋谢的这个秋天走着。秋天已到，树叶簌簌飘落，落得遍地。我缓缓走着，一步步都显得沉重疲惫，脚步仿佛背负着沉重负担。而这呆滞的步伐走得无声无息，仿佛走的人亦毫无生命。渐渐地，我在一棵树下停了下来。冷风霍然吹起，遍地落叶随风飘舞，围绕著我，仿佛亦感应到了我的黯然神伤。落叶与我擦身而过，带给我一份若即若离的感觉，气氛瞬间更添凄凉。。。

原谅我，我知道即使再怎么做，都无法挽回这秋天的一切。随着秋天的结束，冬季即将降临，而我亦会独自渡过这寒冷的冬天。然而，与你的共同回忆已深深烙印在我的内心深处，我无法习惯没有你的日子，无法习惯没有你在身边的感觉。深深想念着你的味道、你的微笑、你时而沉，时而轻的呼吸。。。记忆中的你带给我无限的欢笑，犹如春天的阳光，明媚温暖，不带任何杀伤力，缓缓地溶化了冬天残留下来的冰霜。我仍无法习惯没有你的每一天，就如从前一样。在你离开的这个秋天，树叶枯萎了，我的脚步变得呆滞，我的身心交瘁、疲惫不堪，我的生命无声无息地结束了。。。

原谅我，I wish to be forgiven。此时此刻，你不在我身边；而回忆的片段不断地在我脑海里重复著。风，仍不停地刮着；叶，亦继续飘落；我的伤口也依旧没有抚平；思念还是持续不断。一阵莫名的悲伤汹涌袭来，我忽然感到肩膀湿答答的，抬头一望，原来天空已下起雨来。这一瞬间，我已无法分辨出究竟是我因悲伤而落泪，还是天为你我的故事而哭？泪水与雨水已混合在一起了。在这凄凉的秋天，这一阵冷冷的冰雨与片片的落叶让我深切地感受到失去你的‘痛’。今晚落叶簌簌下，满天繁星如我泪。。。

繁星点点，多不胜数，但每一颗星之间的距离却又那么遥远，仿佛就如你我之间的距离。背负着种种的过错，我祈求得到宽恕，即使我知道一切都无法挽回并且都会在这个秋天结束。。。

犹如这场绵绵不断、毫无终结的雨， U will always be inside my heart, I hope I have a place in your heart too.....

Dance Exchange Program @ NHSS 2005

Time is 21 Dec. Well, i didnt intend to join in or even go down to NHSS today, but becos of something i need to go down look for Mr Low and explain everything to him, so basically i went down. I do not wish to spell out everything here cos i really wish to put things behind me. As i said, my blog is a paperless collection of my memories, i wouldn't want these unhappy memories to be recalled when i read this entry again in the future. Basically its abt dance instructing stuff.

Okie, so i went down to NH today & sat there the whole day while they played games. All 4 schs were there & yup they perf items turn by turn. Then the ketchup song came & they started to party. Wah Lau, Mr Low muz haf done something to the tempo of the song. The tempo is damn fast, perhaps twice as fast? or one-half times? Next is the Countdown dance. Wah Piang, tt one can confirm is MINIMUM twice as fast. Haha, den Mr Low call us grads go down dance with them as well. It was really a shiok dance. I haf nv danced this dance with dance steps twice as fast b4, so finally got a chance to pit my personal speed with the music, Wah Piang, really shiok man!!! It was a challenge sia, i pit my speed against tt of the music, taking note of my actions, making sure i didn't 'eat' my steps in a bid to catch up with the music, eventually i put in effort & yup, managed to prove to myself TODAY tt i could still catch up with the twice as fast music.
Cos frankly speaking, long time nv dance full-up liao, & to fast music somemore. I v long nv attend Patrick's lessons, so v long no chance to come into contact with fast tempo music. So today is really to prove to myself tt i can still catch up with fast Tempo. V Happy, at least it eliminated my depression since morning.. Yup, so ended today's Exchange Prog at NH with the Countdown dance, with me joining all the students from: Crescent, Nan Chiau, Nan Hua & Tanglin, for the sake of challenging myself. & yup, glad to know tt i still Can Make It. =)

A fast dance is really tiring sia... But really challenging & Shiok!

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Introduction & Appreciation
(Cocktail + Jay Chou's Fa Ru Xue)

Time is 10 Dec '05. Last night was Zhenyu's birthday, we celebrated it via a 3day 2 night chalet at Pasir Ris Downtown East. First night i was quite happy, introduced a drink of Baley's Irish Cream with Hershey's chocolate to everyone present tt day. They liked it alot, & I was glad, after all, it's nice to introduce to ppl (esp ladies) these drinks with low alcohol content yet tasty. Haha, esp Joanna, Ivy liked it so much, they kept asking for more.. Though Mei Fang didn't drink much, she still gave acknowledgement tt the drink was nice...

=) It's satisfying to know tt ur introduction of things to frenz are appreciated

However, last night, i didn't haf a goodnight's sleep & yup something happened in the midnight/ early morning during the chalet den i got headache till this afternoon.. Then came home to sleep this morning but headache still didnt subside.. Moreover, still need to use brain over some issues, make me even more headache..
So aft my lunch, i went to sleep again but this time i did some music therapy as i get into sleep.. Hehe, miraclously my headache subsided.. =)
So here i m to introduce this magical song to my blog readers.. Fa Ru Xue by Jay Chou

The lyrics are below, pls enjoy & feel the song, it's really unique in a certain way, very good for music therapy. As i listen to the song, i slept with full relaxation (dancers reading this, u all shld already know its v difficult to relax all muscles even in sleep), yet i managed to do it with e help of this song.. Ppl who cant get to sleep/ haf headaches, i intro this song to u.
Another song oso worth mentioning is Still Unfamiliar sung by Korean Singer - Rain. Those in the chalet should know,i played ths song on Repeat mode last night.. Yup, these 2 songs r quite good for music therapy. U all may haf ur own choices of songs as well but do try out my suggestions.. At least they worked for me =) U dun expect to play Hip Hop/ heavy groove music for music therapy right? I think will even more stressed..

Readers, thanx for reading & yup, enjoy the feel of Fa Ru Xue, appreciate the beauty of this song, from lyrics to melody etc. Music Therapy is not juz listening to music alone, FEEL & APPRECIATE it... Understand the lyrics may help.. =) Anyway diff ppl got diff ways, try them out =)



歌曲：发如雪

歌手：周杰伦 专辑：十一月的萧邦

狼牙月伊人憔悴我举杯饮尽了风雪
是谁打翻前世柜惹尘埃是非
缘字诀几番轮回你锁眉哭红颜唤不回
纵然青史已经成灰我爱不灭
繁华如三千东流水
我只取一瓢爱了解只恋你化身的蝶

你发如雪凄美了离别我焚香感动了谁
邀明月让回忆皎洁爱在月光下完美
你发如雪纷飞了眼泪我等待苍老了谁
红尘醉微醺的岁月我用无悔刻永世爱你的碑

rap:你发如雪凄美了离别我焚香感动了谁
邀明月让回忆皎洁爱在月光下完美
你发如雪纷飞了眼泪我等待苍老了谁
红尘醉微醺的岁月

啦儿啦啦儿啦啦儿啦儿啦啦儿啦啦儿啦啦儿啦儿啦
铜镜映无邪扎马尾你若撒野今生我把酒奉陪

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散文 <<瞬间の永恒 - 序>>

永恒不是永远。有人常常把永远与永恒搞错。永远与时间有关联。永远是用于指时间的长久性。永恒却和时间没有关联。它原是指不变的东西，因此有“永恒不变”的成语。它着重于不变的那种特质。所以才有这样的说法：钻石是永恒的。因为钻石不会变质，也不会因岁月的蹉跎的变形。
相对的，永远是因时间而定形的。例如：“你会爱我多久？”， “我会永远爱你。” 在这里，时间必须有存在的意义，那么永远才会有其宝贵的价值。永恒却不为此所影响。

永恒是和不变有关联，而永远是和时间的长久性有关联。

搞清楚了两者之间的差别，这篇散文的主题就不会矛盾了。因为瞬间与时间有关联，是指一霎那间的意思。而永远却是指长久的意思。因此，将主题读成瞬间の永远，不免自相矛盾，甚至不能理解作者最想表达的情感。但是，若将主题读成瞬间の永恒，就不难理解作者的用意。那代表着瞬间的不变。亦就是说瞬间的所有：包括了景象、天气、面貌、情感、承诺、回忆等都不会变。这些东西都会历经时间的洗礼，却仍然保持不变。其中，瞬间亦表示了“少”的可贵。

其意境与这两句话有点相似之处
“不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有”
和
“曾经沧海难为水，除却巫山不是云”

瞬间の永恒

在不知名的远处，有着一栋房子。在这偏僻、毫无人烟的地方，根本没有人会注意甚至经过这栋房子，也从来没有人开启这房子的那扇门。不知过了多久,这间房子来了一位房客。她，什么行李也没带，就打算这么住下来。她轻轻地打开了这扇许久没被开启的门，一步一步踏进了这间房子。她试着探索这房子的神秘，到处摸索，在房子处处留下了脚印。初次住进这间不甚熟悉的房子，她却备感温馨，感到房子给她一种很贴心的亲密感。虽不知她会何时搬走，但她却已在这间房子留下了不可磨灭的脚印。。。。

某年某月某一天的晚上，在送她回家的路途中，他们坐在寥寥数人的车里，窗外一片寂静。路上不见川流不息的车子，只见一排一排的街灯。车的行驶速度并不缓慢，却不知为何，车子似乎永远不会到达终点。他们紧握着彼此的手，依偎在一起，享受着爱就在身边的感觉。尽管车还是以急速在路上奔驰，他还是希望这段路程永远不要结束。与她在一起时的感觉独一无二，非其他人可取代。

他孤高冷傲，从来就没有人能接近他，更没有人试着要打开他心中的那扇门。这扇通往他心房的门被紧紧地锁上了。而从来就没有人能打开这把心锁，她不知如何竟持有打开这道门的钥匙。亦唯有她，才能打开这扇门，借而通往他的内心世界，探索他的心灵深处。。。
在这里，她或许不会住得很久，但是却已在他的心田里留下了不可磨灭的脚印。这一步一步的回忆已足以陪伴他一生一世。。。

当她将手放入他的手里时，她的玉指恰恰填满了他手指间的指缝，仿佛就如她住进了他的心房，填满了他心中的空虚。她的手不仅握住了他的手，仿佛亦触碰到了他的内心深处。握着她柔软的手时，他深切地感受到她的心，仿佛紧握的双手已将两颗心连接在一起，竟连心跳与呼吸的旋律都一致。这一瞬间的所有已代表了永恒。。。

犹如流星划过天际，最灿烂的一刻已是瞬间的永恒。即使流星已不在，观星者依旧记得它在无边无际的黑夜长空所留下的色彩。她亦同样地在他心中留下了永不磨灭的回忆。。。。

一瞬间已足够。。。

散文 <<冰天雪地 - 心的接触>>

这篇文章稍嫌短了一点，所以决定把它定为一篇散文。这篇散文以冰、雪、心为主题，其中概括阳光与黑暗的关系以及时间的流逝与停顿。或许慢工出细伙，这篇散文我花了五个小时来完成，比起以往作品不知是否稍微逊色？但是，这部作品依旧是我有感而发，所以事先没做太多准备功夫，一切纯属即兴。灵感来自陈晓东的一首粤语歌曲：心的接触

希望读者会喜欢，欢迎你发表你的感想。。。。

冰天雪地 - 心的接触

在这个地方，仿佛天天都是冬天。寒冷的风无情地刮着，大地没有丝毫生气，处处弥漫着一种近乎死亡的气息。一切都停顿、似乎连时间与空间都冻结，仿佛连地球都停止转动。这片大地没有一丝阳光，存在的只是一片黑暗。既没有白天也没有夜晚；在这里，时间失去了它的意义。年、月、日、分、秒，都没有任何分别。在这一片毫无生气的大地，存在着一座冰窟，冰窟的深处存放着一样东西。这样东西被万年玄冰冰封着，摆放在冰窟里也不知过了多久，一切似乎对时光的流逝无动于衷。。。

他们在一个不知名的情形下邂逅了彼此。当她初次出现在他的生命中时，一切如往常。但是，却不知从何时起，她的情绪开始影响了他。她的喜怒哀乐成了他最在乎的事。这时，大地有了变化，漫长的冬季告一段落。寒冷的风不再无情地刮着，取而代之的是一阵清凉爽朗的微风。时间与空间已不再冻结，黑暗的天空中渐渐地露出一丝丝的曙光，为大地带来了温暖。黑夜与白昼轮流交替，时间有了其存在的意义。大地逐渐因阳光的温暖而变得生气勃勃。冰天雪地渐渐融化，冰窟崩塌了，万年玄冰亦融化了，露出了一颗血红的心。血红的心开始在这一片冰天雪地中跳动，每一个心跳都仿佛震动了大地，驱散了死亡的气息。冰封已久的心因她的关系而解冻，只因不知从何时起，她的一颦一笑在他心中激起了阵阵涟漪。。。。

在一起的时候，感觉十分奇妙，这份感觉很亲近、很贴心。心与心的接触很真实，她是否也感觉得到？和她心连心的接触，改写了他的结局，终止了那漫长的冬天，更为大地注入了灵魂、情感，使他不再是无情的一副躯壳。她为他带来的不仅仅是爱情，而是更多尽在不言中的情感。冰窟已不复在，玄冰也不再凝结，心亦不再被冰封起来。。。

手牵手，心连心，一起走向未知的明天已是幸福。不知这条路会通往何处，不知能携手一起走多久，只知现在拥有的一切已是幸福。结局如何，他们都不知道，抑或根本不想知道，甚至情愿不知道，只想此刻在一起，过着心与心紧紧相连的日子。。。

此时正是四月份，外头却不知缘故，竟然漫天飞雪；片片雪花随风飘落，毫不着力地落在他的肩上，瞬间融化了，只因她为他带来温暖，使那颗跳动的心不再冻结。。。。

<<窗外雨滴-序>> <Raindrop>

Well, another essay done.. This essay took relatively a shorter time. Basically it took me simply one whole afternoon & i managed to complete it. It may not be v well-done but i haf a sense of accomplishment becos this essay was done impromptu, w/o much planning unlike previous essays.
This essay, i got my ling gan from 2 songs; A song for Lady by H.O.T, Wu Jin De Si Nian by Lin JJ. However, the main theme of this essay came from the rain today. It's been raining from this morning till now, so i m here at home nursing my injury, den nothing else to do, hence came up with an essay. =)

Unlike my previous essays, this particular essay has no story line to follow, yah there is but readers may find some pieces of the 'jigsaw puzzle' missing, so u may find tt the changes in the essay r abrupt & not smooth... Hehe, well, its alright cos i only wanted to express some thoughts i haf w.r.t to the 2 songs mentioned above & the rain today. =) I suggest u play these two songs while reading my essay, u may haf a diff feel. Best if when u look out of the window, its raining at the same time when u r reading...

A simple piece of essay, readers feel free to give comments... As usual, i wont get offended, dun worry...

End of Entry

<<窗外雨滴>>

夕 阳西下，阳 光缓缓地从地平线上消失。。。清澈的海水因为失去了阳光的反射，不再耀眼。夜幕低垂，海洋仿佛换上了另一件晚装，营 造了另一种气氛。我独自走 在沙滩上，迎面吹着海风。如此漫无目的地走着，听着海涛击打在岩石上的声音，看着海面上溅起的浪花，时间就在不知不觉中悄悄溜走了。时间总是如此这般在人 类的不知觉中溜走。。。爱情亦是一样。时间是永恒的，对于时间的无情，它的毫不停留，人类处于被动，毫无反抗的处境，一切是那么地无可奈何。面对永恒的时 间，人类显得多么渺小。

她是我一生挚爱，我们的爱情经过很多考验，彼此之间的爱情却始终坚贞不移。但是即使多么纯洁的爱情，也敌不过命运 的摆布。仿佛在扮演着悲剧中的角色似的， 她的身体逐渐衰弱，但在医学上却找不出任何解释。日子一天一天过去了，时间无情地流逝，她变得越来越憔悴。被病魔缠身的她却依然故作坚强，强颜欢笑，不希 望身边的人为她伤心难过。在看似坚强的微笑背后，隐藏着深深的悲痛。我明明知道，也感觉得到，却无力挽回她的笑容。在笑容逐渐褪去的时光中，她的生命也燃 烧到了尽头。。。

纯 洁的白玫瑰枯萎、凋谢了，我的世界停留在一年前的那一霎那，一切冻结了。。。尽管地球还是继续转动，日子也依旧一天一天过去，我却犹如行尸走肉一般，毫无 情感。“对不起，Dear,我虽答应了你不再流泪，但无奈对你的思念还是没减少，而失去你的痛还依旧残留在心中，深深被埋藏在内心的某一个角落，我还是无 法忘怀。。。”

此 时，面对着窗外的绵绵细雨，我不禁想起我们曾经一起走过的路，所踏过的每一片草原。雨点绵绵不绝地击打在窗上；滴答、滴 答、滴答~~~ 雨点在透明的玻璃窗缓缓滑落，仿佛形成了一幅画。画中的那名女生多愁善；她虽然拥有雪白的肌肤，脸上却蒙上了一层忧郁，使她显得越加苍白。那一滴一滴的 雨点仿佛是从她眼中滑落的泪水，颗颗晶莹剔透的泪珠显得纯洁无垢，似乎象征着她真情的流露。。。她是因相思、分离之苦而流泪吗？我试图抚摸她的脸颊，感受 那令人温馨的体温，无奈触碰到的尽是冰冷的玻璃窗。我的心又再次沉淀到深海里，对她的无尽思念这辈子都不会减少。我们之间的距离也不会丝毫缩短。我 知道自己曾经答应她不会沉溺于 悲伤。而能让我见到她的唯一方法是透过雨天、透过那片冰冷的玻璃窗；亦只有每当下雨天，我才能再次见到她。即使如此，我们之间的距离还是让我触摸不到 她。。。

“能与你相爱一次，这一生我已满足。对你的种种思念，我将会把它埋藏在心里，让悲伤不再。” 能够慰藉这颗冰冻的心亦只有下雨天的雨点、只有你。。。

Thoughts & Feelings aft Lao Jiu The Musical 2005

Well, much haf been said abt this production, i haf gone thru alot, including one additional new injury inflicted by my fellow dancer. I shall touch on issue by issue in this entry. Honestly, the moment i got this injury, which i demmed serious, i was v sad, v v sad..
1stly, sad tt i cant practise dance 4 approx 2 months, 2nd, its the issue i wanna bring up in this entry.

With utmost respect to all readers & my frenz reading this entry, dun misunderstand my words. U all should know me well so i shall not think abt 'phrasing'... I'll juz pour out my thots w/o packaging them, pls understand..

The issue is I m injured by my fellow dancer, Mr Low's student. I wanna say why all of us r taught by the same teacher, turned out so differently? I dun consider myself a talent, hence i expect others to hit the same level as me easily, or even surpass me... There is room for improvement for me..
I m so sad is tt why r the students from Mr Low's classes getting more & more CMI? The truth y i was injured is really simply becos he couldn't grasp his amt of strength & his timing & positioning... Isn't a 'Mr-Low-trained' dancer supposed to know all these already? I dun blame him for this becos even Jet Li Jackie Chan in movies they slipped too, & injure too..
Hence, i m not asserting blame, i m simply sad...
I m sad becos the students who r being churned out of Mr Low's hands r getting more & more CMI. Yet, this isn't Mr Low's fault, i saw how he taught these students. Basically he taught me the same things when i was a student, but why did i turn out like tt, & those ppl turn out otherwise?

I m not advocating tt every1 muz be like me, muz be the same... NO!!! I m saying why these basic principles such as timing & positioning r not taken into account when they dance/ perform? I dare to say here, in my blog, tt all the current Sec 3s of NHDS oso make this type of mistake, they r juz pure lucky they didnt injure otheres yet... In a performance, like i always teach them as well, u muz be sensitive to what is going on ard u, u dun juz F***ing dance ur own dance steps & dun bother abt other things.. It doesn't work this way, it isn't supposed to as well... All these advice fell on deaf ears...

Hence i m so sad, which is y i blogged down this entry. Cant they be more careful, more enthu, more hardworking to improve themselves? I m sad becos If this carries on, i wouldnt dare & wouldnt want to dance with any of the dancers in DI liao, cos they jeopardize my life leh...
F***, this time is ribcage already damn serious liao, next time is what?

So the sadness continues, cos if i dun dance with them, i haf to part with my beloved dance... I really dun wish to.. But it doesnt mean i haf to compromise & accomodate these sub-standard ppl who will endanger my life-span in dancing... I wanna carry on dancing 4 a long term, i really wish to, the only possible way is tt they muz buck up...... Not i bring myself to tt kind of level to join them...

Argh................................... Why muz things turn out like tt?

End of Entry (with sadness)

Dance Exp in Events so far (from 1996 - 2005)
Edited version since 21 Nov '05

Blogged this entry so tt in future i can easily recall what i did during my younger dayz...
Realize my memories r failing me recently..
If u realize tt is the reason y i suddenly chose to blog...
A paperless collection of my memories...

1996 - NDP Mass Display
1997 - SYF Dance Competition Joyful Harvest(Gold)
1997 Dec to 1998 Jan - My 1st self-choreographed dance under guidance of Mr Low (my idea was later adopted & edited by Mr Low for 1998's D.I. production Snake Dance) Titled: Zhan Wu Bu Sheng
1998 - SYF Mass Display at Kallang Stadium
1998 - Hope, Vannessa Mae dance (e table & chou)
1999 - SYF Dance Competition, Forging Ahead (Gold)
1999 - Suntec Millenium Countdown (at top of Fountain, circle road) - Forging Ahead
2000 - Kallang Theatre, He Wu Gong Ming 2000 - The world in the Magical Box *w Guang Ming + Han Qiang etc
2000 - NKF event at e water area opp Istana Park - 30+ min dance (comprieses of: my very 1st self-choreographed solo dance under the guidance of Mr Low, Titled: Pan Gu (duration 10 min) + The world in the Magical Box (editied version, 15 min) , + Hope)

2000? - I think.... Chingay at Nicoll Highway
2001 - Quit 4 'A' Levels
2002 - Go back NHSS help the Chingay at Padang
2003 - Aft Commission, later half of the yr go back join Mr Low
2004 - NKF event at e water area opp Istana Park - The world in the Magical Box (diff from 2000, is this time no stage, straight away dance in water) Path Productions
2004 - Wu Ju 3 (collaboration w Foo Chow Assoc) Kopitiam + Bottle up
2005 - Chingay 2005 @ Orchard Road
2005 - NDP 2005 @ Padang
2005 - Lao Jiu The Musical 2005 presented by TTP

Out of the list unmentioned are minor performances such as Cultural Pot & Sch Anniversary + Comm Centre perf....


Partners i have cooperated with thru out the years:
1996 - Xueping
1998 - Lee Hao Yih, Chuiling, ZhiQian, Cai Shiming, Jingling
1999 - Connie Wan Ziying
2000 - Zhou Xiu, Hui Ting, QianHui, Xiao Huimin, Xiao Wanling
2003 - Xue Zhen
2004 - Shi Hui, Adelene Kong, Wei Yun, Yunyun

So far from 1996 - 2005 is lidat... (edited since 21 Nov '05)

Some dance memories:
*2002 Dec i went NHSS @old sch campus NHPS for e dance camp, is last time i saw Mdm See still as a teacher in NHSS....
*smth worth mentioning abt yr 2000 NKF event: Last chance 4 3 of us dance together Weiyang, me & Zixiang.. Weiyang nv dance since then...

Lao Jiu The Musical (Part 4/4)

The New Drama Centre

The venue where Lao Jiu is staged is at the New Drama Centre, above the new National Library. Lao Jiu is the opening performance for the new drama centre, thereby Shi Jian is the first troupe to use this venue for a performance. Haha...
Woah, the facilities there r good.. Well, i dun haf the chance to go to the control room to take a look at the control lighting & sound syst but the theatre is well-designed and furnished.

Why do i bother to enter an entry juz abt New Drama Centre? Cos last night during the rehearsal there, i suddenly realized once again why i had liked to perform... When i stepped into the dressing room of Drama Centre, woah, it was great!!! though with only 3-4 rooms, but each room is considered spacious. (Dun compare to Kallang Theatre lah, but its better than Vic Theatre) With a bathroom in each dressing room, moreover shower got heater. In dressing room still got personal lockers for putting belongings. Most impt, it is spacious, really spacious, can do all the necessary warm-up in there b4 going on-stage..

The seating capacity of Drama Centre is rather small, the stage is relatively deep but not wide enough, approximately do 2 handspring can reach end to end liao.. The stage floor texture is smooth, too smooth till slippery, not v safe, do stunts v dangerous. The front seats are too close to the stage front, i can imagine Mr Low's dances sure cannot perform there... No place to jump down stage, audience is directly juz in front of u.. The dist from u to him is abt 2 rows of seats... But anyway, every stage has its uniqueness and i still exploring this stage.. =)

When i stepped up onto the stage of Drama Centre, it was a familiar feeling, like i haf found my long-lost friend... Recall: Do u know when i haf last stepped onto a theatre stage? It was in 2004, Wu Ju 3 in Vic Theatre. A yr ago leh... It was really a long-lost feeling...
Standing on stage, touching the curtains, all the side lights, walking on stage, putting markings here & there for positioning, feeling the stage floor, looking at the audience seats from the centre of e stage, all these feelings just came back to me again... I just felt happy all of a sudden, & juz so happy.
The dressing room gives me a comforting & familiar feeling as well... I always recall that dressing rooms (holding area) are always the places with most fun... In fact, i decided to bring my clothing, sleeping bag & my books to study at Drama Centre while waiting for my scene rehearsal... Haha, like the feeling of wandering around & exploring theatres...

I recall why i haf always liked performances in theatres. It is this kind of familiar, fun, wander ard feeling tt keeps me always interested in going to theatres to perform.. In fact, i seriously like them. I remember the first time i wandered ard Kallang Theatre to everywhere as if it was my playground. From toilets to hidden staircases, emergency fire exits, all dressing rooms, control room, & interestingly, how to get into theatre w/o paying 4 tix.

Enjoyed the rehearsal at Drama Centre last night, i found the feeling once again... =)
I want/wish to perform in theatres every now & then...

End of Entry

Lao Jiu The Musical (Part 3/4)

Haha, this part i wish to say abt the happy memories i haf when participating in Lao Jiu. It's damn interesting, i got to know so many ppl and tt they r so 100% professional, i m impressed. (though there r exceptions sometimes =p)

Let's just intro: till now i dunno many of them abt shall just try my best. 1st; Johnny Ng (Huang Jia Qiang Da-ge), oh cos every1 in Shi Jian address him as Jia Qiang Da-ge. He is my opponent in my fight scene and of course i m the one kanna beaten up lah, but he is damn professional. I shall touch a little on technical aspects; his powerful voice projection, his yan shen and hence the entire say, really walk like got wind blowing... Gangster really act until like gangster. professional.

Next, Jonathan Lim; Yup yup, he is tt Jonathan from Wild Rice, the assoc artistic director. In a certain way, he is currently Ivan Heng's Right Hand Man. Basically his skill the same as Jia Qiang Da-ge, dun wish to touch so much on technical aspects. He was also a ex-lecturer in NUS teaching Theatre Studies. He acts as Mr Jin in Lao Jiu, the person offering the scholarship to Lao Jiu.

Next, Lim Kay Siu; if u dunno him, he is Frankie Foo in PCK. Ring a bell? Well, he is damn good lor, he polish his chinese language v hard, professional sia.. In this show, he is really one of the most hardworking artistes.. Oso, his smoking hor, wah, Power... Haha...

Next, Alvin; he is the asst. director for Lao Jiu. Something worth mentioning, he is from Old Ox Theatre last time, so yah, if u know drama & theatre, u will know Old Ox ppl damn pro one, this one dun need elaborate. Something worth mentioning is his acting skills lah, imagine he can act ah-beng until so alike tt even Yongxuan oso scared of him leh... Wah, his yan shen & say is good man... In our fight scene, he was the 1 responsible for teaching us how to act like true ah-bengs, unlike what u see at the bus stops nowadays...

Next, Trey & Justin; Justin one yr younger than me, studying in SIM now, oso interested in Arts one lah, he is v into fliming, got productions participate in Singapore Film Festival b4. Trey, a yr older than me, wah lau, this guy is freaking good sia. He is now in NUS Theatre Studies, and oso an active dancer of NUS dance ensemble. His ji ben gong wah piang, so old liao still so flexible, i v impressed.. oso a little envy/jealous... sob, sob...

Next Mindee & Magdalene; well, they sometimes appear on TV as actors or models. Something worth mentioning is Magdalene's voice. Wah, her vocal damn good, powerful sia... high pitch too, the key v high...

There are many others who r all v professional but i still dunno many of their names yet..=p But i really wish to say: When they r on rehearsal, they usually full-up all e time & when they do, they r completely different. Their energy is focused on the stage, when in curtains, they keep quiet & dun talk to each other at all.. Fully focused on what is going on on stage, how to prep their emotions for next scene etc. Every1 is extremely enthu & nobody spoils the atmosphere, all fully prepared, 100% concentration, no giggling, no chatting. Though they r at side stage, they r fully involved in the flow of the show, so dun need to try to ru xi again later.

F*** lah, compare this to ppl in DI? No 100% concentration & devotion at all... Mr Low say muz let them come & learn from others, he meant this type of attitude & prep methods. Hence, these past months in Shi Jian, i really happy to exp this high level of professionalism, unlike in DI..

This crew is really fun to be with, i seriously enjoyed the rehearsals with them. The most interesting thing is our talk-cock seesions where we sit down & chat during waiting time. Wah piang, laugh till like siao, even Kay Siu & Jonathan join in our sessions... Haha... Interesting ppl..
I m v happy to haf met & know these ppl...

Something worth mentioning: Wah lau eh, Jeff Tan is really rather well-known in this arena, imagine when both Jonathan & Alvin talked to me, they asked me how come i know abt theatre stuff such as alienation effect, i said: oh Jeff Tan taught me b4, they said, Orh, Jeff Tan ah.... No wonder lah... They were full of praises of Jeff... Haha, with thanks to Jeff Tan, i was introduced to theatre & got to know this bunch of interesting ppl... Really happy =)

Lao Jiu the Musical (Part 2/4)

Well, this part i would like to enter my personal thoughts abt my life after participating in Lao Jiu.

I find myself so similar to the role of Lao Jiu and tt i face similar consequences regarding my decision. But well, right up till now, i dun haf the courage to decide yes, i go dance full time. Nope, i haf not. In fact, i may feel tt i dun even haf the capability to do tt. After all, i not like Connie who since young has been learning dancing etc. I dun think i m up to mark yet. Okie, this is the technical aspect, i dunno good enough or not.

Next, is the aspect of stable income. Actually Arts can oso haf stable income one. 1 good example is Mr Low. Others would be Drama Troupes like Wild Rice, TheatreWorks etc. All can make $$. It depends on how u do it, do u spend extravagently on every single production? So the stability comes from Sourcing. If u haf a great network of contacts, u can get jobs relatively easy, in such a way, income is considered rather stable. I dare say at least 4 a yr.

Next, is the aspect of Reality. Honestly, passion matters alot but it doesn't decide Everything. Life is not a bed of roses. I taught in Tanglin for a yr so far, i realized it's really damn hard. Wanna impart my skills to them, but they mostly not interested. Interested ones, not hardworking enough, learn a bit den give up... Sigh... Moreover, Life is harsh. If i wanna go full time i would haf to think of ways to up my profile, these may include winning in dance competitions etc. But reality is: in these competitions such as Funkamania, Anti-Drug etc, newcomers usually dun win no matter how gd u r. I dun think u even make it thru the audition. It is the regular customers tt choreograph & participate who win. So all in all, Reality bites.

So basically, its oso not tt easy to be like Lao Jiu, say decide den decide. U may haf to be like him, embark on a lonely journey w/o anyone beside u. And just like the ending of the drama, u dunno what lies in the future, there is uncertainty....

Lao Jiu The Musical (Part 1/4)

Time is Nov '05. As mentioned in past entries, i m into this musical by Shi Jian Ju Chang. Honestly, i learnt alot from this collaboration with Shi Jian. Though i just take up a minor role, but i got to know lots of ppl, & seriously learnt alot. Even thinking oso a bit change. After all, these theatre ppl always are always innovating. Whether in terms of thinking or productions, always got their own unique styles. =)

For this entry, i shall include the plot of Lao Jiu, and state out why i sincerely feel its a good script.. Kuo Pao Kun is really a genius with his She Hui Zhu Ti Ju Chang, always ever pointing out the 'sickness' of our society. Yup, to him, he may haf viewed it as sickness and other audience/ critics may not think tt the point he brought out is a type of 'sickness' but anyway tt's not impt. What impresses me is tt he managed to bring out these points which r close to our life and tt we can relate so closely to the script.. The plot goes like this:

Lao Jiu, the ninth child of the family, only son, is the pride & joy of his father, an ex-gangster. It was foretold that this brillant young man will achieve great success in life. Now on the brink of winning a prestigious scholarship (for the gifted) that will ensure a glorious career, Lao Jiu finds himself more fascinated by Puppetry, a dying art which no youngsters r interested. He yearns to be a student of Shifu, his dad's cloest friend. Torn between reality & dreams, modernity & tradition, he is determined to find his destiny.

Eventually he gave up the scholarship though he topped among all e gifted, and went on to learn puppetry from Shifu. But the plot has many underlying themes, it isn't just abt Arts Vs. Stable job kinda theme. 1stly, his father is like my parents, relatively lowly educated. He was a gangster when young, stayed with Martial Arts sch, learnt Wushu and didnt haf $$ to go study at all, not even primary sch. Having the only son who was highly gifted, it's natural he would want his son to get the scholarship & hence stable job & dun need like him slog like mad for the entire life. This comes in the theme abt our parents always telling us to study hard, get a degree, come out & haf a stable job..

However, his passion was in puppetry. Actually, tt is what is in the script but actually audience can interpret it in any way, u can simply put urself into Lao Jiu's shoes, and replace Puppetry with Dance/ Music/ Visual Arts/ Wushu/ whatever arts. So the theme abt Passion Vs Reality. So How? Usually ppl say those who do arts end up with no money, will be damn poor etc. So do u want a luxurious life or u dun mind as long as u spend everyday fruitfully doing what u love most?

So eventually, there is a conflict between him & his entire family, cos their hopes are all on him. So the issue here is: Filial Piety Vs Pursuing ur own dream? If u give up scholarship, u give up a successful career which can bring ur family out of poverty, in such a way, u failed ur parents, thereby considered unfilial. Or would u choose to pursue ur dreams & passion?

Next, the hint in the script abt dying art. If nobody takes up Arts as full-time jobs, such as Lao Jiu, eventually It will be too late and e Art will be totally lost. This is the interesting part in the script. In the ending, when Lao Jiu finally decided to learn puppetry from Shifu, Shifu died of a terminal illness 3 months later. N it was not stated in the ending whether did he learn everything he ought to from Shifu b4 he died. I mean, so what if Lao Jiu decided to learn? It was only 3 months, i dun think he learnt everything. In a certain way, the art may be considered lost. The issue is: When society such as Singapore does not place emphasis on dying arts, eventually it gets lost. I dare say many forms of arts in Singapore r already facing similar fate. Eg. Puppetry, Chinese Opera, Gao Qiao, and some music instruments in Chinese Orchestra.

The conflict here is tt nobody is right nor wrong. Its only natural tt parents want their child to haf stable income etc, but neither is Lao Jiu's fault if he decides to puruse his dreams. The conflict is tt, if Lao Jiu pursues his dream, he has to carry the 'name' of unfilial, selfish, not providing for parents' old age etc. Anyway, in the end of the drama, Lao Jiu's father passed away too not long after Shifu passed away. N the family members who once doted on him, started to 'mind their own business' so in a certain way, the family is no longer as close as b4. N Lao Jiu embarks on his lonely journey as an artist (puppetry). It is just a very bei ai ending.

The presentation of the script thru a musical is oso v good, can feel the sadness in every1, in the entire story.... There is alot to read from the show, i cant spell out everything cos its too much, even a simple dialogue has hidden meaning/ implications. So yup, its really a great script! =)